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    Nemaki February 6, 2019 12:29 am

    Wow seems hardcore O_O

    Blu February 6, 2019 1:14 am

    ~A mAn LiKe yOu~
    Lol

    Blu February 6, 2019 1:21 am
    ~A mAn LiKe yOu~Lol Blu

    Whops sorry. I didn't read the title u wrote above. Don't mind me

    JunkiReader February 6, 2019 2:42 am
    Whops sorry. I didn't read the title u wrote above. Don't mind me Blu

    Kinda true though. His only redeeming point in my eyes now(SPOILER ALEART) is the fact that he tried to seriously harm Lu in one of the dreams. And that he kicked a dude's ding dong

    キスケ February 6, 2019 2:41 pm
    http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/pero_pero_chan/ poisen.ivy

    Thx, that's it. ( ̄∇ ̄")

キスケ January 8, 2019 2:33 am

pretty sure that says it all, just can't find the manga. Little help? ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

キスケ December 7, 2018 6:04 pm

Our mother hen just hatched 16 baby chicks but 1, being the only yellow one, the others were black, was an exile, the mother hen was trying to peck it. So imma take care of it. Can I get a cheer for little Leper? :D

Also, can you all recommend a really long manga or webtoon so I can read while I cuddle with Leper? Or hell, even an anime or netflix series. Thx ya'll.

    MothXLamps December 7, 2018 6:21 pm

    The Promised Never Land (it's getting an anime next year in Jan.

    Lookism (its purty good)

    Langchimaple December 7, 2018 6:22 pm

    Watch KFC documentary while holding Leper .
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    Jokes aside, you can read winterwoods in line webtoon.It just popped up in my head cuz its winter now.....

    Little December 7, 2018 7:05 pm

    Im cheering for lil peckers.
    I recommend I love you, refund high school, a good day to be a dog, oh! holy, boyfriend of the dead, Lets play, super secret, and cat loaf adventures (all from line webtoon)

    Animes: Blue Exorcist, fairy tail, SAO, the devil is a part-timer.

    キスケ December 7, 2018 8:27 pm

    thx for the suggestions you all, I'mma check em all out.

キスケ June 19, 2018 7:39 pm

I know I just posted one yesterday, and if you want to waste your time, please skip this.
(I'm fifteen, my brother's 18 and my dad is 60 for reference)

A couple a weeks ago, my mother apologized because she FINALLY realized that MAYBE all the crap and gossip she would laugh about with my brother, who was even worse with gossip than my mother, was ACTUALLY triggering my suicidal thoughts and such. She promised she wouldn't do it anymore. (Everyone found out unintentionally and I had to go to a mental hospital for 8 days about three weeks ago. Only the other kids helped me realize things, but I HATED the hospital.)
Today, my dad was talking to my brother and that he needed to take responsibility for himself instead of clinging to mom (cuz that is what he does and he has REALLY low education because he won't do the schooling himself and instead ignores it. He also is no where near thinking of a job).
After dad leaves for work, Bert gossips about dad to ma. Even though they both know that's a fucking trigger.
I tell ma not to break promises she can't keep and she just said that she's okay with gossiping because she knows that Bert just failed the driving test this morning FOR THE THIRD FUCKING TIME and that he needed to "vent". He's not venting. He's laughing and gossiping about dad just like he does ALMOST EVERY FUCKING DAY FOR THE PAST 8 YEARS OR SO.
My brother blames my dad FOR EVERYTHING. Like, I realized recently that dad IS quite hypocritical, and I don't think he realizes a lot of that. And recently I'm trying to repair this stupid broken family because I WANT things to work out, I WANT us all to be happy. I love my dad, my mom for the past two weeks before she broke her promise today, and I DID love my brother FUCKING 8 YEARS AGO BEFORE HE STARTED ALL THIS SHIT AND CRAP.
I tell both of them that they need to stop blaming dad for everything and realize that THEY AS WELL have their own faults.
Then we veered onto another subject. When I was being taken to a psychiatrist shortly after I was discovered to have suicidal thoughts. One the way, Bert was practicing driving in a little quiet neighborhood. Every time I tried to nicely warn Bert about a car that could have hit him, ma told me harshly to "SHUT UP!" because SHE was the driving instructor and I WAS INTERRUPTING HER DRIVING LESSON. I was about to cry and my anxiety was shooting up the wall.
While we were arguing today, she said that she was justified because she didn't like another person speaking in the car while she was giving driving instructions and that it was okay for her to harshly tell me to shut up even though she knew I looked like I was about to fucking cry.
Oh and she never apologized for that.
I thought I was fixing things around here, guess I'm not. I think I might be going back to the mental hospital soon (๑•ㅂ•)و✧

