I'm far too familiar with that kind of loneliness. The kind that makes you want to cling to the first person who so much as looks your way, just to feel a little bit of affection, to feel wanted, even if only for a moment. I feel for Garam so deeply. That panel of him feeling the absence of love in his very own skin is so painfully palpable, so devastatingly human. I've been there more times than I'd like to admit, and seeing that kind of loneliness portrayed so intimately just hurts.
What makes it even more heartbreaking is knowing that Garam won't end up with Youngjo. We already know Hejae is endgame, but that doesn't make what's happening any less painful. Youngjo is going to get hurt, and honestly, no one deserves to be nothing more than a stepping stone on someone else's journey to love. He deserves to be someone's choice, not just someone who happened to be there when they needed to feel less alone.
And yet, I can't bring myself to blame Garam, either. How could I, when I understand him so painfully well? I know what it's like to be so starved for affection that even the smallest gesture of tenderness feels like something worth holding on to, even when you know, deep down, that it might not be enough.
You don't understand, this is like a drug. I've never bought chapters before, now I do. I've never been actively refreshing a page for updates, now I do. I've never followed authors on Twitter for sneak peeks, now I do. Every update makes my heart jump of nervousness and excitement. I can't let this gem marinate, I completely lack of self control when it comes to this story.
They will duet. Hejaee will feel all of Garam’s rage and resentment, and he will try to win Garam back through his music, opening himself up to him. But for the first time, Garam will overwhelm him, exposing all of his feelings, his love, but also his pain. Distraught, Hejaee will seek Garam out after the concert to talk to him, but Garam will ask him for some time apart before leaving. The chapter will end with Hejaee standing in the middle of a room he has completely destroyed, with the figure of the manager looming over him once again.
He was my favorite. This shit was like seeing an ex and realizing you still have feelings for them. I need Taekyung to get a side story, I wanna see him thrive
Honestly, I NEED for the storyline of the manager to come back, especially if Heejae and Garam are gonna fight (which is obviously coming) because I felt like it was left inconclusive and didn't have a proper end.
This is overall a good story, the ml is not perfect and deeply traumatized character. Both of them were not a couple when the "cheating" happened, they awere only in it for the show, and the ml did not define his feelings for the mc yet. So if that is not your cup of tea, then drop the story and leave. But start hating of this story like that just shows you are a little sad individual with no life.
I can't live without them, I can't wait this lonoooongggg ahh. This manhwa is the only reason I haven't kms
Idc about y'all but his Majesty is so hooooooot. Mand I love that old pervert, he's a total eye candy.
One more chapter and we'll be up to date, I'm seriously addicted to this, I don't know how I will survive the whole week for a chapter. Like I already follow the artist om X for crumbs of my boys
Heejae was born for music to such an extent that he no longer sees people as human beings. Other musicians are just background music to him, while his students are Gems that he has to polish until they shine, even if that means subjecting them to physical and verbal abuse. The cruelty in him is so deeply internalized that he doesn’t even recognize his actions as cruel; he sees them as necessary evils, something he has to do to polish his Gems and make them shine. He doesn’t care about his students’ mental or physical well-being, and that has had horrible consequences for them, even creating a chain of abuse that eventually affected Compton.
However, after falling in love with Garam, Heejae finally experiences what it means to genuinely care for and love another person. He is so deeply in love with Garam that, for the first time, he actually sees another person as a human being. Garam becomes his anchor to his own humanity. Because of him, Heejae is finally able to recognize the things that hurt Garam for what they truly are: abuse. Things that he probably would have excused in the past as being "for the sake of music" are suddenly impossible for him to dismiss when he sees them happening to Garam.
And that’s what makes it so heartbreaking that he only now notices the scar he gave Garam. Heejae still doesn’t understand that he abused Garam; he remains completely oblivious to his own actions. What he does recognize is the mistreatment Compton inflicts on Garam, which is painfully similar to the abuse he himself subjected Garam to. The difference is that Heejae can see it when it comes from someone else, but not when it comes from him. It is deeply hypocritical, but I don’t think he is being hypocritical deliberately. He is genuinely unaware of the contradiction because, in his mind, what he did to Garam was never abuse to begin with, it was him helping his student to find "his sound". His obliviousness is going to hurt Garam in the future, though, because this boy desperately needs reassurance. And Garam loves him too much, which makes the whole situation even sadder.
Ack to long