If i was you, i would ask what your friend meant with “ok” to talk to you again. If they were that offended by what you did and they just forget you that sounds a little.. to fast. Not saying that you shouldn’t be friends again but what you’re feeling now is probably because you didn’t get a proper explanation if that makes sense?
Hmm that does make sense. Like what happened was that I apologized again and they said "we can be friends again" and I think ur right about the explaination. I'd want to know why they would want to talk to me again even after I did all of that, but idk if I have the courage to ask because ik they will be pissed. They were alr making many remarks about it afterwards, so I think I'm still on thin ice I'll wait and see. I don't think they forgot about what I did cuz they still brought it up after that (I don't exactly mind because I just want them to let out a little steam and get compensation ykwim?) thank u so much for the comment cuz it genuinely made me feel a lot better to see people care.
Recently I had this friend online, and well they were chill and ok. We talked, but I made a huge mistake. I did something that was honestly super mean, and I disregarded their feelings and privacy cuz I thought it was funny. They found out about it and confronted me and I apologized and hastily got rid of what I did. I honestly don't know why I did that. It's just, what they said was actually really funny but I mocked them and made fun of them while never telling them. And I feel very sorry about it. Like incredibly sorry. I feel immense guilt. I apologized a lot, and they told me they posted a video about it and tagged me. I honestly felt bad, but I don't mind because I knew I deserved it and I want the other person to express how they feel about it in their own way to let off steam. I saw the video, and the other person was really upset. They said they felt like they could never open up to a person after that and are afraid of meeting new people. I don't want people to ever feel that way, so I also mentioned that they shouldn't let people like me get in the way of having genuine relationships. I totally understand I'm in the wrong, but I want to genuinely fix this. They said they are now ok with being friends again, and I accepted, but honestly I kinda wished they rejected me because I don't know if I could talk to them again. I'd just feel incredibly bad. The thing is, I sometimes had rude thoughts about them, because we never exactly matched the same frequency, but I never thought of them as incredibly annoying so I was ok with texting them. But I let my indifference towards them loose my empathy. How do I get rid of this immense feeling of guilt? I know I apologized a bunch and they accepted it, but I still feel absolutely terrible for what I did to them. It's 3am right now and I don't want to sleep because I know I'll just end up thinking about it and make myself feel even more guilty. Do you guys know any excersise or other therapies to treat this? Sorry if this was boring, I needed to get this off my chest. Pls give advice, or not, it's ur life