Sorry to put all this drama on you guys, you really don't have to read or reply to this if you want to. Seriously, I probably shouldn't even be posting this. Sorry.

    Zeffyra June 19, 2018 8:00 pm

    ur dad's too old to have kids at teens... sorry dude...but ur a second fam?
    if no... lets move on...
    choose the best answer...
    A. Gun
    B. Rope
    C. Poison
    u choose...
    nah...juz joking...
    stidy hard...be successful and move out of that hell hole, mate...

    Zeffyra June 19, 2018 8:00 pm
    ur dad's too old to have kids at teens... sorry dude...but ur a second fam?if no... lets move on...choose the best answer...A. GunB. RopeC. Poisonu choose...nah...juz joking...stidy hard...be successful and mov... Zeffyra

    *study* fockin typo

    キスケ June 19, 2018 8:04 pm
    ur dad's too old to have kids at teens... sorry dude...but ur a second fam?if no... lets move on...choose the best answer...A. GunB. RopeC. Poisonu choose...nah...juz joking...stidy hard...be successful and mov... Zeffyra

    I think I'll choose D. Poison Hemlock. Fuckin weed growing in the ditches.

    GoldenScale June 19, 2018 8:05 pm

    Well, it's good to vent and your brother does look like he needs more discipline in his life. It's also okay to try and repair your bond with your family, but shoving their mistakes into their faces isn't the right way to do it. '^'

    The driving thing is a good example. It's quite annoying when someone who doesn't drive tells you that you made a mistake 'cause either you were wrong because you don't have experience or your brother already knew he was wrong and didn't need someone to point it out. Instead of telling him he "almost" hit a car, you might want to tell him to take his time and go slower.

    Never blame people. Give them advices instead.

    ermar June 19, 2018 8:36 pm

    make peace with ur parents and let ur brother be. considering the fact that u r 15 and he is 18 there is no way he is gonna listen to u anyway...its his life let him do as he pleases. u r not the one who's gonna fix the family, ur brother will leave home soon enough and i dont think that ur parents are breaking up anytime soon so everything's good.

    about the suicidal thoughts: u wrote this long ass text about how much u care for ur family and u tell me that u r having suicidal thoughts? the one who's causing them problems rn is u. sorry for being harsh on u but u r too young to kill urself. everything might seem grey rn but u need to find something that makes u happy. life isnt always that great but there are always things that make us glad that we r alive.

    1OvErDoSE01 June 19, 2018 8:37 pm

    Seems like you're living in a shithole.. there's nothing much you can do at that age.. though I'm not not to speak.
    I mean, if you live in the USA (depending on your state), if you wait one year (because you're 15) and plan out your options you may be able to participate in the "emancipation of minors" thing.

    1OvErDoSE01 June 19, 2018 8:37 pm
    Seems like you're living in a shithole.. there's nothing much you can do at that age.. though I'm not not to speak. I mean, if you live in the USA (depending on your state), if you wait one year (because you're... 1OvErDoSE01

    Only if you want to of course.

    GoldenScale June 19, 2018 9:07 pm
    Seems like you're living in a shithole.. there's nothing much you can do at that age.. though I'm not not to speak. I mean, if you live in the USA (depending on your state), if you wait one year (because you're... 1OvErDoSE01

    Nah, I think his/her family is quite normal. If they neglected (or hit) him/her, that would be a real shithole.

