Honestly, the cover was not my style of story. I really just came for the tits. Can't believe this fuckass story with that cover got me tearing up though, shit. There were meaningful messages in this story. Getting over past romance trauma, loving oneself, allowing oneself to be loved, practicing patience and forgiveness, personal growth and gaining trust, all the good stuff.
It's like I wanted to turn my brain off and just enjoy some titty but got my brain tickled instead by actual substance.
Second story side couple especially. Idk, it was typical friends to lovers trope with a hint of chase and regret but you know what, the way it was executed was good and it hits every time, I'll eat that shit up. I especially loved Seojoon's outburst when he threw the plants.
No one seems to be bothered by the fact that's a grown man crushing on a high schooler....? like, that's crazy. Granted I think the bottom was at least 18 in senior year of high school, but damn, the top participating in barely legal activity is nasty. Who the hell in their adult age sees a high school senior and thinks, ooooooooh I want to clap those cheeks baaaaaad, I need to make him mine... ick.
He’s lwky a red flag tho…considering how manipulative he is. Anyway, I dropped it I thought I could ignore the thing abt ML liking MC since he was a child, but it kept getting brought up bruh
The whole thing abt him saying if he knew they were connected to the red string, he wouldn’t have bothered staying away from him…as in he’d PERSUE A CHILD or GROOM him yo
You know what....
I thought I'd dislike this more because everyone says this is bad and toxic but ..... They're both kind of crazy for each other and I'm not mad about it? This is a mafia story so I'll shut my mouth about the rape and violence that occured. It's within expectation ig. Granted the way it happened was truly disturbing and I was very taken aback, but at the same time, I was intrigued by the insanity of it. A car crash you cannot look away from.
Ceaser is shamelessly crazy and Leewon is self aware he's crazy for still having affection for Ceaser despite that. I think their battle royal game in the side story perfectly encapsulates that. A relationship based on calculated chasing and being chased, unable to let go or desire to truly escape, still wanting each other at the worst times. The relationship itself is beyond normal logic but it's a dynamic that works for me.
This story was surprisingly more plot driven than I expected, in a good way. If it had all been smut and sex from beginning to end, I'd probably dropped. There's a lot of push and pull moments that I enjoyed because it built character and added dimension to the story and relationship.
Overall, I enjoyed this. I won't recommend this for people who want sweet healthy relationships but if you're looking for unhealthy obsessive codependent relationship then please read this!
The loop narration is kind of confusing. In this current loop mc and ml are super friendly with each other and always blushing etc etc, so I'm confused how he got rejected the previous loops? Does this imply they never talk at all in those previous loops? MC was just a stalker and confessed due to one-sided feelings? Buddy, no wonder you kept getting rejected....Lol. There's no way he gets rejected in this current loop tho. And it's not because he's vowed to not like the ML anymore (this seems to be the supposed reason why the loop changed, because he declared he won't like the ML anymore but), it's literally because he's actually putting in effort to build a relationship before confessing ( ̄∇ ̄")










Missed opportunity to have them communicate on ch.69 ( ̄ε(# ̄)Σ