I recently saw that the author was going to revamp three chapters, so hopefully someone with access to her website can tell us if there are any important changes!
They need distance. One needs to develop as an independent person while the other needs to determine what his true feelings are. It's a little funny and frustrating lol
I see one of two things going on: Her husband doesn't know what she's up to or they can't have kids.
It seems she's in a hurry, and based on the fact that she says that they are living proper lives, she and her husband may be working as traveling merchants. However, she seems desperate and somewhat sad, so it's not a situation where she JUST wants to reunite with her daughter. Based on the fact that she also dressed like an unwed woman and then ran away while abandoning her daughter, most likely to spite her ex-husband, she does not have a good track record of thinking through her actions. And her quickness to try and paint Yaetatsu as unfit means she's doing this on impulse.
So one theory is that she wants a family with her husband, but he doesn't want children. However now that O-ten is older, she's less of a hassle. So now the mother wants to take the chance that they are settled nearby to take her daughter and basically run away again like they did before, catching both her ex husband and current husband off guard.
The other theory is that the mother and her current husband want children but are unable to have any. This one is meh, but it's not impossible, especially because O-ten is their biological daughter and they can still raise her since she is five years old. This explains her insistence on Yaetatsu being a fake father, which she's crazy to think because he's the one who stepped up for O-ten. Yes, Yaetatsu is not perfect, and he's committed many mistakes but he's taken responsibility.
But let's appreciate how Yaetatsu would shoulder everything before but now he relies on Toraji (who is willing to do anything for his loved ones). I'm sure Toraji will be the one to mediate and get the truth out, because O-ten deserves to be raised in a loving environment with people she cares about. But also, she already knows the truth to some extent (she knows her mother left her). So O-ten is aware of more than anyone else thinks, and Toraji knows that as her new father figure.
I think it would make sense on either of the two, but the first one is plausible. The lady (not gonna mention her name cuz she not worth it) throws a fit by doing shitty decisions.
When she was married off to Yaetetsu, she dressed as an unmarried woman and had an affair to spite him and her family. Maybe she and her current husband had an argument about having kids. Out of anger of not getting what she wants again, she got away and left him, then went back to take O-ten.
And I agree, now that O-ten is five years old, she's less of a hassle and the lady thinks she can somehow manage take care of her.
I can relate to O-ten's side because I myself gotten to a similar situation, though my mother wants to be honest with me and told me everything when I was young. Same age as O-ten being 5 years old. At this point, now that O-ten has a bit of the truth to some extent, it would be best to be transparent with her than continue hiding. Hopefully, if O-ten gets to have the final say in this situation, she chooses to be with Yaetetsu and Toraji.
Yeah, I think O-ten is definitely getting the final choice. But she's somewhat prepared for it already with her limited knowledge. The important part would be for both of them to tell her though. Because it seems the mother wants to tell O-ten by herself, which is not good and really makes me think that she does not have good intentions. Also at the end of the day, she really only knows her Dada and those in the Inn. I don't think she would be prepared to just leave everything behind for a woman she barely knows anything about. It would take time, but the mother doesn't want that. I don't think she'll reject her mother outright, but she won't go with her.
I don't like the lady telling the truth alone with O-ten either, like you said, she might not have good intentions. I fear if she really does talk with O-ten alone, she could have the opportunity to twist some tales or even lie to her, who knows. And yes, I agree as well, even if O-ten would be able to be with her biological parents she wouldn't want to leave or not being able to see her Dada, Toraji, and the rest of the people at the Cheida-ya ever again. They were the ones who took real care of her and loved her dearly, not the lady who's basically a stranger to her.
It feels like the MC is jealous of the baby...?
Obviously he's denying his own feelings, but it feels like he's not happy with the ML loving the baby. I'll keep reading but that's just a vibe I got lol
i feel like ihyeon is not jealous of the baby, rather he's getting swept by jungyeon's words and actions that are fully laced with affection. since he's unfamiliar with such concept, he always reminds himself that jungyeon is like that because of the baby, not him, that way he can detach easily once the baby is born. ihyeon is avoiding attachment as much as possible that's why he's acting like this.
I saw someone literally saying that it was Kashima's fault for being shunned because "He must have done/said something to his classmates." Like wtf. Kashima is such a sweet guy, and he's a peacemaker. I'm sure he tried to calm the fight between his classmates but they might have said something to provoke a reaction out of him. It's also not unexpected for Kashims to hide his feelings when he has such a big complex about taking on all responsibilities. It feels like he wants to keep others away to prevent them being hurt, like the one dude literally called another person dumb for hanging out with Kashima??? Like wtf, that's not just shunning it's verbal bullying.