    キスケ June 19, 2018 10:02 pm
    Well, it's good to vent and your brother does look like he needs more discipline in his life. It's also okay to try and repair your bond with your family, but shoving their mistakes into their faces isn't the r... GoldenScale

    Thank you for telling me that. I guess you're right about that. I just got a little too angry back there, but I needed to hear that.

    About the driving thing... I wasn't telling him that he made a mistake. I was pointing out things such as a car coming when he was about to go or he was backing up but there was a car behind him. One time I pointed one of those things out and my mother told me to shut up, Bert said it was okay and justified since I was right, and really that was the only comfort I got out that situation.

    キスケ June 19, 2018 10:05 pm
    make peace with ur parents and let ur brother be. considering the fact that u r 15 and he is 18 there is no way he is gonna listen to u anyway...its his life let him do as he pleases. u r not the one who's gonn... ermar

    I'm not pissed or anything but I am interested. How did I cause the problems? Please I really need to know, I want to fix this.

    And while that is true that there are some things that make me happy in life, the reason I don't want to live it is because everything that would normally make a person happy (skydiving, traveling, having friends, having kids and a husband, etc.) has never made me really happy. Instead I see all that stuff as boring and pointless. It's not life when you aren't enjoying a thing about it.

    キスケ June 19, 2018 10:07 pm
    Seems like you're living in a shithole.. there's nothing much you can do at that age.. though I'm not not to speak. I mean, if you live in the USA (depending on your state), if you wait one year (because you're... 1OvErDoSE01

    Yeah I plan on doing that and getting a Japanese translator job. I've looked into that and I can get that at 16. One more year...

    Thx for reminding me there is a way out of this shithole though.

    ermar June 19, 2018 10:25 pm
    I'm not pissed or anything but I am interested. How did I cause the problems? Please I really need to know, I want to fix this. And while that is true that there are some things that make me happy in life, the ... キスケ

    -well its not that u cause problems is that ur parents are in a difficult position due to the fact that u visiting a mental hospital. i dont say that its ur fault or anything but just imagine how they must felt when they learnt about ur suicidal thoughts. every parent wants their children to be happy. ur parents are in a lot of pressure from all the things thats happening thats why sometimes they act recklessly (for instance yelling at u)...
    -im not saying that is a bad thing that u want to help ur brother but ur brother is also in a difficult age (trust me) so he needs some time to adjust. if everyone is yelling at him he wont take anyone seriously. he needs to realise by himself that whats he's doing is wrong..
    -when i was at ur age i felt the same way but as the time goes by u r gonna find something that u really want to do.. just tell urself that this is just a phase. think about u, living alone without any worries with a job that u want with the things that u want. rn u might be thinking that u dont want anything but then again whats the difference if u die? u'll just not exist anymore. not only ur body but ur mind ur ideas ur beliefs will dissapear...are u okay with that? as long as u r living there is always a hope for something better...when u die there is no hope there is no future its just emptiness.nothing. nothing is there. so u need to live! there will always be people who care about u and i know that u care about them too so at least for now make an effort for them (▰˘◡˘▰)

キスケ June 18, 2018 1:15 am

(I am 15 and Bert, my bro, is 18, just so you know.)

