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How do I change?
I feel like I'm not a person anymore, I'm currently on break from school so I have plenty of free time, but I don't know what to do with it, I spend my time in my team either reading yaoi or watching some movies on the iPad. I do have friends but we aren't really close. Every past break I was always the one who asked to hang out and texted first. I promised myself I wouldn't do that this time BCS im tired or always being the one askiing, it feels like I'm beging them to be with me and it's just pathetic. Im not a person who really likes going out but neither am I a person who loves staying home. I wanna actually go out with someone who enjoys my company and doesn't make me feel like they're being forced. I also always sleep pretty late and ik it's very bad. I want to socialize with people again and I want to hang out so bad, sure its nice staying home but it gets to a point. I wanna also find new friends but it seems impossible to do. Whenever I try they either turn out to be bad or just not interested in me. I'm also too insecure to ask. I don't go to some class or anything in wich I can see new people and I genuinely feel so miserable everyday, like I'm a waste of space. I wanna feel human again and actually have relationships and socialize with people. It's been 2 weeks since I've just been rotting around, I'm underaged currently so sadly no place will take me as a worker, I figured I could at least work and socialize but thats not an option. Please anybody if you have gone trough anything similar to this and found a way to break the circle, please let me know
Also I'm sorry if this may have annoyed you I'm its not pleasant to hear this but I'm desperate for a change
As someone who’s been in your position, the best way to change is to push yourself out of your comfort zone. There was also a point in my life were I just read BL all day and rotted on my bed because I had nothing else to pass the time. It felt like I was being sucked up by the void. But you can’t let yourself do that. Pick up new hobbies or re...... 2 reply
I'm recalling a conversation with my counselor in high-school. it was after I came to the realization that I wasn't alone for any special reason, no one in particular had any sort of agenda against me.(I'll admit I dropped a lot of people as well)
I think for the most part I was simply incompatible with the body of people at my school. I mean rea...... reply
I accidentally posted this as a reply to someone else, but I think it's best to leave it to the person who asked:
It's like reading something my old self would say lololololol! I'm well into my 30s now and felt really isolated when I was a teen. Trust me, you WILL find people. Maybe for a lifetime, maybe just for a season or maybe for a day, all I...... reply
You can pick up a new hobby like drawing or start learning new skills. You can find teachers online or go to group classes. Sign up for pilates or yoga, just in general go to the gym and exercise. There are so many options ^^ reply