Again I think he might have responded to some of his classmates talking shit about Kashima's friends. He would tank insults towards himself but he wouldn't let his friends be insulted. And now the bullies are pressuring the entire class into ignoring Kashima. I hope he can accept help and start to rely on others more.
It's cute how they interact once they stop fighting lol
But I wonder what the story behind Hajime's tattoos is? Like it's feathers, which is a very unique design.
Anyways, I hope they can at least agree to be peaceful until the deadline ends. I have a feeling that someone wants them dead, so it would be better if they lived.
yeah, that’d be Hajime
sorry, meant Watari*. Don’t know why I said Hajime lol
Like yeah his choice was stupid and shortsighted, but he did it because he's too loyal to Nain. Like the one female attendant whose always with Nain is loyal, but despite the truth being revealed she continued to serve without much reservation. On the other hand, Rue has literally given up everything for Nain. As a servant of Nain, he can't marry or leave to live his own life ever again, but he sticks by Nain regardless. And when the truth is revealed, he feels regret and guilt so deep he pushes himself towards the deep end to serve Nain forever.
Again, Rue is doing something stupid and shortsighted, but he's doing the only thing he can conceptualize to serve Nain. And it's heartbreaking for Nain to tell Rue that he's not allowed to die until Nain forgives him. Nain is so desperate to protect those around him that he's actually losing connections with others. Because Rue would sacrifice his life in a heartbeat, Nain has to push him away to ensure he doesn't do it. And Nain can only ever push others away, because the more attached he is, the more it hurts to lose them. Nain can't trust in Amon and the main priest guy, the guards and servants are a second away from being killed, and the people are so conditioned into accepting violence, that they have no problem dying for Amon and Nain. Then Amon does his best to have Nain become used to death, repeatedly traumatizing Nain and taking away those he gets close to.
I just feel bad for Nain and Rue ╥﹏╥
It's sad that many, if not all, servants really believe that love from their gods means they should embrace violence. Rue keeps on asking for punishment, because he believes that true forgiveness comes through violence. He psychologically needs to suffer physically to believe that Nain has forgiven him. This is why he's even willing to become a Lesha, because he wants Nain to give him attention and forgiveness.
The way Nain sees forgiveness is to give mercy, and he did so by forgiving Rue and telling him to keep on pretending because Nain doesn't want Rue to be punished for not following orders. But Rue sees that as being dismissed and thus not forgiven, and Rue wants Nain to be angry and to forgive him the only way Rue understands. By becoming a Lesha, Rue is going up the hierarchy to become an even more devoted servant who is willing to die for his gods - one of the biggest forms of violence and thus the biggest show of loyalty.
Of course Nain won't agree or like it, especially because Amon can now use Rue as a way to punish or hurt Nain. And Nain won't be able to stop it, and Rue won't fight it either. They need to change the entire system, but these poor people are stuck in a loop of violence.
I'm invested but also angry lol
Like the seme is definitely pushy and needs to follows boundaries better. But omg the uke doesn't do anything right either. Like I get he has a reasonable fear of being outed, that's not the problem here. The problem is that the uke doesn't even allow their relationship to exist in private. Yeah he's allowed to say that he doesn't want outsiders to know of their relationship, but in private he doesn't even show affection or care for his partner. It's so bad that outsiders think that the uke hates the seme, which like you don't have to act coldly to your lover, you can act neutral and enforce that boundary. Uke treats others with more care than his own lover, like he takes their recommendations, he's friendly, and focuses on them more. The seme wanted rings, the uke is allowed to wear his in private but he doesn't even do that - he literally hid it away. The seme gifts the uke a tie, the uke doesn't have to say it was a gift from a lover but he doesn't use it at all, and on top of that he actively takes another person's recommendation and buys a tie. The uke could just say, someone recommended this tie and I bought it - but he prefers to hide away a gift from his lover. The seme starts acting strangely, even deciding to go home on his own despite his previous insistence to go home together - he doesn't question this change much but that's okay. Uke sees a coworker hurting and helps her out, also okay. Uke then doesn't take the time to send a quick message of hey I'm late and helping someone, he just goes silent. Seme suddenly asks to break up, the uke doesn't question it. He doesn't ask why or if they can work things out - the uke makes up his own mind and says sure.
