I think I have a problem

Hello. I'm 20 yo girl. I love reading yaoi and manga in general. If I had to say how my day looks like, I'd say I'm quite boring and lazy. I'm unemployed, not studying, and I waste my time on the internet. I help my mom with laundry and dishes. And don't have financial problems at the time.
But I think I might have a problem.
Well, I do want to do art and go to an art collage, but everytime I'm about to make a portfolio, I got scared as hell.
Also, I think I lost interest in almost everything. I go to sleep with thinking "oh, I did nothing today too" and I don't know what to do.

In another aspect, I know there are many definitions for one's gender, but I can't say it on myself. I'm not a lesbian nor a bi nor a pan. And I'm not asexual either. My friend once asked me if I'm an asexual person, because I don't like sexual relationship, but to tell the truth, I think I just lost any interest in anything.

For example, today, I'm going to buy two books I love, but now that I think about it, it's just a waste of time...

So I've been thinking, if there's anyone who feels the same or going through the same thing, not because it will make me better, but because I wanna know what can I do. Cause I'm lost...

Sorry for taking your time and thanks for reading