I've had thoughts about killing people before and almost acted on said thoughts and broke down crying because I didn't know why I was like this. I'm an extremely violent person if someone messes with me. Like, I've punched kids at my school dead in the face and swung my metal bat at someone on my softball team. And I've only ever gone to therapy on...... reply
Death is following me all my life
Almost:
-died in a fire (never let your kids play alone. I was that kid)
-died of electric shock (stupid 4 year old me thought it's cool to put a key into a socket)
-*broke my bones ( we don't talk about that memory anymore)
-*cracked my head open (they used staples so, it's a big scar)
-got hit by lightning (...... 3 reply
History:
-(not really disturbing unless you have a fear of it) A large shard of glass got stuck in my foot and I was bleeding everywhere.
Thoughts:
-(this is just pretty normal. Im pretty sure everyone has these thoughts) wanting to gouge someones eyes out, stomp on their stomach, scoop out their brains.
I don’t really have anything disturbing....... reply
- My emotions are too intense and I can't control it. I love people easily but I also hate them easily. Like I will love you to death one second and then hate you so much I would want to kill you next second because of some petty reason.
- I have had a lot of thoughts of killing myself or someone else.
- I have harmed myself by punching or kicking ...... reply
I once had a thought that what if I murdered my entire family and ran, but then reconsidered because 1. Too much work, you gotta plan your escape and cleaning up evidence as cleanly as possible and man, I'm already struggling in turning in my schoolwork, what makes you think I want to go through all that trouble? 2. No motivation. 3. I can't kill w...... reply