Like I would understand the uke more if they actually had a relationship in private, but they seem more like roommates with benefits. Not only that, but the fact that the uke is not willing to fight for the relationship just shows that he's not invested in it. The uke is always going to be ready to abandon the relationship, so why did he even agree to date the seme. Yeah the seme isn't perfect and he needs to also listen to what the uke wants, but the distance the uke keeps will never allow them to actually communicate.
And it's kind of funny that the uke doesn't like the seme being friendly with others. Like the seme and uke should be apart, because they should focus on themselves first. Clearly neither is built for a proper relationship. The seme has to be less clingy and has to learn to listen, because he can't communicate when he's focused on pleasing someone else to ease his own anxieties. The uke needs to confront his fears, and no I don't mean he should come out, but he should learn how to deal with his fears in a healthy way. He can't force any future lovers to hide their relationship even in private, that only breeds resentment.
Are you okay?
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I think you were holding in some frustrations, don't get me wrong its the most beautiful comment I have never seen, and I do agree with it, but like, are you okay?
It's hyperbole on my part with story analysis. Maybe I got a bit too into it, but I'm a fan of angsty stories lol
To be completely honest, it made my day seeing the comment, I love when people make long essay saying how thay feel, I especially live ut when its ture! So I will be watching for your comments on other books!ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
100% agree. I genuinely think that a temporary, real breakup would benefit them both right now. Honestly, I really hope that the seme would start genuinely dating someone else so he can feel what its like to be with someone who will give him affection.
I am starting to think that Damian's dad isn't this evil maniac that everyone seems to think. I don't think he's entirely a good guy (in their world that isn't possible for those who lived through the war). I think he's actively distancing himself from his family though.
And perhaps there's some of that human experimentation going on, but I think the biggest factor here is the overall theme of the story - wanting to avoid war. Most of the adult characters lived through the horrors of war and they want to prevent the war from starting again. Whether on one side or another, they want to suppress the other side to stop another war. Now there are some who do want to start the war, but I think Damian's dad wants to prevent another war. But Damian's dad is a key player on the world stage, so he is being watched by everyone and he's always at danger of assassination. This means his family is always in danger as well. But he can't just oppose war, his role and status isn't easy to navigate.
In the present he's cold, distant, and lacks the usual warmth of a husband and father. In the past he was the total opposite, and I think he's doing his best to protect them in his own way. And maybe that's why he's also so harsh with them, because he wants them to be able to survive on their own. But at the end of the day, he's hurting his entire family. His wife is on the verge of breaking down, his oldest son has lost a connection to his own emotions, and his youngest son is suffering from isolation.
I think the dad now has evidence of being experimented on and this chapter kinda pushed that more. Like his old look didn’t have the head scars
To be honest, I think you might be right about neither side being bad. I'm wondering if there's like this secret third organisation working behind the scenes, and it's somehow linked to all these experiment facilities like the ones with Anya and Bond.
Perhaps the military of Ostana (Ostania?) could be the ones behind it and Desmond (Dami & Demi's father) like you said knows something and as a result is trying to keep his family out of the drama of the politics behind it. We know they're at least involved from Code:White, and then there's those elderly neighbours that are somehow involved with Anya (aka the 007 experiment); but honestly I'm so invested in the politics behind operation strix and the mastermind of it all.
Like don't get me wrong, I love the happy go lucky family drama we love to see, but I'm super intrigued in the actual lore that led to this and the makings of the wars and why these experimentations began. I think once we get to Anya's backstory it's going to be a huge reveal of some kind. Like who Anya's parents were and how she ended up in the facility in the first place, was she born there? Or was she taken with her mother? Who is her father? These sorts of questions.
But for some reason, I wonder if Yor and Yuri's parents might have had some role in this too, because we've never actually seen who they are or really any information about them minus the fact they died due to the war when Yor/Yuri was young and that instance of the cooking segment. But I do find it a little suspicious we've never actually seen silhouettes of them either - Like in Loid's backstory where we got faceless characters. So it'll be interesting to see if they are involved in some way, be it secret spies or Garden members like Yor (Because we never actually learned how Yor became acquainted with Garden while being so young.)
Not to say no to this theory completely, but there are so many other reasons why he could have scars; for example, failed assassination attempt, an accident, or a surgery (potentially related to the other options). Though I will say I can't imagine what he looks like in my head rn so I'm not really sure what scars you are referring to, and I wasn't sure what chapter I should check it from. ^^;