So yesterday I noticed once again that my brother was being a brat during school (we're home-schooled, I teach myself through college textbooks and my mother teaches him) and I noticed Bert, as usual, was getting my mother to help him with EVERY LITTLE PROBLEM. He would ask her what's this, and she would go over there, explain, and when she went back to her seat, Bert, who hadn't listened to a thing she just said, says, "okay so what is this?" I see this EVERY DAY. Bert isn't learning crap. He still doesn't know what's bigger, -6 or -4. Every day, ma is getting really frustrated with him and practically yelling out the explanation to the math problem since he is being an ass. Lately me and ma are on really good terms because she is finally understanding that food is not the cause of my depression and me attempting suicide and shit and is being much more understanding lately. I've done this a few times, but because of our relationship now, this time I finally got through to her. I tell her that Bert's education is not cutting it and that there is no way he can pass the GED within two years, probably more. She agrees. Bert is just sitting there the whole time we are talking and he doesn't answer any of our questions. We ask him if he has anything he is motivated to learn, why he can't just not get a GED. I was surprised when ma FINALLY told him "you need to stop clinging to me and grow up. You are your own adult and need to take responsibility for yourself." She never said that before, really. Instead she just let him cling to her and helped him with everything. My brother has ALWAYS been a selfish brat. And when I was young, I was the exact same way as him, really. I tell Bert he is a hypocrite since he is always blaming every one of his own faults on dad because he "drinks all day" and "doesn't do any work." While it is true dad is lazy, and we are in large debt and dad could work more, dad isn't an alcoholic, but he does drink, and he is quite kind. He has always tried to form SOME type of bond with my brother even though he knows that both ma and Bert talk shit about him almost EVERY FUCKING DAY. Well, my brother still sometimes does but my mother stopped about 2 weeks ago because of her understanding that was one of the main causes of my depression. SIGHHHH. Today I noticed that he was in the bedroom ALL DAY and he wasn't asleep the entire time. I would know since my computer is in the bedroom and I stay on it most of the time. So ma tried to talk to him 2 times, but both times he didn't say a fucking word. I tried to talk to him. I went out of my way, put all my irritation and hate out of the way for him and sat there and tried to repair SOMETHING. For about thirty minutes, I talked to him. I tried to get through to him. Hell, I even cried a bit. But he just laid there with his eyes closed. I even gave him one of our baby bennies, but he ignored it. During the one-sided conversation, he started smiling and laughing just a tiny bit when I was getting emotional. I had to stop myself from walking away then. He probably was just ignoring me and thinking of other funny stuff like he randomly does. I was really fucking irritated. And when I was done, and I didn't say anything mean or anything, he still didn't say a thing. Now I am fucking irritated. I wasted my time on him. He has never helped me when I was sad except a few times when we were friends many years ago. Like when I was 9.

I won't hate you or anything if you take Bert's side, just please give me a logical answer. Thank you very much for reading all that and I'm sorry if I wasted your time.

    Night June 18, 2018 1:42 am

    In no way can I take your brother's side. You've just got to realize it, he's an asshole. Maybe as he goes through life, he might mature, but, right now, he hasn't, at all. You and your mom just need to stop leading him by the hand and let him fall down a bit. It might be difficult, after all, he's a brother and a son, but he needs to realize that his life is not anyone else's responsibility but his own. In time, he will either get his shit together or he will continue on down hill, either way, he can't be babied through life.


    Now, I know I'm not good with expressing this kind of stuff, but I hope that my attempts at expression can help you in some manner.

    Eiz June 18, 2018 2:11 am

    Your concern for your older brother is touching. Most won't even try to that extent.

    Your brother sounds like he's got alot of stuff to deal with, but is in limbo (you mentioned you also went thru depression, but seems like you are able to deal with it in your own way - looks like he may not be dealing with it the same way). He neither knows want he really wants, nor does he care - he has become lost. He's distanced himself from people who care about him.

    Th only thing you can do for your brother is just be there. It will be painful. You maybe hurt - it is already frustrating, isn't it, to not be able to get him to say what's going on with him? Fight against the hate and negative feelings that may be growing inside you (it may have already grown in him). Know your worth (its pretty rare to come across someone so young as yourself and see a diamond in the rough in you).

    Also strive for your own goals. Become stronger not just for yourself, but become strong enough for those you hold dear. If you can be strong enough, become a beacon.

    You're so young now. Its both an advantage and a disadvantage. You have time to grow and obtain your goals in life, but many things will be thrown your way. Don't lose sight of those that are precious to you, don't give in and become lost, too. Once you're strong enough - you may be able to help them with your burden.

    Be polite and courteous to him (respectful as him being an older brother) - sometimes it maybe difficult. Let him feel that his younger brother's "got his back". That you'll accept him as he is (you do, uh, right?) But back off if he becomes disrespectful to you - just get back to him once he's cooled off.

    Be well.

