Does anyone else have this weird feeling like you're not yourself?? As if it weren't you in your body, as if your own home wasn't really your home. And it looks uncomfortable, uncomfortable to be here, uncomfortable to be alive. Then I think of myself doing something something that I really love doing, for example watching my favorite youtuber, but...... 3 reply
This is me from the past, like 10 years old to 14 or so, and on the right side is the me of now. I haven't changed much in appearance, but before I had depression, and now I have depression and anxiety! Lmao, it was fun to do the expressions thinking about it. reply
idk if i can talk about this here but I kinda of want to see the opinion of ya'll. So, my mom recently discovered that I was on my cell late even after she sent me to sleep, and she now takes my cell phone at night so I don't use it (she isn't wrong doing this tbh). But now I feel an inexplicable despair at night, my heart is racing and I start to cry having bad thoughts about the future and that I am not enjoying my life and a irrational fear of dying?? And bcuz of that I can't sleep. I thought it was okay if it was only at night, and that I just needed to endure it. But now I'm feeling that way in the morning too, I absolutely hate to feel this way. I related this to anxiety, I guess, but I wanted to know if it would be better for me to ask my mother for therapy, but I'm afraid I'm just exaggerating? I have no one to talk to about it. When I slept at dawn while using my cell phone, I was only sleepying when I am so tired to the point of just lying down and sleeping, without thinking about anything else. And the cell also distracted me. And I totally don't know how to ask for therapy either.
(Context: I feel that way for about 5 years, but this is the first time it's so bad, so- ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶)
did read books
