the story is becoming less and less about bdsm and both partners being pleasured and way more about richard using Courtney as a method of self harm. and although courtney enjoys their play more now, her level of satisfaction isn't nearly enough for me.
also choking is not about almost killing someone hello???? it should feel pleasurable from the sub's side from the hypoxia/oxygen rush and pleasurable from the dom's side in asserting control (depriving the sub at their will, and then rewarding them in turn with sweet sweet oxygen) bdsm should always prioritize safety and enjoyment from both parties, and instead we're doing russian roulette with how many times can we make richard pass out before he gets brain damage.
final thought? after reading My sadistic master, this just pales in comparison. i've seen a grown man ask his sub to pee in his mouth and richard's big ask is choking? grow up like (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ
i feel like i'm going crazy but in the last few episodes richard and Courtney's faces are SO??? Round???? Like i know they both had sort of roudish faces to begin with but the last few chapters they look like literal orbs. has anyone else noticed it? it feels like courtney's features have lost their sharpness and richard just bounces between childish orb face and angry
Love this story, it's so full of three dimensional characters and complicated relationships. But this comment section need to be studied The simpimg for DOWUN???? LIKE??? Are we reading the same story??? Even if you like him as a character that's all good and well, but yall are acting like he's the pope when he is textbook psycopath. There's no shame in liking morally bankrupt characters but let's call a spade a spade
i feel like this jyst doesn’t hit like it used it to after he basically r*ped her. his whole submissive thing just feels like an act now. it was barely even adressed, as well as the way courtney says "I" lost control instead of "Richard" lost control. Like she was the one at fault? I thought this was going to be peak but it just feels so icky now
Not disagreeing about the rape part but I think Courtney saying "I" lost control wasn't like her thinking she was at fault or anything.....it was more like she was controlling the situation (as in Dom) but then her control was taken away from her(as in Richard took control) that's y she was saying things like she underestimated Richard and this time she is gonna make sure she is in control the whole time
the whole point of a sub/dom relationship though is consent and the each person is deriving pleasure. Richard likes being punished because it brings him pleasure in the same way that Courtney likes punishing him. It is not Courtney's responsibility to make sure he doesn't r*pe her by being a better dom. The fact that she says she "underestimated" him is already so flawed. They had set expectations of what was expected of each other and Richard just decided to flip the roles without any confirmation or consent from Courtney









I did not slog through almost a 100 chapters of a manipulative, rapey, gaslighting, insensitive, arrogant, misogynistic, only-cares-about-sex, belitting CUNT for the payoff to be barely 10 chapters long. For all this man did, he should be on his knees, crying, begging, pleading, offering to kill himself for this poor girl's sake. WORST regret story i've read in fucking ages, this bitch barrreeely regrets or repents and when he does it's so fucking unsatisfying. Genuinely this guy could voluntarily ask to get whipped 50 times with a barbed whip and it STILL wouldn't be enough. Can't believe i wasted so much time waiting for a payoff that was never going to fufill genuine CHAPTERS ON CHAPTERS of judt straight up abuse. At some point you literally hope this girl dies so she can find peace. *SPOILER* When I saw she was in a train crash, genuinely hoped she had died on impact so she could finally be at peace. This shit cannot be worth it, EVER. So much better trashy ML regret stories out ther like I wish you were dead or What it means to be you, where male leads spend more chapters regretting than actually doing bad shit to the FL. Just save yourself the fucking pain. Never trusting a goddamn reddit recommendation ever again jesus christ
100% this, even as angst/regret/chasing enjoyer, I can't stand with this one. The fault to regret ratio is ass, he barely repents anything, while being a vile man and husband most of the time. I'll add my beloved opressor to your recommendations, but stay away from this one
No EXACTLY. Proper regret/angst/yearning needs a perfect balance otherwise it's just pain without any prize at the end. Beloved Opressor though not my favorite also balanced the two aspects well! Definitely a good recommendation