    Carol June 18, 2018 2:13 am

    I'm truly sorry that you are passing through such a difficult time. It must be hard for all of you. The main problem in your family is money. What I mean is since your family is in debt, and you dont have the financial means to support your necessities is making your family grow apart. From what I read, it seems that your brother already gave up in life. You said that he doesn't pay attention while your mom explains something,related to studies, to him and he keeps asking the same question, probably he doesn't find any purpose in learning. But that's because of the situation you are in. Not because he laughs means he is making of it, probably he is just tired of everything. He doesn't know what else to do. Since he might feel nothing its going to change, the situation is depressing him. Everybody expresses the situation differently. Laugh doesn't always equal happiness or joy, it could also mean nervousness or scareness. He might be hiding his true feelings throught a smile. You also said that while you talk to him he ignores you, maybe he doesn't want you to see his feeling. Talk to him when you feeling sad or happy, little by little he'll open to you. You must be patient. But before doing this you should love yourself more, don't harm your ownself. I know its easy for me to say since I'm not in your situation. I wouldn't even know what to do if I was in your situation to be honest but I will say this to you be strong for your family, you are so young don't take decisions that will affect your whole family. Also try reuiniting your family and communicate more. Do not talk bad about each other, if you hear this stop this but in a respectful way, meaning do not get mad. Remember you are a family and that you guys have each other. Try going out more often to the park or just walking around neighborhood, because being inside the house all the time you'll feel suffocated and depressed. I'm praying for your happiness. Be strong.

    1OvErDoSE01 June 18, 2018 2:26 am

    Your brother.. he won't understand how things work unless he experiences things for himself. Let him be for awhile, I'm sure something will happen eventually and he'll come back crying for his ma. Even if that is the case, I'm sure he'll learn something.
    He needs to learn how life works firsthand. That your ma won't always be around when he needs her. He needs to learn how to be independent.

    Evilcleo June 18, 2018 3:06 am

    Sometimes you just have to let someone fail and learn by experience.

    キスケ June 18, 2018 5:04 am

    Thanks for all your advice guys. And really, all that cheering on helped more than I thought it would. Thanks for taking the time to read my rant and take the time to give your opinions, really appreciate it. I'll do my best to control my emotions and stay respectful in these stressful situations (づ ̄ v ̄)づ

キスケ May 30, 2018 3:41 am

Let me just say that everyone is nice and open there. Everyone knows that everyone has their deep reasons for being there, so they don't judge and are sensitive and considerate.

Had to stay in there for 8 days though. Man I really hate the fact that they didn't have any internet. But we are supposed to work on "ourselves" so...

The reason I was in there (sorry if this seams like I am asking for attention) because I tried to commit suicide.

I scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist and I didn't even know I was walking into a mental hospital!! The second she got my assessment, I couldn't leave the damn building. FUCK.

    HamesTheJames May 30, 2018 3:48 am
    This reply will be showed after approved! Sebdanshi die Fudanshi

    my friend almost got prescription anti-depressants because he shouted, I WANNA KILL MYSELF when he got a 50% test back, his parents where not idiots though and told the school that he didn't actually mean it.

    ♡Debbie♡ May 30, 2018 3:53 am

    I WANNA GO THERE BC AH MY FEELINGS ARE MAKING ME CRAZY

    YURI!!choi~ May 30, 2018 3:56 am

    at least you got free food....yay?

    etalii May 30, 2018 3:59 am

    Hope you're better now.

    Blu May 30, 2018 4:28 am
    at least you got free food....yay? YURI!!choi~

    I see Luciel. I comment

    peace_yow May 30, 2018 12:07 pm

    Omg did they let you contact anyone to say you won't be home for a few days?
    This seems so weird o.o xD how was it? Did it help? :)

    キスケ May 30, 2018 10:09 pm
    Omg did they let you contact anyone to say you won't be home for a few days? This seems so weird o.o xD how was it? Did it help? :) peace_yow

    Yeah like my mom was with me and there was visitation 3 days a week and phone calls could be made during mornings and near lights out. I would say the first few days helped me but I really felt homesick the last two days.

