Dorainder's question (8)

is aromanticism real??....like is there really never gonna be "the one"

I'm aware I probably sound dumb

Since its valentines day and all, I had a sudden realization that I have a complete lack of pursuing a relationship. My friends on the other hand ask guys for their number and go out of their way to initiate a relationship. While im just there. Its not like I dont get attention from guys its just that Im never interested. My friend even said once "I can never see you in a relationship." and I agree with her. Im content with my own company. It just feels like im missing out on a grand experience.

Maybe its just not my time yet but I find it kind of absurd that I never had a 'crush' before like you do in middle school or high-school. Does anyone else feel like this?

Does anyone have any recommendations on what I should try ? I have played course of temptation and degrees of lewdity.

Preferably games where you can play as a male or female pc, and can set your sexual orientation.

So me and my main group of "trio" havent talked for a good while, but I just assumed they're all busy with their life, so I kind of planned for us to hangout finally and catch up. Skip to the hangout, we're talking about what we've been up to and they suddenly bring up stuff they did together last week....and the week before that and im like ?????????........ Oh. It gets worse though they show me pictures and videos of their hangout and at this point im kind of dying inside already.

Not only that, awhile after that one of my friends bring up sort of like an 'inside joke' between them, I guess, I dont know how else to explain it. So just imagine me asking "what happened? what happened?" the whole time while they're laughing their ass off.

Im so embarrassed. That whole hangout felt like a humiliation ritual.

Idk, they're allowed to do stuff together without me obviously, but i feel so devastated right now because for weeks I cluelessly just thought they were busy. they didnt once try and initiate a hangout. f.m.l

Anyone else have a strict school that allows not even a speck of individuality?

Today we had inspection, we had to stand in a line so they can check if we're wearing our uniforms correctly and whatnot.

My teacher comes up to me and tells me I have to take out my earrings because it's against the school rules. (mind you, I've been wearing these earrings for 3 years and now they want to start complaining about it.) for context my earrings are like small hoop earrings. Then another teacher pulls up with a ruler and measures my earrings which was just a bit over 10cm wide.

All I gotta say to that is wtf! It's just earrings, it's not distracting me from my school work.

Now I'm sitting detention. For goddamn earrings.

My friend also got into trouble because her skirt was 1cm too short. FML and fuck my school

don't say Jinx because that's boring

that made your jaw drop and do a double take

Am I weird for this? Probably. I can't stop thinking of killing myself after I get into a fight with my parents. So they would regret ever fighting with me. I just want them to want me for once instead of hating me. I just want people to love me for once as much as I love them. It's tough, and I can't help but hate myself for thinking like this, but yeah, that's that.