And do people really think Tetsu raping Yuta is some shocking new experience for him? He's been suffering abuse from that asshole for an entire decade while Seunghyun was out there living his life after forgetting all about him.
Now Seunghyun feels hurt because he sees Yuta with Tetsu? Sorry, but that's hard for me to sympathize with.
If Seunghyun were Dooshik, I'd understand being upset that Yuta didn't trust him. But unlike Dooshik, Seunghyun actually left. He abandoned Yuta for ten years. If I were in Yuta's position, I wouldn't believe that Seunghyun would choose me over the people he's loved and protected his whole life either.
“Now Seunghyun feels hurt because he sees Yuta with Tetsu?”
That’s clearly not what’s happening. Seunghyun is shocked because he literally just saw Yuta frozen on the ground with his clothes pulled down. I can guarantee you his first thought wasn’t, “Yuta chose Tetsu over me.”
It’s not like they got back together immediately after seeing each other again for the first time in ten years. And even now, they’re not really together. They’ve talked, Seunghyun has apologized a thousand times for something that happened in the past, but the life Yuta ended up living is not entirely his fault. Did he influence it? Absolutely, and in a major way. But he’s not responsible for everything that happened to Yuta.
After three chapters of them talking about their feelings, fears, and love for each other, it’s completely normal for Yuta not to trust him 100% yet. Seunghyun knows that, and now that he finally has the chance, he’s going to fight and do everything he can to prove that he genuinely wants to be with him.
So don’t sympathize with him if you don’t want to, but there’s no need to turn Seunghyun into some kind of villain either.
And that's my point. I'm not saying Seunghyun was hurt because of jealousy or because Yuta "chose" Tetsu over him. He was hurt because Yuta was suffering.
But honestly, it's difficult for me to sympathize with him. Yuta spent a decade being abused by that asshole while Seunghyun was gone. If Seunghyun had checked on Yuta even once during those ten years, maybe things would have been different.
I'm not calling Seunghyun a villain. I don't think he's evil. What frustrates me is how the story is trying to position him as Yuta's savior now, when so much damage has already been done.
That's why I don't really want them to end up together anymore. I think they both deserve a fresh start with people who aren't connected to years of trauma and heartbreak.
Maybe that's an unpopular opinion, but I feel like no matter what happens, Yuta will never forget being abandoned, and Seunghyun will never forget that he was the one who left. The past will always be standing between them.
And that's my point. I'm not saying Seunghyun was hurt because of jealousy or because Yuta "chose" Tetsu over him. He was hurt because Yuta was suffering.
But honestly, it's difficult for me to sympathize with him. Yuta spent a decade being abused by that asshole while Seunghyun was gone. If Seunghyun had checked on Yuta even once during those ten years, maybe things would have been different.
I'm not calling Seunghyun a villain. I don't think he's evil. What frustrates me is how the story is trying to position him as Yuta's savior now, when so much damage has already been done.
That's why I don't really want them to end up together anymore. I think they both deserve a fresh start with people who aren't connected to years of trauma and heartbreak.
Maybe that's an unpopular opinion, but I feel like no matter what happens, Yuta will never forget being abandoned, and Seunghyun will never forget that he was the one who left. The past will always be standing between them
I understand your point, but I think I’ve moved past that perspective. Yes, they made a promise ten years ago, and because of circumstances, manipulation, and pride, Seunghyun broke it. And yes, the worst part is that he went on with his life and forgot about Yuta. Fair enough, I get that.
But at the same time, the person who truly made Yuta’s life a living hell was Tetsu. Because realistically, if Seunghyun had tried to go back for Yuta, the Kujo family would have killed him. As for the whole “if Seunghyun had remembered him” or “if he had helped Yuta” argument… those are all hypotheticals we’ll never know the answer to. And I genuinely understand where you’re coming from, but I also understand the kind of development the author wants them to have.
And the thing is, Seunghyun is Yuta’s savior. He always has been. The difference is that Yuta is an incredibly strong character, and the only reason he’s managed to keep going all these years is because of the hatred he carried toward Seunghyun. That’s why I keep saying that Yuta hasn’t made things easy for him, and he isn’t going to make them easy now either. Their story is a tragedy, and that’s what makes it so compelling.
