y'all just check author's acc. Jian still alive, and she did tell people to look forward for jinjian story
Here's proof
https://x.com/i/status/2061004815136932208
I dont read the novel yet so my assumption based on manhwa. But why this manhwa feel like the uke is overthinking, immature, and assumed things on his own. I get it the seme not communicating well, he's talking but not really showing his real feelings, he's being careful in case things go wrong and all.. things also too sudden for him.
But uke's trauma really do make him assumed things negatively about the seme. His mind wander too much, waiting for dna test isn't even that long and it's realitic for seme to ask if the uke is sure to have a baby as he's still YOUNG. Then the mc caught that as something negative... Maybe bc he's hormonal, or maybe because it's a product of his trauma. But seriously reading uke's pov despite the seme still listening to him kinda frustrating. Like calm down for a second.
You know it's your fault to make him in doubt as you started that "fake dating" so the least you can do is indeed wait for dna test. The seme despite his trust issue, still takes care of you and cares about your future as YOU'RE YOUNG. (This is irl logic lmao, in bl seme should immediately become a simp and trust blindly ig lollll)
AS EXPECTED FROM BAETODI
Even when the plot has rape, she use her pen so well and make her characters have complexity even in 5 chapters. Read her other manhwa the light I give you.
it's ending already, time to continue this slop I left it since around chapter 20
I thought he's going to be mpreg bc of that mention of curse and him getting wet lol
I want to rant again, disclaimer I don't defend the seme at all, I dont like his slutshaming, how he had dubcon sex, the sa, being insufferable to uke. I dont defend any of that.
I just want to say something (people will throw tomatoes at me) that I understand the feeling of betrayal and how he's crashing out.
After reading the novel, seme said "why you don't explain yourself, or convinced me harder, why you don't apologize to me after that" but because mostly it's uke pov and how we already pissed off by his present treatment towards uke, seme's pov kinda being ignored by readers
When he said that, I look back at the time the uke was jealous with Evelyn and the seme was persistent in convincing the uke that he doesn't love Evelyn, even poured out all his feelings, even he got on his knees, and promise something to uke, he even apologize. But meanwhile, seme was being manipulated by family, witnessed his uke laughing on the bed with his father after months he's in hospital, constantly seeing sexual pictures from the uke (edited and manipulated, some are probably fact as Andrew's friends attempted to rape the uke) but when the uke came to him again before he engaged with Evelyn after the betrayal, the uke was just crying and whining and just yelling "I'm pregnant with your child" then he just runaway from him???? No effort to convince seme even after yeas of knowing the misunderstanding.
The seme was working for him, cut off his family, they're being poor together living in small house while the seme working his ass outside, the seme shows alot of effort (before the accident) and for the uke to gatekeep the information and not telling him the truth with back up evidence (dna test) and just wallowing in how "how could you not trust me, how could you"
I don't victim blame the uke of course, but when you read how seme was often the one who actively communicate with the uke. And for the author to just shutting the uke's mouth just for the plot kinda pissing me off.
I know the seme shouldn't immediately think uke sleeps with his father, he could just suspect that maybe it's not with consent (but the uke was laughing lovingly hugging his father on his bed, that really fuck him up bruh imagine your boyfriend smiling hugging your mother on the bed lol) seme can also make an effort to know the truth of course, but for me this is something that he should listen from the uke, bc he wants the uke to convince himself that what he saw isn't the truth.
Just like how seme apologized and convinced the uke that he doesn't like evelyn, at least the uke should show the same effort and seriousness but the uke was naive and young and he felt small in that family so his option is just running away + uke thinks evelyn is better than him after putting seme in danger (inferiority complex)
Not to mention the seme still caring for the daughter that's not his.. (before the revelation)
The uke did say "i didn't sleep with your father" but he just keep repeating that. Like man, I'd be frustrated too ngl I'm being real here.
Also don't twist it as me defending seme's slutshaming and SA, I just want to rant about how frustrating the writing is and how I kinda understand seme's pov.
should be kinda grateful that yuta is not a top because imagine if some tops have similar backstory and trauma and betrayal like yuta. The supposed uke would be miserable more than the uke from non zero sum. I can even imagine it's like that Cozy Obsession original story before they second chance.
It's quite rare to see tops drinking FOUNTAIN literally drinking yuta's squirt like he's thirsty for it
And ugh yuta is PACKING he has above average dick, it's fucking hotttt
I'M NOT DEFENDING THE TOP but just want to let it out the flaw in the writing. The lack of communication from the mc in the past really piss me off, but well it's written that way on purpose bc that would be the entire plot lol. Meanwhile, zig wrote the communication from the seme where uke doubted him in the past so well, but somehow can't do the same with uke.
Again this is not me blaming the uke, just noticing the writing. And how the conflict is just "the uke can't explain and can't make the top trust him well so this is why this conflict happens" it's kinda icky.
Lee muhan is still mugo, it's still one person just with different trauma lmao
I hope geonwu runaway smartly, like I don't wanna things to be easy for taejun somehow. He's kinda selfish with his own feeling, he's used to people telling him what to do so when he finally found someone who "cares" and caters to him (geonwu) he became quite arrogant.. he knows geonwu likes him, he knows but he keeps sleeping around on purpose, he tested geonwu's "loyalty" while knowing how much geonwu had a crush on him. Ain't no way he doesn't know that it HURTS seeing your crush sleeping around but he dgaf and even brag about it.
