not die, but cease from existence. sometimes i wish i was never born in the first place, or how i wish i could just vanish and be wiped from everybodies memory.
i also think about how easy life could be if i didnt have to actually participate in it, and if only i could watch life like a TV show instead of being forced to be the cast
woah i need ......
*This is tagged as an experience incase i want to delete later*
Is it still considered recovery if I still think about it, fantasize about it, and keep objects around to do it ''just incase''
BUT
im not doing it, dont have the drive to do it, and dont find as much satisfaction from doing it as i did before?
honestly it's probably been like a fe......
hi guys what do i go to college for genuinely i have no passion in life i just want a degree that opens a good job market and pays well and is also preferably only 4 years bc i have a scholarship willing to pay up to that amnt also kind of off topic rant but when i was like 12 i was going through shit and SH'd and got diagnosed with ptsd and shit ......
Give good yuri pls. :3 specifically something psychological, similar to Red Mansion but wlw lol
