Dreamstone wolf

To be honest I find it still quite icky that the ml wants the MC to quit his gigs, I get it's for his own good but let's be honest realistically, if you were given permission to stay at a fwb's house, that will obviously feel temporary. And even more knowing it is just a fwb relationship means it could end easily the moment the ml loses interest, and in that situation MC could be left with no money so I think it's safest and most secure for him to actually have jobs, I think the ml's help with the debt is nice but communication honestly should have been done, and if the MC wants to work then he should try and make it comfortable at least for the MC by having food in the house, giving him lifts to work here and there or the way back and also not sleeping together too much. Because one of the reasons I despised him at the start was because he was so rough in the sex (with a literal virgin and a college kid) and they did it multiple days in a row. The MC had so little free time and he just wasted that free time that's why the MC often had a sore body when going to work and it was also mentioned quite a few times how he was getting less sleep then usual (the kid who usually gets like 4 hours of sleep) with how the ml always only thought about sex whenever they meet I genuinely hated him since he didn't realise how hard that makes the MC's life. Now he's at least acting with some basic human decency. How is it that yeonwoo had to struggle and got no money, or help from the ml for a whole season seriously, ml is rich, doing little things like buying meals for him or just letting him sleep some days could've done wonders but no he just had to be a red flag for that whole first season. Now he's starting to look like a decent human being just a little bit but that's a start and as much as I still hate him since he is making yeonwoo happy it can't be helped. I love yeonwoo so freaking much and he genuinely deserves someone so much better.

This type specifically where one character feels not deserving of the other or like the other deserves to be the happiest and they are not the ones who can make them that (even though they are yk)

Because for example chapter 26 the confession scene I think. I literally just paused chanyoung's crying face and proceeded to cry my heart out then I talked to myself

"From a third person's perspective, chanyoung you look very sweet and lovely, being able to cry and confess shows so much courage you should be proud of yourself, doesn't MC deserve someone like you who wants the best for him" I say this through a bunch of tears and in barely a whisper

Then I say "but chanyoung if I were you I would feel so embarrassed, so so upset, you must be so upset, especially since we know that things will work out well but if this was reality we'd have no clue and you're probably so upset to be confessing like this rather than something that surprises or makes them happy, also I'd feel so guilty, I'm basically pressuring the one I love to be considerate, my crying is just pressuring them and even if it was a good answer it's probably just put of guilt, they deserve so much more than this yet I decided to cry and embarrass myself huh, and now we are gonna lose our friendship and it will really be over for good, how do I move on from this..." As I say crying even more damn tears to the point where for most of this my voice isn't even coming out

Legit every time I read stories like this I cry my heart out and I think way too much in the perspective of the one in the unrequited (not that I'm in love at all) but I do have low self esteem and tend to feel guilty for things that are often not a big deal and I'm super self conscious of what others think of me so I'd say I'm quite a people pleaser, I tend to do quite a bit for others and be really helpful (but it's not because I want to help, I just want them to think well of me and think that im a good person yk) so I really admire the characters for having the courage to confess but I also feel for them way too much. Even when talking to myself I literally feel the hopelessness of their character, it's not like it was written or drawn fantastically I just create way more lines and make it way more hopeless than the actual situation is. But tbh this is kind of a trait I like about myself, I like that I can feel so strongly for fictional characters (though not in front of others) and I like that I can empathise (it makes me feel like I'm a decent person)

Anyways I just had to rant about this and preferably I'd also like it if you are similar or perhaps know someone like this?... Thanks for your time, ps sorry I just wasted like 5 minutes of your life you're never getting back