I've been looking for this manhwa for years, it's an idol genre, the mc is in a boy group but he is kinda hated by fans, he has red hair when idol and black hair when he turn to his private self, basically hiding his idol career cuz he don't want his mom to know he's an idol.
And idk if this is also in the same manhwa but he is also misunderstood by his members, they thought he hated them but he is actually protecting them behind the scenes cuz some higher ups blackmailed him that if he won't do what they want, his group will disband or something like that, not sure though i forgot already
I've been looking for it but can't find itt help this poor reader will ya?

I Need some gut wrenching BL angst that hurts than heartbreak cuz my heart is getting numb it needs some painn to feel somethingg
'Perle' is what you looking forr the way its break your hearts into pieces broo
Also the world without you also good onee
Lol i found it from another comment and im currently reading ittt
Notedd, thank uu
I haven't read much but I've read two that made me cry
- 10 years where I loved you most
- Haruka tooki ie
I've read 10 years where i loved you the most, I'll reread it for the sake of angstt