    Like, on day 5, after lights out, 3 people (let's call them L, C, and K) caused a HUGE ruckus.
    So C with sitting with K in the day room at the same table (the place where we always go back to with four tables and chairs within view of the front desk) and one of the techs (workers) said something like, "don't sit together since you are boy and girl, you might do something inappropriate" and L, offended, threw a marker at that tech and the techs thought it it was C so they restrained her. L was trying to say "get off her!" and got restrained as well. Everyone woke up because of the yelling and the techs told us to go back to our rooms and it eventually caused another girl to have a panic attack and start beating the phone, trash can, and chair up which caused another girl to have an anxiety attack while yelling at the techs. All of them got what everyone calls "booty-juiced" or tranquilized. Then one had a seizure watching the scene and another had an anxiety attack. A lot of people punched a wall that night and even I was crying because I coudln't handle seeing my best friends being restrained. Let's just say a lot happened (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

    I mean, it generally helped people at first, but once they were in there more than a week, they got worse because that place has so many rules and regulations. Makes you feel trapped.

    peace_yow May 30, 2018 11:35 pm
    Yeah like my mom was with me and there was visitation 3 days a week and phone calls could be made during mornings and near lights out. I would say the first few days helped me but I really felt homesick the la... キスケ

    Oh wow that doesn't sound like a very soothing experience xD ^^' must've been quite unpleasant to have that much going on that night...
    Yup, being free to do what you want and go where you want when you want is pretty important for one's mental well-being. Freedom~ (⌒▽⌒) xD are you planning on looking for another psychiatrist or just wait and see for now? :)
    (And that expression "booty-juiced" is funny, though it makes me feel kinda bad for thinking that XD and it reminded me of a BL manhwa where the MC was put in a mental hospital cause his mom thought she could "cure" his homosexuality that way...)

    キスケ May 31, 2018 12:37 am
    Oh wow that doesn't sound like a very soothing experience xD ^^' must've been quite unpleasant to have that much going on that night... Yup, being free to do what you want and go where you want when you want is... peace_yow

    Ikr XD

    Well, for now I think I'm just going to be on my own. That time in the hospital really helped I think. Not really the place or the therapy or whatever, but the people I met there. All their stories. Right now, I have chicks to take care of and I know I have people that care deeply about me. The reason I did that didn't disappear, but I'm going to try to deal with it because now I actually think it's worth it. Also, I'm taking Zolof right now, so my mood swings are much more stabilized. Other than that, I think I will be doing just fine(▰˘◡˘▰)

    KQueen May 31, 2018 12:40 am

    Do you think that it helped you in anyway?

    peace_yow May 31, 2018 12:57 am
    Ikr XDWell, for now I think I'm just going to be on my own. That time in the hospital really helped I think. Not really the place or the therapy or whatever, but the people I met there. All their stories. Ri... キスケ

    Aww that's nice :) seems like going to that psychiatrist was worth it then, even if it turned out not quite as you had planned it xD
    Chicks (☆▽☆) I hope you have lots of fun with those cuties and of course the people you mentioned :D and have a nice day~ :) *gives cookie*

キスケ May 19, 2018 10:26 pm

I am 15 and suffering from a sort of depression. At least, I think I have it now that I tried to kill myself about two weeks ago but called suicide hotline last minute and they required me to tell somebody so my family found out. Okay, that was a while ago but it still ties into things.

For the past three days, I have been hanging out with my sister, Len, and Kuma, Len's fiance. Both of them I am really close to. So they talk about me moving in with them when they get a new house which is quite soon. I get really excited but of course, I am holding back since I don't want to burden them financially or because of my emotional state.

So when I get home, I talk to ma and dad about it and both say no. My father says his reasons in a very vague way, but at the end he said that I will understand when I get older and have my own family. Either way, since I don't understand it, it really upsets and stresses me. He also seemed to say that it would effect my future, maybe I might make a wrong move, or something along those lines.

The reason I want to move out is to get away from my mother and brother, both of whom were half the reason of my depression because of how they put my father, sister, Kuma, and so many good people down.

When I play rant to my sister about it, she tells me she was actually thinking I could move in with them when I was around 18. So basically, I was an idiot and misunderstood that I wasn't moving in with them anytime soon.

Dad already knows that Ma and Bert are contributing to the cause of my depression, although ma doesn't know since that will just cause more arguments between me and her and that will just jump-start those dark suicidal emotions again.

