I can't live without them, I can't wait this lonoooongggg ahh. This manhwa is the only reason I haven't kms
Idc about y'all but his Majesty is so hooooooot. Mand I love that old pervert, he's a total eye candy.
One more chapter and we'll be up to date, I'm seriously addicted to this, I don't know how I will survive the whole week for a chapter. Like I already follow the artist om X for crumbs of my boys
Heejae was born for music to such an extent that he no longer sees people as human beings. Other musicians are just background music to him, while his students are Gems that he has to polish until they shine, even if that means subjecting them to physical and verbal abuse. The cruelty in him is so deeply internalized that he doesn’t even recognize his actions as cruel; he sees them as necessary evils, something he has to do to polish his Gems and make them shine. He doesn’t care about his students’ mental or physical well-being, and that has had horrible consequences for them, even creating a chain of abuse that eventually affected Compton.
However, after falling in love with Garam, Heejae finally experiences what it means to genuinely care for and love another person. He is so deeply in love with Garam that, for the first time, he actually sees another person as a human being. Garam becomes his anchor to his own humanity. Because of him, Heejae is finally able to recognize the things that hurt Garam for what they truly are: abuse. Things that he probably would have excused in the past as being "for the sake of music" are suddenly impossible for him to dismiss when he sees them happening to Garam.
And that’s what makes it so heartbreaking that he only now notices the scar he gave Garam. Heejae still doesn’t understand that he abused Garam; he remains completely oblivious to his own actions. What he does recognize is the mistreatment Compton inflicts on Garam, which is painfully similar to the abuse he himself subjected Garam to. The difference is that Heejae can see it when it comes from someone else, but not when it comes from him. It is deeply hypocritical, but I don’t think he is being hypocritical deliberately. He is genuinely unaware of the contradiction because, in his mind, what he did to Garam was never abuse to begin with, it was him helping his student to find "his sound". His obliviousness is going to hurt Garam in the future, though, because this boy desperately needs reassurance. And Garam loves him too much, which makes the whole situation even sadder.
Ack to long
HEJAEE YOU DO THE SAME! HOW DAAAARE YOU TO CRITISIZE COMPTON FOR DOING THE SAME THING YOU DID TO HIM, GARAM, WALTER AND THE OTHER GIRL. Ugh, I'm so mad. What Compton literally did is literally the chain of a abuse in which Heejae is the root. And yeah sure, Compton is wrong, but don't you DARE act all high and mighty about it, that absolutely pisses me off. And Garam, oh you poor soul, you've been so brainwashed by Heejae's way of teaching, and his heart is so set up in loving him and all aspects of him that he excuses this abusive behavior "for the sake of music". And that makes me so sad.
Compton you hot mess, I love you so much, you annoying bitch, you hater (justified), you handsome fuck I need you so bad.
Like tbh, damn, I need that asshole, like you don't know how much I need him, like ugh he's such a bitch, I can accept him how he is, like ugh he looks so hot drunk LIKE I NEED HIM
"Teacher, why aren't you here?" I'M SOBBING. Yes, he hates the teacher, but at the same time, he desperately yearns for his recognition. He wants his approval so badly, and it kills him that no matter what he does, he will never be enough. That genuinely pains me.
And the fact that he is truly alone makes me want to cry. He thought he could find his equal in Garam, someone who shared his hatred, someone who understood his passion for music, but he only managed to scare him away. He's such a lonely soul, and that hurts so much.
He wants perfection and demands it from everyone around him. He sees the orchestra members as his sheep and himself as their shepherd; he doesn't see them as equals (unlike how he sees Garam). He sees them as tools to bring his vision of music to life, all in pursuit of the approval of another man. He can't escape the professor's influence over his music, but honestly, I don't think he wants to.
I really want him to find someone who can be his equal, his comrade, like Walter. Someone he can truly connect with. But we know he's far too closed off for that, and somehow, that makes his loneliness hurt even more.
Everyday we have a goooood meal, but today we are having a feast! Thank you Sage, as always
Now I got this uncertainty until next week, like omfg PLEASE DON'T BE DEAD
When the new director said "men only hurt" or whatevs I was like, yes girl, you go!
Like, this is a pornwha but like, damn that society looks kinda okay-ish? It's so dumb pffff
