Today, my dad decided to act childish and just not go to our family's celebration. We were just about to head out but then he bailed because we were taking "too long." (Me and my sibling were already heading downstairs) He changed back to normal clothes and locked himself in his room. I felt so bad for my mommy because this was the day she gets to be appreciated besides her birthday and my dad decided to ruin the mood, but my mommy decided to be petty and just not get him takeout (well deserved). Then, when we got home my dad made me do some chores and errands so I decided to behave and listen to not make this day even worse than it is for my mommy since he usually shouts, points out my mistakes, and shout some more.
I am not looking forward to Father's Day.
I am not looking forward to Father's Day.
Made friends with this guy while studying abroad. We laugh a lot, make a lot of dumb jokes, a lot of teasing. Friends sus that he likes me. Lowk ignored it, but after hanging out at a picnic one time I started to believe it, and I couldn’t repress my feelings.
Here’s my problem, never liked a guy before, don’t want to date (especially since we live in diff places ) (1) but lowk want to tell him in a letter I’ll give him then ghost when I go back to my country.
(2) Or should I keep the crush, secretly write him a letter I’m never gonna send, go back to my country then ghost him?
(3) I can just squash the feeling I’ve done it before but it’s hard cause we hang out all the time. Then go back to my country and ghost.
So 1, 2, or 3?
Here’s my problem, never liked a guy before, don’t want to date (especially since we live in diff places ) (1) but lowk want to tell him in a letter I’ll give him then ghost when I go back to my country.
(2) Or should I keep the crush, secretly write him a letter I’m never gonna send, go back to my country then ghost him?
(3) I can just squash the feeling I’ve done it before but it’s hard cause we hang out all the time. Then go back to my country and ghost.
So 1, 2, or 3?
Personally, for all the times I've read BL that has crazy black, red flags. I would never date single one of them.
I like to read stories that has crazy characters, I just like the thrill, intensity and fun but if we're talking irl... That's different.
I'm just glad this is fiction and we can do whatever we want
I like to read stories that has crazy characters, I just like the thrill, intensity and fun but if we're talking irl... That's different.
I'm just glad this is fiction and we can do whatever we want
Coming off of heated rivalry and just not enjoying the stories I have been reading for a while.
I decided to ask for help from you wonderful folks. as long as they yearn for eachother I will be happy even better if it's completed.
Thanks everyone
I decided to ask for help from you wonderful folks. as long as they yearn for eachother I will be happy even better if it's completed.
Thanks everyone
Anyway... He's my junior ... I'm 2 years older than him but like he's way taller ( well not the point but ok) .... So we're super friendly and he's kinda like a dog cute time always calling and talking to me... And then we got holiday and suddenly he texted love you ( which btw he have never said before) and even said it on phone call.... And he asked if I was not interested in dating or currently dating someone and i said I wasn't dating anyone until I get a job? Which would be like after 6 months and he also kinda now the timeline .... But I do like him and now he's hardly texted me... I mean it's still friendly but now he doesn't initiates the text unless he's drunk?? So am I cooked or was he just looking for a substitute for his one sided love ( he asked a girl out which btw has a bf before we became close)
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If you ever went on a date what went wrong or what's something insane that happened? I remember when I went out with this girl the date was boring as hell and awkward then she had to leave 2 hours into the date and HER PARENTS STILL GAVE HER AN ALLOWANCE, pretty much when she was about to leave she left me stranded in a completely different county from where I lived so I have to pay $90 to get back home
Umm… so it’s like a guy likes me since 6 grade ( he said this to my friend ) and then we started talking in 9 grade like casually as friends then in 12 grade we were kinda in a situation ship but I broke it off cuz I got a ick during that time ? Idk why ….. and then later on we part ways ( we were in school together from 6-12 grade and then now I’m in college … it’s been like 3 years since but he doesn’t contact me that much anymore … and now I wanted to marry him but didn’t wanna be in a relationship with him ? ( yah I’m mad insane Ik ) and then recently I was drunk texting him and got mad at him and decided I’m finally leaving this shit but then my friend contact me saying HE calls her saying things like he wanted to marry me and that how he could understand me better and other things so then i called him days later but I don’t feel anything when I talk to him and like when I wasn’t using a phone he posted a story ( like low-key kinda insulting women ) it was “ so u want me to be financially stable inorder to date broke women and also pre fucked “ he posted this when he thinks I wasn’t using my phone … and I haven’t contacted him since cuz his behaviour was so ugh idk I hated it and it was shocking cuz he was the kindest man I knew but like I don’t think I’ll contact him anymore cuz I don’t like guys that don’t respect women! Anways do I seem like I genuinely like him or like his attention or is it just cuz i have issues ? Help I’m so confused
Falling in love is so stressful, especially when you've known them for years.. Like, why am I constantly filled with such a sense of anxiety and excitement at the same time? I enjoy being around them, I want to be around them, but just thinking about them makes my heart ache and i can't stop over-thinking every single thing either of us do.
