I just finished my first year or college and I'm not entirely sure what i want to do, but i'm currently pursing a psychology major on the premed track. As much as I hate school I'm so clueless about what to do in life, so I can see myself going to school for a long time. Hence why I also plan to go to med school. I only have a mom and some siblings...... 2 reply
you're not alone this is unironically the story of my life. my mom would always say she doesn't care what we do as long as we liked it and when i told her I had no dreams she would actually get really mad at me.
i never understood it and still kinda resent her for it actually like does she think i can just conjure up a passion? that i'm happy i f...... reply
i too don't read that much now only cause i prefer fanfic these days lmao but do people actually read yaoi too... feel something? idk like sometimes i think smut is interesting to look at how it's drawn, emotions/tension in the scene etc, but i don't imagine it as if it was actually happening? if that makes any sense. i'm also asexual which might m...... 1 reply
pretty sure there's no way to get rid of them. i have that issue to were i follow ppl who've deleted their accounts but i can't unfollow cause they're a deleted user 1 reply
i'm no expert, but if you're willing to be really strict and want quick results I suggest just cutting out processed foods and sugar in it's entirety. save your budget just purchasing things like protein and vegetables eggs oatmeal could work too and eat that while doing home workouts which you can find online. walks and runs outside are good as we...... reply
well just go for a major that encompasses most of the things you enjoy. you don't have to pick the specific job you want until later unless it's super specialized ofc. on the bright side you should be happy you have so much you're passionate about I'm over halfway through uni with a major I enjoy, but with no idea what I wanna do reply
so I've considered myself aroace for the longest time. i'm not out or anything but that's just what I think. i've never been in a relationship or been involved in anything romantic including sex stuff. i also don't necessarily dream of being in a relationship or having a partner hence the aroace labeling. but... I'm a big fan culture enthusiast and my obv recent obsession is hudson and connor iykyk. NOT in a parasocial way or anything and obv how they (and any celebrity/public figure) portray themselves is not exactly how they are in their private lives. But like theoretically let's say they were exactly like that irl I feel like I wouldn't mind being in a relationship with them? I'd probably like it a lot. so would that not be aro? but i feel like it's only because they're exactly the type or personality/person I like and it'd be nice to just be friends too? maybe it's cause since I'll never know them I'm attracted to them as if they're fictional characters. I've never imagined myself enjoying a relationship with anyone I've ever known irl nor have I ever been attracted to a stranger or other celebrity. Maybe I just haven't met MY person yet? If they exist. Maybe I'm only capable of being attracted to people after getting to know them deeply.
Not that labeling anything is important just curious if i'm insane or anyone else has felt like this before.
Does anyone else feel like they're just mindlessly wasting time? Mindlessly existing?
Summer is over and I'll be back at uni soon, but I didn't do a single meaningful thing even for myself. I didn't even go out and see friends let alone get a part time job and what not. Don't get me wrong I tried applying to so so many things at the start of summer, but i got no responses back and these were just random jobs cause i got too anxious to try for internships, but even then i got no call backs. Maybe this is an excuse cause I didn't try hard enough, but really I felt like i tried my best.
I'm really anxious so I'm always avoiding my friends and lost contact with all of my hs friends and now I don't really text/call my uni friends I only respond sometimes when they contact me. I said I'd be better out of hs and rebrand myself for uni... but ofc that didn't work and I'm still the same old me.
Even what I'm doing in uni I'm not passionate about. And don't start with "you're young you can still find your passions" and whatnot. I just feel like there's nothing I'm passionate about. Even as a child there was nothing I dreamed to be. I don't dream of working. But of course a human has got to work. The path I choose was what I'm most interested in so it was the only option if I actually wanted to get through uni.
I just feel like I'm so loveless, so passionless, and I do what's asked of me even doing it to my best capabilities but inside i'm so listless and my work ethic is low even when it appears high outwardly. I feel like a brainless sheep.
I'm just a normal kid too like I've never had a rebellious era or ever got in trouble before. I've keep my grades good and have never in my life have even been in a confrontation with someone. Like I'm truly just floating around doing and accomplishing nothing on my own.
There's nothing I want to accomplish too. Just want to make money when i get a job out of uni and live simply i guess. I'll probably be alone as well cause i'm terrible at keeping up with friends.
I'm asexual too possibly aromatic as well, so i don't necessarily mind it, but everything together just makes me think i'm such an unfit human like if i'm gonna be like this can't i at least act up? be the rebellious type? so when i wander around listlessly people see my character and think "that makes sense"? that i got with a bad crowd and ruined my life or something. but no this is just how it is. how it always is.
You've probably guessed it by now but growing up i had some... pretty bad idealizations. I have them occasionally sometimes when it gets really bad but I don't have any thought of... you know actually doing anything. So it's like I'm really just existing. and that's it. Like I'm not even really human at all and just made wrong from the get go.
I've written a bit like this online before sharing my thoughts and such and some think i'm autistic or something but idk just doesn't feel right... actually maybe idk. not that i'll be going to the doctors to find out or anything just thought i'd mention it.
don't know why i felt compelled to write this maybe if someone is going through a similar thing
I've never smoked before, but I a lot of the time am craving a cigarette. And not like vaping, but an actual cig. I've never smoked before never even tried it and I don't know/ am never around any smokers, so I haven't consumed a lot of second hand smoke. My parents also never smoked in their lives. Still sometimes the craving get's so bad like I'm experiencing phantom withdrawals LMAO
I don't even like the idea of smoking and I hate the smell, so Idk why I'm so obsessed or why I'm craving one so bad. The only time I've viewed cigs in a "positive" light is bc I think they look cool in drawings and ig certain ppl look good whilst smoking.
I'm not planning on picking up a bad habit or anything just ranting if anyone else has experienced such a thing.
My absolute favorites are Japanese "My Beautiful Man", "His (the movie)" and "Our Youth" as well as Thai "Bad Buddy".
I need recs that are ACTUALLY good like acting, plot, filming etc. I know some people watch BL just bc it's bl and I get it lmao, but I really can't watch something if it's cringy/boring. Thank you!!
my stomach hurts so bad guys. like nothing i've ever felt before. it's been hurting for over 1 and a half days now. it hurt so bad that yesterday i took a nap even though i never do in order to escape the pain and maybe feel better when i woke up but, spoiler alert, i woke up and my stomach still fuckin hurt.
it hurt the rest of the day then when it was actually time to sleep i thought i might finally be free, but i woke up today and it still hurts so fuckin bad. what the actual fuck. i haven't eaten anything weird/different/spoiled and i didn't get hurt. i have no idea what it could be. i can't even eat all i've been doing is drinking water
I've always had an irrational fear that my appendix will burst, but if that was the issue i'd be dead rn... right?
i'm not going to the doctors or anything just felt like ranting idk hopefully it goes away soon or something
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