Yow, thoughts???

So I'm really into romance and really really into bl. Whenever I get "inspired" on some stories or stuffs I try to make up scenarios with it in my mind, it's mostly "me x some dude I conjure in my mind". It makes me happy, satisfied, gets me to sleep, but sometimes I just crave the romance in what bls have. The way that it's same sex just feels different to regular straight romance, but like as a straigh af girl I don't/can't really imagine two dudes fucking inside my brain, it just feels weird, their not weird but just me doing it seems weird. So sometimes...sometimes, I make up scenarios with "me x some girls I conjure in my mind"... it's just sometimes tho, I've got like two gl plots within my mind that I go back to sometimes...