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?Please be advised. This work contains somewhat sadistic expressions and portrayals of bloodshed due...

When a certain man is released from prison, he knows exactly where he's heading first. After fa...

A girl who could tell lies from truth, who suffered from this strange ability meets a strange detect...

if he looks like your love, and talks like your love, does it matter if he's not? can you fall in love with a facsimile, wholeheartedly, or will the real thing always haunt you? can you love the memory so much you stop caring? open wounds that will never heal...enjoyed how this played with body horror and identity similarly to 'the summer hikaru died' and there is the question of agency--hisao was born for his brother's sake and raised only for his sake, is that something someone can overcome? how do you give someone who was born to die survival instinct? love was not enough. adored the beautiful and eerie illustrations.

If I say that, does it make it love?

ouugh!!!! What is love?? Baby don't hurt me!!! Love how uncertain everything is between them. Is it love, or is it attachment due to their past hurts and history, or is it both? ch 27... gahhh shibal why does this only update once a month?

Iinuma, a somewhat dull salaryman, eats food as his craving drives him! This is an appetite-stimulat...

Claudine is a transman convinced since he was young that he was born in a female body. he struggles ...

Yuji Mase, a university student who is rather popular with girls without his knowledge, taciturn and...

we could all see compton's mental breakdown and blow-up coming. there was no way the prof and garam could keep their relationship a secret forever, yet when it finally comes to light, it hits so forcefully, as if by surprise. compton's fury at garam is frightening (like a betrayal, but who betrayed whom first?), and garam's rebuttal "then play it yourself" is satisfying and vindicating...but also cruel. salt in the wound. can you even fucking play it? or are you a coward who ran away because he didn't have the talent, the love for music to stick it through?

of course it's in self-defence, and compton's being an utter ass, but when eva observes that garam has "definitely grown colder" it feels a little chilling. we think of garam as sweet, but he's sweet to the people who benefit him, and his sympathy for compton is paltry, tasting more like pity, and mostly self-serving, despite very clearly understanding how his professor has abused compton. garam's long since lost the naivety, innocence, and morality we knew of him in the beginning. is it for the better...? will this serve his music..?

god, the depths people will slink to for music (but, selfishly, beyond the purity of 'sound', they are seeking acclaim, acknowledgement, audience. what's the point of music if no one is there to listen to it, to share a connection that might be more vulnerable and intimate than sex because sex is with your body but music is with everything. with the hidden parts of you that you don't have words for that you fear other people seeing but need other people to see! even heejae needs someone to look!)

"the sight of you refusing to stop even while blood was pouring from your fingers! it left a deep impression on me!" heejae tells compton in the flashback and its a sober reminder of heejae's twisted essence, which has infused garam irreversibly, the same way garam has infused heejae. just because they're happy now, does it mean it's for the best? what other bitter wounds from heejae's past will come crawling out? (can't wait)

i'm rambling now, but i love how their artistry and search for perfection is at the heart of their toxic codependency, and how something as beautiful as a concerto can be so fucking ugly.

it made me wish for an anime adaptation or a live action so badly. of course the beautiful author conveys the emotional resonance of the music effectively through image, but actually hearing the music, imagining heejae--whose hands have only known how to hurt for so long--make a piece that feels so brimming with tenderness and delicacy, all for garam, it's so... music has this untranslatable language that i can't express in words. you have to FEEL IT LIKE HEEJAE FEELS IT, after everything, the screaming and loneliness and abuse and garam's patience through it all...

for anyone who missed it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YE1ZUrWsCNQ

but holy shit are things about to go horribly wrong or what guys

intrigued by the slow build and whatever secrets dohwan is keeping. he's clearly hiding something, and i like how his dishonesty contrasts with yoonsang's sincerity.

a little bit tripped up by the name 'yoonsang' lol. can't help but think of korea's father of electronic music, lee yoonsang. brb gonna go listen to 'destiny' by lovelyz again

Shuichi Nitori is a 5th grade student who likes to bake and has always been something of a feminine ...

how satisfying it is when garam finds his rachmaninoff not inside his own darkness, but through his ability to endure and even love the professor's darkness. i do worry how much garam's sound and music is tied to the professor (the codependency is severe) but i also love how insane and obsessed they are about one another and would be sad if they achieve 'normalcy.' maybe that's impossible knowing where they started from, but it's beginning to feel like their relationship is fulfilling and sustaining in a way it wasn't before. they've both transformed one another but I can't let go of my anxieties that it's too good to be true... perhaps compton is brainwashing me too...

i can't help but feel pity for compton ( or cumdump or condom or whatever nickname the chat has given him now) because you can see how much he loved and admired the professor in his need to rip away and 'save' every student from the maestro (save himself, really). did the maestro do something uniquely evil to him? or did compton go falling in love, thinking he was so special, all on his own, and couldn't handle the truth?

i wonder if we'll ever return to the characters from the first arc in the university.
don't know if i'm misremembering, but didn't garam ask the professor for a favour-- to bar one of his old classmates from performing at a venue or something? that made me curious since garam doesn't seem the type to hold grudges. and i want to see what youngjo and naeun are up to and their reactions to garam--his artistry and confidence as he is now. i LOVE that the author never made him some mega talented genius. it's been gradual and painstaking the whole way.

also need to find out about heejae's old manager/lover... but i also love the way he exists as this incorporeal spectre haunting heejae's every moment alone.

Kurashita Tsukimi is a "kurage (jelly fish) otaku" girl who wants to be an illustrator. Sh...

San attends the most elite female school in Okinawa, but her and her classmates are recruited as nur...

Plot: The story of an orphanage, the children who live in it, and the beat-up old Nissan Sunny 1200 ...

Bright and early one Monday morning, Shino Yuzuru asks Seryou Touji out on a lark when they run into...

The beloved characters of Mairimashita! Iruma-kun star in this Mafia-based spinoff! Young Iruma save...

In this world, witches must hunt down their magic! Deep in the forest, the terrifying king of magic ...

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