That said, I completely respect your opinion. Personally, I do want them to end up together, because that’s what Yuta has always wanted. And in the end, Yuta is the one who deserves happiness the most. But as I’ve said before, everyone is free to interpret the story however they want.
I don't like where this story is heading either, but blaming Yuta for not trusting Seunghyun enough feels unfair.
It's been ten fucking years. Seunghyun left him behind for an entire decade, and now they've only been back in each other's lives for about a month. Why would Yuta suddenly believe that Seunghyun would choose him over the people he's spent his whole life protecting—Jaeil and his sisters?
Deep down, Yuta already knows who Seunghyun would choose if it ever came down to it, and it wouldn't be him. So why wait for that moment to arrive? Why not end everything now while he can still protect Seunghyun and spare himself the pain of being abandoned and not chosen all over again, just like he was ten years ago?
I'm more like blaming the author for this dragged nonsense at this point
I know I’m going against the majority here, but I seriously hope Yuta doesn’t forgive him that easily. Why can’t he just stay the red flag he’s supposed to be? At least then I wouldn’t have to feel bad for him. I hate when the uke turns into some angel who forgives the seme for all the abuse, abandonment, and betrayal just because the seme suddenly feels regret. There are already so many stories like that, and I’m tired of it. And let’s be real he’s only paying attention to Yuta now because he’s alone and got dumped.
He left Yuta behind and completely forgot about him when he still had his hyung back then. He didn’t even care that Yuta was still being used, abused, raped and he chose to believe a lie and used that lie as an excuse to live guilt-free, even though deep down he knew he could’ve at least checked.
I feel like Yuta is so unpredictable that just bc he loves SH now doesn’t mean he trusts him and we have no idea what he’s gonna do to SH (what kind of tests) until he finally feels ready to trust him. I do like their relationship dynamic but I am a Yuta supporter thru and thru so however badly he treats SH is # deserved
If the author is determined to make them end up together, then she seriously needs to make Seunghyun suffer through a proper regret arc. Abandoning and forgetting Yuta for an entire decade isn't something that should be brushed aside with a few apologies and emotional scenes
Even now, I don't see much evidence that Seunghyun has truly chosen Yuta. Most of his actions come across as guilt-driven rather than love-driven. It feels like he wants Yuta to survive because he couldn't live with the guilt if Yuta died, not because he's reached the point where he genuinely can't imagine a future without him.
I feel relieved and frustrated at the same time. I’m glad Yuta survived, but I’m so pissed that Seunghyun is suddenly playing the “hero saving the beauty.” Where was he ten years ago when Yuta needed him the most? Back when Yuta was still the real Yuta? This isn’t salvation—it’s too late for that. I honestly hope Yuta beats his ass again like in that one chapter.
He has no right to act like Yuta’s life is such a waste when he himself could’ve gotten him out of that miserable situation ten years ago. But he didn’t. He chose to believe whatever was convenient for him because he was cowardly and selfish. And now he wants to act like the good guy? Thinking he can give Yuta a “better life”? Please. Better life my ass.
And if you noticed… Yuta’s eyesight is getting worse. It’s probably from the bullet damage, since the secretary said 1–2 months ago that Yuta only had 6–12 months left without surgery. So yeah, his body is starting to deteriorate again. Let me guess— the author is going to torture her uke again just so the seme can “redeem himself” by caring for a dying or weakened patient. Yuta will probably go blind or fall into a coma or something dramatic like that. It’s hard not to think the author is using Yuta’s pain as a tool for Seunghyun’s character development.
I swear I hate this author so much. All she ever does is torture her bottom. Even the top’s redemption arc is built from the bottom’s suffering. I’m already invested in Yuta and can’t stop reading, but if I could go back in time, I wouldn’t have started this at all. What kind of author hates her character this much and always gives him the worst?