I'm so scared they'll see me as less than I see them, and that these feelings simply existing will ruin a good-thing.
Love really makes you hate yourself as well bc maybe if i was prettier or smarter id have a higher chance of us becoming ''us''
Ugh anyways i probably don't have to worry as much as I do, it atleast SEEMS that he is reciprocating, but i can't help the anxiety and stupid over-thinking i have circling in my fucked up brain
I'm so scared they'll see me as less than I see them, and that these feelings simply existing will ruin a good-thing.
Love really makes you hate yourself as well bc maybe if i was prettier or smarter id have a higher chance of us becoming ''us''
Ugh anyways i probably don't have to worry as much as I do, it atleast SEEMS that he is reciprocating, but i can't help the anxiety and stupid over-thinking i have circling in my fucked up brain
you need to save the world from destruction, yes you, im talking to you only, if you see this its a sign and you need to finally listen to the messages i have sent you, you will find them and restore peace in the universe, you will save the world, please listen to me.
and i got a restraining order against me by that dumb fly's family lol,, might break that and stab his mom next
I often wonder if others feel love as intensely as I do, especially because it’s so dramatized on screen, making it hard to truly understand love as a concept in real life.
It’s even more complicated by the fact that, in today’s world, many people seem to be yearning for a relationship not out of love, but because they like someone enough to date or hook up with them. It feels like dating has become more of a necessity than an emotional connection, which makes it even harder to recognize what genuine love really is.
For me, love is wholehearted. I've loved two people in my lifetime, though I've had several crushes. When I'm in love, I become insufferable—absolutely insufferable. I don't even realize it in the first few months; it's like a switch flips, and suddenly, my life’s mission becomes to improve their life. I remember once stopping drawing entirely because my crush was deeply religious and believed that imitating life through art was sinful. At that time, I wasn’t religious at all, but I just stopped. I never questioned why I did it for this random person in my life—I just did, and for a long time too, and as someone who uses art as a crutch that was insane. Looking back, I can now see it was because I was completely head over heels.
Sometimes, I get really possessive, but I’d never show it. It just eats at me inside, and I can’t stop thinking about them. It’s almost like a drug, consuming my thoughts. It’s intense, and it takes over, but I try to keep it to myself. It wont ever affect them, just myself, I just become increasingly helpful to my crush because my love language is acts of service.
Am I insane? Cause I don't seem to see people around me love as strongly as I do.
It’s even more complicated by the fact that, in today’s world, many people seem to be yearning for a relationship not out of love, but because they like someone enough to date or hook up with them. It feels like dating has become more of a necessity than an emotional connection, which makes it even harder to recognize what genuine love really is.
For me, love is wholehearted. I've loved two people in my lifetime, though I've had several crushes. When I'm in love, I become insufferable—absolutely insufferable. I don't even realize it in the first few months; it's like a switch flips, and suddenly, my life’s mission becomes to improve their life. I remember once stopping drawing entirely because my crush was deeply religious and believed that imitating life through art was sinful. At that time, I wasn’t religious at all, but I just stopped. I never questioned why I did it for this random person in my life—I just did, and for a long time too, and as someone who uses art as a crutch that was insane. Looking back, I can now see it was because I was completely head over heels.
