Mok seems to have anxious attachement disorder or even BPD, and Nanjo seems to have inverted narcissism (derives his self worth from being needed). They seem to have the perfect set of mental issues to feed on eachothers issues. Tragicly this could work and both could think they are happy, Mok never being left and Nanjo knowing that Mok can't survive if he leaves. But, if Mok ever gets therapy and starts to get better, you would see actual intensely toxic Nanjo, because he would sabatage Mok's recovery to keep him dependent. He woudld be more toxic than Mok was at his worst. They will never actualy be 'in love' they are co dependent. When Nanjo says he has a savior complex, that's true, and Mok is the ultimate fix for him a person who literally lives only if he stays. I bet they show a back story for Nanjo where he was 'taught' people only care if you are useful to them.
Is it past the point with the big reveal yet? I'm waiting for that to happen before I start reading so I can power through that part. It bout killed me in the novel.
In some relationships it's allowed to start while the other person is asleep. He didn't intend to fuck him he said he was only going to rub againts him but since he woke up he put it in. In my realationship, starting while I'm asleep is okay but it's a thing we prenegotiated very early in the relationship and it's under specific conditions. Basically if I go to sleep naked or in a night shirt or gown with no undies, it's okay. He's also allowed to adjust my PJs and use the visuals to get himself off, and can even get off on my body (but that usually wakes me up since it makes me cold).
yes in IRL do get consent first from your partner(s) before. as long as you consent to it first its totally fine, this kinda leaned closer to red flag for sure but at least he waited until he woke up
The sex when MC is in heat is crazy intense, makes scenes like this look like forplay. At least in the novel.
can u tell me what chap in the novel that is.. asking for a friend..
What chapter?!?!
I wanna know toooo
spoiler
his heat starts in chapter 127 of the novel
Starts at chapter 117, we get some hot solo action from Jihon then Jaekyung gets home and it gets crazy.
I've read the novel and those of you who seem confused I can tell you what you want to know. Just ask.
Pls kindly spoil us
At this point yes please, I was understanding most of it. But now again im a little lost,MC confessed an ML acted pike he didn’t believe him, but now he says yes its me? Is he faking now or before?an if it was before, why?
Please tell ussss we're lost
Okay so here are spoilers. Note: FL in this means First Love (I know it usualy means female lead but there isn't one in thsi story.)
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So ML, his sister, her best friend, all of his childhood friends, and the first love were in a mall that collasped. They all died. First love tried to save him, but it didn't save him it only kept him from being killed instantly. So while everyone else died, he didn't. That's why he's sick now, he is in this world but also in the 'real' world slowly dieing while looking at his first love.Time moves differently between the worlds and while years are passing in the book world, in the 'real' wold he is still alive though fataly injured and it's only been maybe hours, he actually does get better, but that means he died in the 'real' world. When ever he tries to think about the real world that's when he has the bleeding and stuff because that is what is happening to him in the 'real' world. When he paniced because ML was bleeding while he was out of it is because first love bleed to death in front of him. He ditched the first love after first love's confession, honestly don't remember why, and meeting at the mall was where he was planning to apoligize and try to start over. First love was kind of mean to him when they met again but before the mall and that's why siser wrote him as an asshole in the story. Her explination on writting her brother as abused and then killing himself is kind of yuck. It was to warn him to not to try to get together with first love. So brother is his sister in this world, sisters best friend is same, all of his frinds from childhood are his friends, and ML is his first love. The main characters are OC and not anyone from their real lives. So basically because he's not dead in the 'real' world, he's not fully in this one. Some people do remember, his sister and her friend, one of his childhood friends (the one who avoids them), and now ML has the memories back, some of them anyway. But the memories don't change everything, ML still is the same person with his memories of this world and the newer memories of the 'real' world on top. After ML gets lost in the mountains where he got hit on the head he has forgotten this world and has back some memories of the 'real' world. That panic he's having at the end of this chapter is because he was back to his 'real' world self for a bit. Everyone else is already dead, he is the only one who is alone and dying. By trying to save him FL/ML just prolonged his pain, since they aren't the book characters ML still would have fallen in love with MC and not have gone after the real main character from the book. So what is going to happen now is that ML is going to help him sort out what has been happening (no one else remembers the actual accident even if they remember the past life) and confront people who could have helped him but they just let everyone think he was crazy and it left him even more isolated. With his real body dead and everything sorted he doesn't need to drink to cover the pain, he also is no longer depressed and sick. Then they live happiliy every after. They have a 'honeymoon' in one of those hotels with the under water bedrooms.
You are a Goddess, thank you so much gosh , I am more hooked now(づ￣ ³￣)づ
Something you don't really see in this or other stories like this. Rape you coercion is still rape. "I gave him a choice", yeah okay his choice continue to work himself to death or let you do what you did. That's not a real choice. And it's not like he wanted Axel to enjoy it in the beginning or anything, he wanted to punish him by humiliating him.
For real, and he said it himself, giving axel a "option" knowing damn well he can't refuse is him taking advantage of the situation, no matter how we look at it axel is the victim
Is this past the part where we find out the truth about Dohyun meting him now? I don't want to deal with all that misunderstanding mess.
Already waaaay past that. We’re in the lovey dovey stage now after everything came to light.
U mean the one where dohyun's secret will come out?? If yes, then no we are not at that part yet. It will I think take some ch to reach that part.