You have no idea how badly I don’t want them to be together. I’d rather accept Yuta’s death than see him end up with Seunghyun. Let Seunghyun rot single forever. Yuta deserves to reincarnate and find a love that actually treats him right and love him wholeheartedly.
THIS!!! U R SO TRUEE!!! dw n the author plan to make yuta died btw so ye
Why would Yuta have to end up with someone who chose to leave him behind and completely forgot about him for an entire decade? If he hadn’t approached him first, Yuta would’ve died alone anyway… If you want to pair Seunghyun with someone just because he was heartbroken over his boss (I don’t even know whether that was a platonic or romantic crush but idc), then why not pair him with someone new? Someone he hasn’t met before? If he’s that stubborn, then just let him stay single for the rest of his life.
And Yuta also needs someone who isn’t tied to his past, someone who can help him heal all those wounds. He deserves someone better than Seunghyun. I’m starting to hate the author now, she just loves torturing her uke. At least those other two, Jooha and Daekwang, still have semes who never left them and always came to save them. But what about Yuta? Does she hate him so much that she has to pair him with Seunghyun?
Honestly, just let his old boss divorce his wife or make Seunghyun his mistress, then give Yuta a new, younger puppy seme who’ll cherish and love him properly. Don’t make an uke who has already suffered his whole life end up with someone who only ever saw him as a second choice. Sorry if this comes off as offensive... I just needed to vent a little lol
Sometimes I really wish I could hate Yuta, just so I wouldn’t hurt every time he suffers. This story almost feels like it was written for people who enjoy seeing him in pain but I’m the exact opposite, and now it’s affecting me way too much
It’s so heartbreaking because it genuinely feels like there’s no good ending for him. If he dies, it’s tragic. If he ends up with Seunghyun, it’s painful in a different way. No matter what route he takes, it feels like he loses...
true... if there's any character who deserves amnesia it's Yuta, there's no way he can ever live in peace with such memories... but I wonder if the author will go down the amnesia path again like they did for Jooha... but then again the way this author makes their bottoms suffer the only way they can continue living is by forgetting everything
To be honest, I feel like the amnesia arc is really lame. It comes across as if the author just wants to make her uke suffer to satisfy some strange kink, and then fixes everything with amnesia.
It also feels repetitive at this point, especially since the exact same thing was already done in the main story of Pearl Boy.
tbh I agree...amnesia arc is used as a one fits all technique to get away with whatever plot you come up with... and I find it disturbing how the author makes the story so pathetic by making every bottom suffer through, not even any other abuse, but downright violent that it makes it impossible to find the right way the bottom could achieve peace and happiness (that does not come only with death)... so I think might as well Yuta should forget everything cuz unlike Dooshik Seunghyun isn't a safe place for him, instead he's one of the people who made Yuta suffer the most now
You're totally right. I also happened to see some posts talking about her obsession with stories like A Married Man and Pawn’s Revenge.
I think that’s why she created Yuta’s character to satisfy that specific preference.
But the difference between Ignite the Dawn and other stories, including Pearl Boy, is that in those works, the bottoms who were prostitutes or were abused their entire lives never ended up with the men who hurt or abandoned them.
In this kind of story, the only real way for them to heal is to meet someone new, someone who isn’t from their past, and finally learn what genuine love feels like, instead of staying stuck with the person they loved but who could never love them back.
truly!!!!
I couldn't digest Missing Love at all and I am thinking of dropping this story now... will probably log back into it someday only when I see Yuta genuinely smiling and happy and I HOPE WITH ANOTHER ML cuz Seunghyun nope nope... he's up there in the list of tops who should die alone cuz honestly what good is your redemption if it comes at the cost of the other person's total mental breakdown where they have lost hope to the point they are planning their own death
I finally found my people here
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I’ve said it before, and I want to say it again: Seunghyun doesn’t deserve Yuta’s love. If they end up together, that would honestly be a real bad ending for Yuta. I’m not trying to be harsh, but Seunghyun should just stay alone in his casino, waiting for his Jaeil hyung to return.