Saying that "oh I dont wanna ruin our friendship bc you're precious" kinda giving me a man with madonna vs whore complex. Taejun wanted both the whore and madonna (geonwu's friendship and "innocence") but I know damn well he's now also realizing he's into geonwu, and once he knows geonwu is pregnant he wouldn't let him go bc the baby is the anchor for his confidence that "finally, I have something to make me sure geonwu is mine, and we're not ruining our relationship bc there's a baby and we have no choice but be together :)"
I've read moscareto novel "codename march" and the mc is a runaway pregnant. But the runaway is kinda short and a bit unsatisfying for me, so I hope she'd write it better in this.
Taejun is not a black flag like in the other mahwa bl ofc, he's cocky, arrogant, and typical MALE you can find irl lol, a bit selfish too despite knowing how much geonwu is a simp for him (a bit insecure too bc deep inside he's scared of geonwu leaving him and breaking their relationship even as a friend) but mannnn... Knowing a person likes you and you just being comfortable sleeping around while knowing he'd be hurt is giving me ick.
Seunghyun is a dumbass is canon anyway, he's street smart, all his iq stored in muscles, he has no experience in relationship, whole ass virgin, no friends, not even having any experience in enjoying his life outside of mafia/work duty, since childhood being groomed in mafia world, no normal childhood, no experience with life outside of mafia space. He's really stupid (affectionally), but the fact that this stupid emotionally stunted man can finally work his brain with romance and analyzing his attachment... Maybe we should kinda, give him a space to use more of his brain omg I love them and want more of yuta acting up so Seunghyun can be more stressed out lol I support whatever the hell yuta would do after this.
But like if we can analyze yuta's action bc of his trauma and influenced from gp and kujo. Then we can also analyze seunghyun's gorilla virgin unc. His first love and first relationship ever after whole years of being virgin.
this is adapted from novel right, but you will be suprised alot of r1d1 novel actually FREAKY like r1d1 is basically the ao3 for korean but with original story not fanfiction. I read the incest novel, read alligator mpreg one, alien bl, and horse bl, cuntboy, and many more freaky stuff i read alot (not really alot), then there's even more freaky + problematic shit you can find based on tags on r1d1books but lately alot of authors deleted their freaky stuff somehow lol. So I'm gonna say this is kinda tame for r1d1books freaks standard.
One of the well known freaky author on r1d1 i ragno, she writes alot of furry bl...
- haeyoung is natural born psychopath, he doesn't understand human emotions he can't even differentiate getting mad and getting jealous or simply just liking or disliking, thou he already feel something different with Haewon since childhood
- haeyoung way of thinking is strange, he genuinely doesn't understand haewon's feeling. Bc he felt like there's no way haewon likes him if he sleeps with other people while haeyoung didn't do it with other people when he realized his "feeling" for haewon. He's trying to make sure if haewon's feeling is indeed the same like typical human liking him but haewon keeps sleeping with others. That's why he often said "it's your fault" to haewon because he felt betrayed.
- after punishing haewon, he thought haewon will come back again to him as "I'm the only one treating you good since long time ago, I hope you realize that" but haewon keeps on saying he doesn't like him anymore, or saying things like hate and cursing haeyoung (like mf haewon is traumatized after being constantly raped, what did he expect lmao)
- Haewon finally run away but it's not easy for him either, bc some bullshit keep happening despite him being away from the 3. Atp author just want him to be unlucky.
- haeyoung becoming depressed, he doesn't regret his mistakes, BUT he's depressed of why Haewon leaving him.... He even did self harm later. But he still genuinely not understanding why Haewon leave him. Then after that, he will change ... He will not become as violent (he gets violent when he feels frustrated and jealous, it's like his coping mechanism bc haewon *before the runaway arc* only react when he beat him up.. but once they reunite, haeyoung tried to hold back doing all violent thing)
- the chasing arc is quite long but not satisfying
- there will be therapist for Haewon lmao it should be for haeyoung like whatttt
- they adopted a cat in the end. Save that cat please
NOOOOOOOOO PLSSSSS THAT ASSHOLE TSUNDERE SEME STILL NOT DESERVE TO HAVE KID, RUNNNNNN GEONWU!!!!!
Writing so peak people forget about dohun raping yuwon LMAO I love them though, the unhinged top in well written story
Personally I dont like that old man taejae, well I dont like "older top" aesthetic in general. But doesn't mean I hate him. I think he's just emotionally confused playboy who spent his time ignoring "love" and do some kind of sex with no strings attached in his line of work.. so seeing juhyeok and suah having "pure love" sweetheart omega and alpha loyal dynamic, he's fascinated by it and getting curious and keep bothering them just for the sake of witnessing the drama of the "pure love"
Well that old man soon will have his own monogamous moment with his future young boyfriend
OH THAT PIG SEXIST TOWARDS OMEGA????? CAN PEOPLE JUST LET JUHYEOK BE WITH HIS JUDO CAREER OMFG... LEAVE HIM ALONEEE LET HIM HAVE THIS MOMENT FOR HIS JUDO ISTG ALL THE INSECTS AROUND JUHYEOK SHOULD JUST BURN