Is my depression just not that serious? Am I just being a selfish brat? Are my parents right and I should stay home and not move in with Len and Kuma? I am currently chipping off college years by taking clep tests and plan to get a high paying job after graduating. Is there some type of grown-up thing that I can only learn when I am older? Please answer honestly even if it might hurt ╥﹏╥

    kedamono May 19, 2018 10:31 pm

    My family didn't take my issues seriously too back then, and I just kinda had to hang in there for quite a long...in my case, it got better with the age. I can't offer you any answers, unfortunately, but your feelings as an individual are valid sweetheart

    Anonymous May 19, 2018 11:46 pm

    You didn't go in detail how your mother & brother contribute to your depression. Are you being bullied? If you are bullied you should move away asap.

    Generally it's a bad idea to live with a young pair - they'll be starting a family soon and you don't want to be the 5th wheel. Or be there when the drama happens.

    Get an appointment with a therapist. Seeing how you already tried to suicide your father should understand. If he doesn't, contact the hotline again and see what they can do. Understand your depression first and then maybe consider moving.

    SuckMySkittles May 19, 2018 11:49 pm

    Dont worry! you're a beautiful flower. you deserve to Live. I too am a very suicidal prone person and i tried to kill myself yesterday but someone stopped me and people bash out on him as "troll" but he is one of the kindest person. Live. we'll get through this together

    SuckMySkittles May 19, 2018 11:50 pm

    I have issues too. Tons of Problems overlapping. and sometimes i cant take it anymore since my parents is aso the reason why I wanna die. but oh well, lets just hope one day i wont kill myself. but now i'm thinking positive as i can be :)

    Anonymous May 19, 2018 11:53 pm

    You are not a selfish brat. Your dad might not want you to move because you are one of the only good people in the house so he'd miss you. I think ultimately you should do what you think feel right for you and what would be the best for you, because it's your life and your the only one who can live it. Then when your make a plan/decision do not doubt yourself or try to talk yourself out of it because if your gut and head are telling you it's the right move it probably is.

    peace_yow May 20, 2018 12:36 am

    Since your sister said she thought you'd move in at 18, it probably wouldn't have happened anytime soon so you could stop focusing on that. Instead, try to stay away from potential sources of bad feelings (your mother and brother?) as much as possible. That is, to the extent you can go without weirding them out, potentially causing them to make trouble for you. Although I don't know much about the situation (strangers on the internet xD), I wouldn't say you're just being a brat. And if you were that close to killing yourself, I wouldn't take your depression lightly.
    Ofc this may not actually help but I'll say it anyway.... you seem to be in a situation where you kinda have to sit it out for a few years until you can leave home and build a happier life for yourself. In that time, having willpower to persist will be extremely important. And for that, you'd need a real reason to live... do you have a goal or something you want to achieve, build or feel in life? I'd suggest finding something that really moves you at your core and holding on to it. And it's ok to doubt it and be unmotivated from time to time, everyone has those phases, just know it'll pass :).
    On another note, physical exercise, sun exposure and socializing can work wonders for a great mood :D.
    I hope you'll continue to live and keep being the wonderful being you are. Every life is beautiful, and I hope you'll be able to fully enjoy and cherish yours :).
    (Omg look at that wall of text I did it again xD oopsie.... have this *gives cookie and hugs* owo)

    キスケ May 20, 2018 11:17 pm

    Thanks you guys for the replies, hugs to you all (ノ_;)ヾ(´ ∀ ` )

キスケ May 4, 2018 7:18 pm

How do you know if you are LGBT? How do you know if you are asexual?

Tell me how you found out.

