deeping life/advice welcome

guys im lying in bed and im supposed to be in class at sixth form, but i cant get up.

i cant lie im already retaking the year to try and lock in and improve my grades and the worst part is it's not going terribly even though im not trying (im doing better than the previous year) so i really can't find the motivation to put in effort. i know theres a ton of revision i oughta do to get the most out of my education but i cant bring myself to actually gaf so nothing is really very effective.

worst thing is my family are not well off, but not in an awful way that makes me desperate to wanna change our situation. so anyway I feel a sense of responsibility and pressure as the eldest to do something with my life but also i really just don't feel very inclined to work towards that personally? im just like deeping my life rn cause none of my like passions are passioning i feel so apathetic.

this happens fairly frequently, this time i figure it's cause my mum's left the country for a bit so she's not forcing me to do the things i need to. and normally id read/watch some peak media that would spark a zest for life in me but im genuinely struggling to find something i like that much plus that usually ends in me being tunnel vision obsessed with that thing until i neglect other things.

wait is this neurodivergence?