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interesting how dohun is so expressive (compared to his usual) and openly mocks his brother right in front of him. dohun clearly doesn't respect him but still listens to his brother abt the sex thing. is he just that easily influenced? I wonder if it's bc he doesn't know anything that he just accepts it all without question? or if maybe he likes the ideas he hears from his family

anyway we need to find a way to end his family. the fact they still have a hold on him all the way to adulthood should be impossible. bro u need to kill them

wait I just saw someone in kr twt point out that the eng translation isn't even trying to translate the title cards

for those who don't know there are some really clever panels in unchanged man where the title shows up somewhere in the background and it's really clever and beautiful
some examples here: https://x.com/yuwoncore/status/2034905171394969735?s=20

man season 3 will end soon if the official tl is finally here. s2 also only had around 20 chapters so I wonder if jakpil will make this season longer than that or not hmm

also really breaks my heart to see lil dohun reaching out to his mom like that ;-; (ch70 and 61)

"there was no reason to dodge, so I simply took the hits" and then he's letting himself get beaten again bc now there IS a reason to? bro.

I've said this somewhere before but there's this line in s3 "every bone in my body vibrated with the beats of my heart, and the corner of my lips, as if caught by a chain, remained lifted, beyond my control" that is said when dohun meets yuwon for the very first time and gets repeated in different ways but lacking something

"but for some reason even though my bones shook, the corners of my lips didnt lift" in their highschool introduction, and "the corners of my lips, which hadn't moved, lifted" when yuwon protected him and "my heartbeat pounded as if my bones were about to break" during the warehouse thing.

dohun is slowly getting to see the parts of yuwon he loves and seeing his unchanging nature helps him cling to the only version of yuwon he knows. but the fact he thinks yuwon genuinely doesn't like him is what keeps him from being truly happy like he was as a child

after yuwon affirms their bond, his belief on their destiny never wavers again. I think that's part of why he gets so angry/upset when yuwon dares to challenge that belief when they're adults. to dohun, he already got the confirmation he needed but yuwon challenging this again goes against their destiny. this time dohun has absolute certainty that yuwon does love him and refuses to doubt it, unlike in highschool when he was willing to die to let yuwon be happy without him. one thing I think remained the same tho is that dohun absolutely does want yuwon to just say what will make him happy, or else he will take matters into his own hands, but even in adulthood yuwon refuses to let dohun be responsible for that bc he is afraid of vulnerability and of dohun (and also u don't exactly form healthy rships by assuming all responsibility for ur lovers happiness lol)

this is one of my favorite chapters of the season holy peak

the way dohun considers for a brief moment that yuwon might actually hate him and just completely loses all meaning in life makes me so miserable. for him, yuwon is all he has, if yuwon actually doesn't need him then in a way he's rejecting all of dohun existence so far. this demonstrates most clearly how he clings to their destiny and needs yuwon to depend on him to be truly be able to cope with his own miserable life. because if his destiny is not meant to be happiness together with yuwon then what does he have?

and yuwon unintentionally reaffirming this shared unchangeable destiny is incredible. they're so doomed it's amazing

the "tit for tat" translation is so unserious I keep giggling

still a extremely good scene tho. it is more clear that yuwon himself said it with all the words possible what he wanted. too bad he was genuinely disassociating and dohun didn't notice lol dohun has no sense how to act when yuwon is very distressed and dissociating (those who read ch 74 know...). never let bro comfort anyone ever.

also dohun writing yuwon's name backwards is such a good detail!! I didnt even notice if it was actually backwards in the raws but either way I liked it

I was rereading and I just noticed the only other time dohun gives that lopsided smile that he did when he reunited with yuwon is when he's being choked out (ch 32)

it makes me think that he might only smile like that when he feels like yuwon is demonstrating a need for him. or he sees yuwon unchanging self

when he first saw yuwon being harassed, he saw it as a yuwon remaining someone who he can protect, being the type who ends up in unfortunate situations bc of his genuine kindness, and therefore needs him. and when yuwon chokes him, dohun can feel useful by relieving yuwons stress (not that it's very successful) and enable yuwons old guilt complex

might be wrong but that smile intrigued me so I'm just throwing out what might be the reason

Dohuns mom mental illness made her incapable of really loving dohun, of giving him genuine secure affection. it seemed like she was devastated to give him away, but her unstable mental health made that she could never be happy even with him around. because of her Dohun felt like a burden. he wanted to relieve her sadness, even if all her anger was directed at him, it would make him feel like he could do something for her. Her neglectful abuse, hot and cold attitude made dohun unable to properly develop his emotional capacities, but still want to take away her pain, like every child wants to support their parent. I also think that's part of why he never tried to run away from his father's home, it was his mom who brought him there.

So when yuwon blames dohun it's also way for dohun to take all the pain he couldn't take from his mother. it's almost as if he can make it up to her after she abandoned him. After years of abuse and isolation he's numb to all things, he believes that this is what he's meant to do. This is why he suffered. To relieve his loved one's pain.

when I see it like this I can understand why he clings so hard to "destiny". he is enchanted by the idea that everyone has a fate, and his fate is to his love. someone who he will be able to love and be loved back. he is able to endure all these things because he believes in that idea. it's his way of coping.

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