Sometimes, I get really possessive, but I’d never show it. It just eats at me inside, and I can’t stop thinking about them. It’s almost like a drug, consuming my thoughts. It’s intense, and it takes over, but I try to keep it to myself. It wont ever affect them, just myself, I just become increasingly helpful to my crush because my love language is acts of service.
Am I insane? Cause I don't seem to see people around me love as strongly as I do.
I'm recently reading Open the door ( an esperguideverse ) The story isn't inherently outstanding since the seme comes off as toxic but out of the blue mc gets a flashback of a child who saved his life but probably is dead now. I have nothing against properly established stories of reunion where the MCs actually had something to do with each other but more often that not it's done lazily by authors just to have something like fate / they were meant to be together / oooh they knew each other as kids and is sloppily done without any prior context or not elaborated. It's really annoying me.
There's another trope where adult MCs are weirdly portrayed with child / baby mls ( even in art ) or one of them turning into a child.
Some examples:- from stories I don't remember
Mc remembering ml bought him a can of coke ( this is probably from omega complex or sm )
Mc buying icecream for ml in their childhood
Mc saving ml from dying
Mc giving candy to ml in their childhood
Mc passing by ml when they were kids
( My point is there is absolutely no significance to the relationship whether they knew each other in their childhood or not )
There's another trope where adult MCs are weirdly portrayed with child / baby mls ( even in art ) or one of them turning into a child.
Some examples:- from stories I don't remember
Mc remembering ml bought him a can of coke ( this is probably from omega complex or sm )
Mc buying icecream for ml in their childhood
Mc saving ml from dying
Mc giving candy to ml in their childhood
Mc passing by ml when they were kids
( My point is there is absolutely no significance to the relationship whether they knew each other in their childhood or not )
these days i've been feeling pretty lonely. I have kind friends but I think i've been starting to avoid them when i can. i feel like the more i hang out with them, the more they will dislike me and such. I think some of these feelings stem from feeling "abandoned" when my friends chose to be with their boyfriends every moment they can and when they can't (bc bf is busy), they come to me. I guess it's a bit childish and I usually do pretty well on my own because I'm not extroverted. sometimes even when I am with my friends in person, I get anxious & wish I could just go home because it feels like they are putting up with me. Is this normal to feel at times? Maybe this is some self confidence issue? I don't think I'm stupid or useless, but I'm really not that great either. My friends tell me I'm genuinely kind because I can sympathize with others well, and I just rely on their words as my self worth i think. I also had this exfriend who rlly broke my trust in friendships, so I think my emotions also stem from that. I have a good support system rn i think (compared to a lot of ppl), but i still don't feel that supported bc i don't want to ask for help again. It's hard to differentiate my depression thoughts to my real thoughts, but that is how i feel currently.
anyways, I've been having a lot of fun at home reading my cheesy romance manhwas. I envy people in love so much. To find someone who can support you, and you can trust them and support them too. Idk if it's bc of the glamour of "true love!" or because i want to hug a hot man lol but I really wish I can experience something like that in my life. I've never had a crush or anything, so I don't know how it feels to be in love romantically. Is there anything you guys would recommend me to do? I try my best to be observant of my emotions and feelings, tried therapy, and now I've been journaling to reflect, but I feel so lonely. I feel so lazy to connect, too (bc of my fear of being a burden and rejected. i would rather avoid relationships to avoid pain overall). I'm not sure if this is the best place to post and i didn't expect to write this much. also idk why my words are cut off when i click preview?? its my first time posting here. sorry for rambling. thank you for reading this much :)
anyways, I've been having a lot of fun at home reading my cheesy romance manhwas. I envy people in love so much. To find someone who can support you, and you can trust them and support them too. Idk if it's bc of the glamour of "true love!" or because i want to hug a hot man lol but I really wish I can experience something like that in my life. I've never had a crush or anything, so I don't know how it feels to be in love romantically. Is there anything you guys would recommend me to do? I try my best to be observant of my emotions and feelings, tried therapy, and now I've been journaling to reflect, but I feel so lonely. I feel so lazy to connect, too (bc of my fear of being a burden and rejected. i would rather avoid relationships to avoid pain overall). I'm not sure if this is the best place to post and i didn't expect to write this much. also idk why my words are cut off when i click preview?? its my first time posting here. sorry for rambling. thank you for reading this much :)
Okay let me preface this by saying i’m in high school and i tend to do shit that i regret all the time and yes i do hate myself for it but im actively trying to make myself better.
