have you tried cps you can ask help from school staff
Heyaa i was in a very similar situation a few years ago...so stressed that i could barely function.... Then i was like fuck it all and took the much deserved break i needed. Things started getting better after that! I hope you find your way out of this too? (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
I don’t know your whole family situation but since you mentioned you have a loving family, if you have a loving and understanding family i think you should give them a chance to talk to them and say how you feel. Maybe they can help.
I know it sounds silly but writing your feelings down really helped me. If u keep bottling up your feeling without getting it out it will keep appearing in ur mind from time to time and bother u. Just write whatever u feel , whatever comes into your mind on a paper and dont read it. Just leave that negative stuff, dont revisit it no matter how tempted u are. U can toss that paper too, if you are afraid someone might read them.
I have such a fucking urge to cut myself but I can't because every single one of my family members is up in my ass Abt my business like I'm not depressed yeah sometimes I think about killing myself or not just waking up the next day I have a loving family don't get me wrong and I don't wanna say I have depression because I'm not gonna self diagnose myself nor do I think I have it cuz I'm happy most of the time I just wish you know I stopped existing idk whats wrong with me is it just me?