Reading the last chapter while listening to the anime OST titled "the summer hikaru died" made me bawl my eyes out omgggggggggg yoshiki laughing so carefreely after 50 chapters of anxiety and heartache aaa i'm so happy for him eventhough he had to leave his family, this whole thing is so bittersweet and hopeful. I'm glad that yoshiki got the closure and happiness he deserves, and im also glad that hikaru is finally at rest (with his daddyyyy god im crying) and that his family & friends got to mourn him properly. This finale is the best thing ever that happened to me this year tbh
The fact that this manga is an allegory to the reality of being a queer person in a queerphobic society yet it has a happy, hopeful ending means so much to me. I love this manga so frickin much, gonna buy the fullset once it comes out
Bruh i fucking cried like wow....the loneliness and tenderness in this chapter kinda broke me into pieces. I guess i had been holding it in since like 5 chapters ago, and it truly dawned on me just now how precious garam is as a person. How warmly and softly he should have been held. Idk man. I'm not saying that what he had with heejae was all bad, but. As he said himself, it's a sharp love. And idk if garam as a person, free from heejae's demands, is suited for that kind of love. And im not saying that youngjo deserves garam, not at all, he's still a bastard for what he did 8 years ago, but seeing him loving garam like this made me so emotional. I've said this a million times, garam is such a softhearted and kind person. He deserves to be loved kindly. I hope what happened in this chapter doesn't make anything worse, i don't want him to get hurt more than he already had.
Anyway next week is hiatus so suicide is back on the table i guess
it typically takes a lot for a manhwa to make me cry. this chapter is the first of NME to bring me to tears, and it did so easily.
You got me :( the first time i was close to tears was when i saw garam crying under the covers, listening to heejae's chopin performance but this time?? God. Like there was no extreme emotions being displayed but fuckkk this chapter man.
I dislike adam so much. Maybe it's because i'm autistic, but a pushy character who has no regards for others' boundaries irritates me endlessly. Not to mention that he sexually harrasses MC constantly. It gets to a point where i just wanna skip it when he appears. I've tried reading this manga multiple times because the reviews are good, but maybe it's time to accept that i will not be able to enjoy it.
I was raring to go but my imaginary dick wilted and fell off immediately
Kanou reminds me so much of myself when i was depressed. Every little thing became big inside my mind, i couldn't stop overthinking, every miniscule interaction i had in passing with strangers became meaningful whether in a bad or good way. That scene where kanou overthought the customer stumbling against him (in which he immediately considered romance with the guy) literally happened to me. So did the thing with the highschool student, having an attachment and affection to a near stranger just because he was kind to him. It makes me feel bad when people can't relate to that and label kanou as "weird" or "pedophilic" without trying to understand where he comes from. But i guess that's to be expected because not everyone has hit that low point in their life to be able to relate to what kanou was feeling.
Im so attached to nme that it's driving me insane seeing people on socials having the worst takes ever about it. Like i wanna gatekeep nme so frickin badddd help
Ive always had this feeling, to gatekeep my favorite works when they’re being mistreated and not cherished enough by the fandom, I feel like NME attracted the wrong readership