So this started in 2023, this girl started talking to me and my group. (i later figured out she infiltrated my group and talked to my friends specifically about me) We became really close in a matter of weeks and I could tell that she liked me. I knew it, her compliments, her attention, her attitude. It really screamed crush and I liked it.
I loved the attention she gave me, I knew that she was the only one who would ever love me like this. But me being the retarded bitch, I rejected her and tried to act the same. I was on the line between crush or not, and I would tell my other friends how I felt about her, but I didn’t expect for one of my friends to actually tell her so when I figured out I confronted them. But anyway, she told me that she got mad because I just didn’t tell her that I liked her. So at the time I responded with, “I don’t really like you like that, I’m just confused.” And looking back on it I really should’ve just said I liked you and dated her.
But later on things started getting more rocky. The friend group we had split up because I gave this girl more attention and because of this I gave my sole attention to her. I would get hung up on every little word that she would say and I didn’t know if what I felt is love or not. I couldn’t like a girl, I come from a strict asian family and if my family found out I liked girls I would fucking die. But regardless of this, we would cuddle and kiss. We would drink and things would lead to another, it being kissing and shit. In fact she was my first introduction to substances and I didn’t notice this at first, but there was a hint of addiction.
Later on, more and more drama would start because I felt insecure that she liked someone else. I still kept that facade of not liking her, even though I expressed my feelings of jealousy whenever she talked about another girl.
At this point, I still didn’t want to admit i liked her. I wanted to make it obvious that I didn’t like her like that, when I obviously did. So i cut my hair and started to act weird, and around this time she started smoking a lot of weed.
Because of this, she started to act different. Less clingy, less hung up about things, she just left me alone. I felt like she didn’t care and I started getting mad. Whenever she would message me on weed, I would just ignore her messages. And I told her to “be careful about it”, but she just dismissed it off and that’s when I got mad. I started ignoring her, acting weird, and just would confuse the fuck out of my self and her.
And the last time we talked, we both linked up and smoked. As she was walking me home, she expressed her feelings about how she felt about me. Shit about how she never really liked ME, it was just my face but once I got a haircut she lost feelings. And how she never really thought of me as her best friend even though we established multiple times that we were. But I also said really rude words, it being: “I used you for money, and drugs.” After this encounter I apologized. I reached out and said sorry, but I was so mad. My ego was crushed and I hated it.
So what I did next, was that I turned everyone against her. Because of me she had no friends left and I know what I did was fucked up. At the time I was blinded by anger and my big ass fucking ego was crushed to the point that I would actually go through extreme heights just to “get back at her” when she never even did anything that bad.
Anyway, I started contacting her for the past few months trying to reach out and talk things out. I want to try being friends again, but with no strings attached. Just normal friends, no drama, no anything. I just want to be able to talk to her normally again, to hang out. I’ve changed ever since I talked to her last. I’ve stopped caring, I’ve stopped leaving lingering attachments to people and I stopped taking things personally. I want to show her I’ve changed and that i want to grow as a person with her by my side along with all my other friends.
She responded to my message, saying that it would be good to be friends again for it not to be awkward for the next school year so I was really down. We played cup pong a few times, but the conversations before that was really dry.
I know that it would be the same, but does anyone have tips? I want her to be comfortable around me, and for us to be friends normally.