    A May 4, 2018 7:26 pm

    I am asexual myself
    I am just not excites by thinking of me in a sexual act , not excited at all , and I don't think of it as enjôyable , I don't have romantic feelings as physical but I have platonic feelings as a straight person , I masturbated to yaoi too (a type of asexuality FYI )

    killpeoplewhentheycan'tseeu May 4, 2018 8:54 pm

    I don't get wet while reading all this smut and the idea of sex just disgusts me so asexual here lol

キスケ May 1, 2018 3:55 pm

All my mother and brother have been doing lately is looking up celebrities like Miley Cyrus and and Justin Bieber and guessing whether they are transvestites/gay/lesbian. No, they don't do it for innocent fun, they do it to talk shit about them. My mother hates LGBT because they are "insane because they think they are the other gender" or "trying to fool everyone into thinking they are the opposite gender." She hates gays because "they aren't natural" and they "spread aids." Also because they can't have children, they are "lowering the population".... WE DON'T NEED ANYMORE FUCKING HUMANS ON EARTH WE ALREADY HAVE WHAT, 7 BILLION? LIKE SERIOUSLY WE ARE OVERCROWDING THIS EARTH AND TAKING AWAY ANIMAL'S INHABITANTS JUST TO MAKE ROOM FOR OUR ASSES TO SPREAD POLLUTION AND LIVE IN THIS DAMN SOCIETY. Of course, I have argued with her on many occasions, but I have only made her idiocy worse. Oh, and my brother is such a idiot that he follows all of her views without question. (╯°Д °)╯╧╧

Thanks for reading.

    Hiiammasky12 May 1, 2018 4:07 pm

    Yeah, my mom too thinks that LGBT is too "weird" and she gives off this kind of face when Hellen Keller touched water for the first time. It sucks that some people think they are a disease or a mistake in this world (〜 ̄△ ̄)〜

    Lovely Angel 15 May 1, 2018 4:29 pm

    Imagine this situation with a closet bisexual girl instead. Yeah , that's my situation......

    roronoa robin May 1, 2018 4:42 pm

    I feel you ,my family is like that too ,one day my sister that used to be homophobic as hell (i managed to change her mind lol ) well my sister told my mother (as a joke )that she was gonna become a lesbian and my mother started screaming like a crazy chimpanzee ,telling her that she better never say some shit like that and that homosexuality was something unnatural and shit like that

    Anonymous May 1, 2018 5:13 pm

    My mother thinks being asexual means being homosexual. She's always worried that I have never dated and have no plans of getting married or having kids. She asked me whether she should worry that I'm a homosexual.
    You're not alone.
    We don't need more humans on this planet. By 2030, there will be 20 billion humans alive... And it's at 8 billion today and we're already having so many problems.

    Izumi May 1, 2018 6:10 pm

    I came out to my mom as being gay and trans and she still talked shit, but I correct her every time, and now she knows how to check herself before spewing bullshit

    キスケ May 1, 2018 7:10 pm
    Imagine this situation with a closet bisexual girl instead. Yeah , that's my situation...... Lovely Angel 15

    Ah damn, that's gotta hurt. Just know that even though ur bitchy mom (sorry if that is offensive) is not on ur side, we are *hugs* ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~

    Lovely Angel 15 May 2, 2018 12:39 am
    Ah damn, that's gotta hurt. Just know that even though ur bitchy mom (sorry if that is offensive) is not on ur side, we are *hugs* ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~ キスケ

    Nah, I don't mind. I could guarantee you that you would call her a bitch if you hear what she says about homosexuality
    Thanks!!! *hugs back*

キスケ April 27, 2018 4:38 pm

The uke is really beautiful and I think the seme was attracted and confessed to him on the rooftop where the uke said no.

Later seme walks in on the uke about to get raped in the school warehouse I think.

That's all I can remember sorry ╥﹏╥

    heavs April 27, 2018 4:45 pm
    http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kore_wa_koi_ni_fukumare_masu_ka/ ? heavs

    Oh sorry I don't think this is the one you wanted after I read again your description ( T﹏T )

    キスケ April 27, 2018 4:58 pm
    Oh sorry I don't think this is the one you wanted after I read again your description ( T﹏T ) heavs

    wait, that's it!!! THANK YOU It's been on my mind for a while (⌒▽⌒)

    being-you April 27, 2018 4:59 pm

    was it by Nishida Higashi because she has something very similar but it was not warehouse but old broken sports club

    Anonymous April 27, 2018 6:14 pm
    was it by Nishida Higashi because she has something very similar but it was not warehouse but old broken sports club being-you

    What is the manga from Nishida Higashi called the one you're talking about

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