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Grief, Guilt, Self-Blaming
It has been 10 or so years since I wanted to end myself. I am currently 20 so you know, I nearly left this world since I was a kid.
Today is the first time in ten years that I felt so miserable, unloved, misunderstood, and blamed to the point I started questioning my existence, my life, and my future.
I started asking myself if I should just run away from this house and end myself so that I could get rid of this miserable feeling. I feel like I am making things difficult for people and shouldn't even feel sad or victimise myself. Maybe I really am a burden and making it difficult for everyone.
I hope that I calm down after seeking comfort and piling my feelings online. I dont think whatever I am going through will be understood and empathised by anyone else.
What you're feeling is human feelings, don't feel ashamed of that. Don't do any harm to yourself please, there's so much in life waiting for you, there is people who love and care about you, and there's people who will comfort, help, and be there for you. I understand how you feel, I have depression and often want to end things cause life really do...... reply
