Why do I feel like this

Ever since I was a kid I've always feared what the future may hold for me. Cause I never really had a passion to be something. I never admitted this to my parents or anyone I never felt the want or need to be something, rather I want to do nothing at all. As ridiculous as it probably sounds, trust me I really tried changing my way of thinking in life. I tried to create a dream. Everytime the teachers and my parent would ask me what I want to be in the future I would say the same thing I heard my seatmate told during introduction. I was good at some things, I have good grades I rank number 1 academically atleast. I'm part of the Student Council, I can cook, write poems and other stuff. I can learn really fast but somehow the desire to be something I can't quite get it. I feel like I'm being left behind by everyone