friend got pregnant, and I was disappointed.

y'all, is it valid for me to feel disappointed in a friend who got pregnant? she was always like, "oh lol, i'm studying first," "i got no time for a boyfriend, study first." then, like a few months later, i find out that she's pregnant? i didn't even know that she had a boyfriend. tf, i don't know. i kind of feel disappointed because i thought she was not that type of girl who would give herself away just like that.

they were poor; she knows that, so i thought she knew better than to be reckless like the other young girls here who don't think about themselves and their living situation. the men who impregnate them don’t even take responsibility or will half-assedly do it, so i thought she was responsible enough not to end up like the girls here who were getting pregnant irresponsibly.

she dropped out of school (we were so close graduate hs), and after a few months, we stopped communicating. this was on my part; she was always the one reaching out to me, and i gave little to no effort in maintaining that friendship.

well, this was like two years ago when schools here finally opened because the pandemic had calmed down. it's a long time ago, but from time to time, i suddenly think about it, and i need some peace of mind about it, just be real.