So this started in 2023, this girl started talking to me and my group. (i later figured out she infiltrated my group and talked to my friends specifically about me) We became really close in a matter of weeks and I could tell that she liked me. I knew it, her compliments, her attention, her attitude. It really screamed crush and I liked it.
I loved the attention she gave me, I knew that she was the only one who would ever love me like this. But me being the retarded bitch, I rejected her and tried to act the same. I was on the line between crush or not, and I would tell my other friends how I felt about her, but I didn’t expect for one of my friends to actually tell her so when I figured out I confronted them. But anyway, she told me that she got mad because I just didn’t tell her that I liked her. So at the time I responded with, “I don’t really like you like that, I’m just confused.” And looking back on it I really should’ve just said I liked you and dated her.
But later on things started getting more rocky. The friend group we had split up because I gave this girl more attention and because of this I gave my sole attention to her. I would get hung up on every little word that she would say and I didn’t know if what I felt is love or not. I couldn’t like a girl, I come from a strict asian family and if my family found out I liked girls I would fucking die. But regardless of this, we would cuddle and kiss. We would drink and things would lead to another, it being kissing and shit. In fact she was my first introduction to substances and I didn’t notice this at first, but there was a hint of addiction.
Later on, more and more drama would start because I felt insecure that she liked someone else. I still kept that facade of not liking her, even though I expressed my feelings of jealousy whenever she talked about another girl.
At this point, I still didn’t want to admit i liked her. I wanted to make it obvious that I didn’t like her like that, when I obviously did. So i cut my hair and started to act weird, and around this time she started smoking a lot of weed.
Because of this, she started to act different. Less clingy, less hung up about things, she just left me alone. I felt like she didn’t care and I started getting mad. Whenever she would message me on weed, I would just ignore her messages. And I told her to “be careful about it”, but she just dismissed it off and that’s when I got mad. I started ignoring her, acting weird, and just would confuse the fuck out of my self and her.
And the last time we talked, we both linked up and smoked. As she was walking me home, she expressed her feelings about how she felt about me. Shit about how she never really liked ME, it was just my face but once I got a haircut she lost feelings. And how she never really thought of me as her best friend even though we established multiple times that we were. But I also said really rude words, it being: “I used you for money, and drugs.” After this encounter I apologized. I reached out and said sorry, but I was so mad. My ego was crushed and I hated it.
So what I did next, was that I turned everyone against her. Because of me she had no friends left and I know what I did was fucked up. At the time I was blinded by anger and my big ass fucking ego was crushed to the point that I would actually go through extreme heights just to “get back at her” when she never even did anything that bad.
Anyway, I started contacting her for the past few months trying to reach out and talk things out. I want to try being friends again, but with no strings attached. Just normal friends, no drama, no anything. I just want to be able to talk to her normally again, to hang out. I’ve changed ever since I talked to her last. I’ve stopped caring, I’ve stopped leaving lingering attachments to people and I stopped taking things personally. I want to show her I’ve changed and that i want to grow as a person with her by my side along with all my other friends.
She responded to my message, saying that it would be good to be friends again for it not to be awkward for the next school year so I was really down. We played cup pong a few times, but the conversations before that was really dry.
I know that it would be the same, but does anyone have tips? I want her to be comfortable around me, and for us to be friends normally.
Why do u think girls always rejects boys when they like her too much?
What villain do you think was the worst written? Too shallow? Not enough personality?
LIMBUS COMPANY SPOILERS!!!!!
I cannot stand Dongrang tbh. I think he's one of the weakest main villains for me in limbus. He was boring at the start, then the reveal was okay, but then my interest went downhill immediately, and his short-lived villainy wasn't compelling enough. Ahab was much, much better holy shit i love my gaslighting queen~
LIMBUS COMPANY SPOILERS!!!!!
I cannot stand Dongrang tbh. I think he's one of the weakest main villains for me in limbus. He was boring at the start, then the reveal was okay, but then my interest went downhill immediately, and his short-lived villainy wasn't compelling enough. Ahab was much, much better holy shit i love my gaslighting queen~