Oh man there’s more angst???
Thanks, I'll let it cook a bit more then. I had a hard enough time with it when I read the novel.
Yeah and I cried reading that part in the novel.
Same. （￣へ￣）
could you.. perhaps.. give a spoiler?
Spoiler ( I will try to tell the things I remember)
Yeon's mother is a very influential person in the country and is always in the news, but nobody knew that Yeon was her son.
Basically, Dohyun approached Yeon because of Yeon's mother at the start, four years ago. This was because Dohyun was an orphan, and the family that adopted him had something to do with Yeon's mother. The phone calls Dohyun received were from Yeon's mother. She had appointed him to get reports about Yeon.
Yeon had been controlled by his mother since childhood, and he hated that people only approached him because his mother had sent them. Even his friend from America, Daniel, who appeared in the story, became close to him because of his mother. Because of this, Yeon hated the fact that the people closest to him were never truly his people.
When the truth came out, Yeon was completely broken. He believed Dohyun had stayed by his side not because of love, but because of his mother. However, Dohyun had genuinely fallen in love with Yeon. He was just terrified that Yeon would abandon him after learning the truth. You can already see the signs in the current chapters, where Dohyun keeps trying to show Yeon, through both his actions and words, how important he is to him.
Although Dohyun first approached Yeon because of his mother four years earlier, when they met again at university, he approached him because he had already started developing feelings for him. That's why he was hesitant to like Yeon in uni at the start because he thought if Yeon came to know the truth Yeon is the one who will be hurt the most in this case.
Later, when Yeon was about to be in danger ( because the truth of him being suhyang ( yeon's mother) son came out) , Dohyun went to Yeon's mother and told her that he would take Yeon to his house. He admitted that he likes Yeon and that he planned to tell him the whole truth about the past himself. He specifically asked her not to interfere because he wanted to confess everything personally
However, Yeon's mother twisted the situation because she wanted to keep controlling Yeon. As a result, Yeon found out the truth before Dohyun could tell him. Heartbroken, he broke up with Dohyun, crying and asking, "Why did you do this to me?" Dohyun desperately begged him to listen, but Yeon walked away.
The day they broke up Yeon cried so much and dohyun just grabbed his wrist begging him not to leave / abandon him.
And when they will get together that day dohyun will cry and Yeon will hold him.
Yeah, I'm just waiting to get past that to the actual happy stuff before I start reading again. I want to be able to power through it in a day and move on to the good stuff. But I can't just read up to that point either because I'm tense knowing it will happen.
Thank you so much for indulging me and for the time spent in writing this!!! Okay that saved me from a lot of heartbreak. I’ll also put this on hold first and wait until it’s past this point of the story.
Ah my pleasure <3
Yeah... it's better to wait than to be left on a cliffhanger every week.
I wonder if we will get the other baby, Cecil, in the main story or it that happens in the side stories. Though I do think the ages are a little off. I thought that Cecil was older than Spencer (Keith and Yeonwoo's for Kiss me Liar's son), but I guess that's not possible with the progression of this story. I'd like to know what the sub genders of the kids are and if Pete 'gets' Spencer, I don't like Cecil, he's too much like the rest of the fucked up Miller family. Thank goodness that Spencer is insulated from the Miller crazy because of who his father is, they can't really do much to pressure him, though he is such a mild and caring child they might be able to manipulate him easily. His omega dad is the same way. If the alphas are born with the purple eyes then none of them are alphas because Pete has green eyes like his dad and both Spenser and Cecil have blue eyes. I think it would be funny if Spencer was an alpha and really fills out as he gets older. Then one off the boys could be an alpha and the other could be an omega going after Spencer. I like the thought that Pete is a more 'buff' omega like his dad and Cecil is a fucked up alpha like Millers usually are and that he is going against the norm by pursuing and alpha. It would work I think since Cecil looks as big a Pete in the side stories. The reason Spencer could be smaller would be due to the difficulties during the pregnancy but he sprouts and fills out later. And proof that Cecil is weird is that Spencer thinks Cecil is a girl, but at one point says "She showed me her weenier." I think it would be a good story anyway.
"I will continue to look at you like you're a monster. I will never try to like you. Everything you do and say just proves that you are a monster. The only thing you can do from here on out is make me hate you more. Even if you won't let me kill myself, I still want to die just being around you. You are keeping my body, but you will never have my heart. So either give up and let me go if you're looking for love from me because you won't get it. Or kill me if you can't let me go because I may as well be dead."
Then he needs to not react positively to the mans actions. Control his voice, be even more withdrawn after and point out the physiological reactions are not proof of enjoyment. You can hate what's happening to you and still come. It's one of the most insidious things about sexual assault and sexual abuse and it intensifies the shame cycle of victims.
Ibeum reall got the fem boy vibe going especially when he wears the long socks. I'm surprised he hasn't got more guy panting after him. I think the brother is actually interested, he noticed Ibeum before he knew that he was sent by his brother. I think he was feeling it out to see if it was serious so he could get a piece of that. I don't think its aobut wanting to date Ibeum or steal him away from his brothers, I think he's genuinely attracted and wants to get him in bed, just like his brother did. But I think that if he gets a taste he will be just as hooked at his brother. I'll be honest, I think he will actually be more ready to admit it if he gets feelings. He seems like the kind of person who won't be in denile and will be all in if he gets feelings.