Rant

I need to tell someone this but all my friends are busy and my partner is at work so I want to talk about this real quick


I have not spoken to my eldest sister in years, we weren't allowed to interact because she's tried to harm me many times. I personally dont hate her, but I definitely hold her accountable for what she did to me. I dont even have her number or accounts or anything, I dont know how she was able to reach me but today was her birthday, she called me out if nowhere and was crying. I didn't know how to respond but I decided ultimately to listen to her,

She had a fight with our mum and mum said really harsh things to her, and kind of humiliated her. My sister wanted to go see her friends and celebrate her birthday with them, but our mum told her she that she can't, what I understood is that she hasn't seen those friends sincr high-school because everyone was busy with their life. My sister is 25 but she finished uni in 3 years because she's smart (to simplify it at least). And so she was upset and she tried to S/H, didn't get what exactly happened but I've always thought she's got mental difficulties (not in a rude way)

I just didn't know how to comfort her because she's the reason I felt suffocated in the house for so long, she was a reason for many panic attacks and anxiety spikes I went through. I feel a little disappointed with myself because I can't sympathise with her the way I feel I needed to. All I could offer was a happy birthday wish and I sent her some money. My other sisters are planning to speak to my mum and confront her on her behaviour but I'm noy sure how this is gonna turn out, given how insecure my mum is about being wrong and questioned. I just feel like I should've put our shit aside because even though I dissociate when thr topic of her comes up, she's as miserable as I am. I dont feel great, and I want to apologize but I dont want to pick the phone too.