help a gal out

hi yall its 4am where im from and im quite literally having a identity crisis rn. ive been questioning myself about my style and where i actually fit in, ik it sounds funny or weird to some but idk it’s a huge problem for me since it gets to a point where id rather stay in than go out with my friends cuz i dont really know what style i should go for and usually just end up staring at my clothes thinking “i dont want to wear any of this”. Ive been rocking quite literally the typical baddie/copy paste latina style since its what i think fits me but i cant help but be interested in jirai kei, esp their makeup. Im ngl im more interested in the jirai stuff rather than what im used to, but i feel like it’ll be too difficult for me to change now and im also scared of getting judged by others. Should I just stick to what I’m used to? （/TДT)/