i know this isn’t the place to open up about stuff like this but ive lowkey been struggling with this kind of mindset for a while and i know others may relate
it’s been a couple years since I realized the signs and I’ve been ignoring them for a while cuz i grew up in an extremely homophobic household. i really wanna deny being gay especially with my parents’ pressure of straight relationships. every time i joke about dating a girl (honestly curious abt their reaction as if it’ll ever change) they are definitely disappointed even if it’s a joke. i hate myself for thinking this way and wish i could change my sexuality so it’s not problem—when i feel love for a girl, i feel disgusted by myself and could legit picture my family’s hatred for my lover and me. literally everything would be better if i could just love the opposite gender. ive accepted there’s nothing i can do but this feeling of disgust lingers which is why im ignoring the signs even though I KNOW it’s ok to date a girl anyone else struggling or struggled with this? how’d you cope cuz i know this mindset is hella unhealthy
my hairs virgin, pitch black, and slightly wavy. to my queens who got their hair bleached:
was it difficult to maintain afterwarss??? did yalls hair fall off cuz thats what ive been warned about and how many times do yall have to re dye. im planning on going like dark honey brown but i still need to bleach and im scared its gonna ruin my hair permanently
did how keep yourself happy