For Yuta, leaving this world would almost be a better ending — no more suffering, no more abuse, no more abandonment. I truly wish Yuta could find someone who cherishes him and puts him above everyone else, but that seems unlikely. The author just loves making him suffer, so there’s no way he’ll end up with someone better, like Dooshik.
Even if they do end up together, do you guys really think Yuta can ever be completely happy? Every time he looks at Seunghyun’s face, he’ll remember the past — how he was abandoned, how he was never Seunghyun’s first choice. He will always feel insecure with Seunghyun.
And if Jaeil wasn’t married, do you honestly think Seunghyun would even choose Yuta? You already know the answer in your heart.
I just hope the author won’t be so cruel as to put Yuta with Seunghyun in the end. It would ruin Yuta’s character and make him look like a typical doormat bottom, which he absolutely isn’t. I’d rather see him single, thriving, or even with another man who actually TREATS HIM RIGHT.
It’s such a fucked up way of thinking that Yuta can’t overcome his abuse and needs to be put down or end his life
I don’t want him to die either, but the amount of trauma he carries is just overwhelming.
At this point, the only ending that doesn’t involve death is for him to finally be loved by the right person — someone who isn’t from his past, someone completely new.
Just like how Jooha met Dooshik, or how Yashiro met Doumeki.
Both Yashiro and Jooha went through severe abuse just like Yuta, and in the end, they didn’t end up with the person they loved and clung to for years. Instead, they found someone who could truly love them the way they deserved. I feel like Yuta needs the same kind of love — someone new who will choose him wholeheartedly.
I hope the author will throw a curveball with this one where Yuta heals both physically and metally on his own. Not dying.
I really hope so. And honestly? I think it could happen.
Maybe Yuta will walk away from all of it, the trauma, the past, even Seunghyun and finally choose himself.
He could go somewhere peaceful, somewhere far away…
Maybe he’d even become a monk like his grandfather, learning to heal in complete silence, with nobody to hurt him anymore.
Really the best ending tbh.
I'm sorry but he's not a dog that needs to be put down or something, whether he wants to keep living or die should be his decision to make. About Seunghyun he has fucked up many times but I don't see him as irredeemable. I really want yuta to overcome his past and live the life he wants to
I see Seunghyun liking Jaeil more as admiration for someone he met when he was a child, someone who treated him kindly its easy to fall for that person and tbh If he and Yuta met under different circumstances or got the chance to spend more time together he might have fell for him actually
Ending your life is never an answer
I understand that it would be incredibly cruel if Yuta died in the end, and I truly hope that doesn’t happen. But I still don’t want him to end up with Seunghyun.
What you said is right, but there is no “if” in this story, he can’t go back and change what happened. The damage has already been done.
I just hope Yuta can find a better man who can teach him what being genuinely loved really feels like.
There are so many possible consequences if he gets brain surgery — paralysis, coma, blindness, or even developing a mental illness. His life and body have already been through so much.
I just hope that if the author chooses not to let him undergo the surgery, she will at least write an AU where he can finally be loved.
well I understand your view too, I'm personally rooting for Yuta finding happiness and some sort of closure and since it's a BL I think it'll be with Seunghyun, I just hope he redeems himself and helps Yuta overcome all the trauma
A character like Seunghyun is more suitable being alone than being paired with anyone. I feel like Jaeil really dodged a bullet, because the author did not pair him with Seunghyun and he ended up with his own pretty wife instead. The unlucky one is actually Yuta, who fell for the Seunghyun from the past.
but why? I think his biggest mistake was to not check up on what happened to yuta personally but apart from that what else? yeah the stuff in earlier chapters in terrible but he was also drugged and assaulted the very first time he met yuta in years (not that it gives him any excuse to do the same)
If you read the last chapter thoroughly, you will understand why. Seunghyun admitted it himself. It was his pride and his own decisions. He did not want to be wavered by anything or anyone, which made him choose to overlook Yuta’s pain. Whenever he saw it, he chose to ignore it, look away, or even trample on it.
Even now, when Yuta is nearing his end, he is still hesitant and refuses to break the principles he has built over the years. And just like Yuta said, Seunghyun did not look for him and chose to forget him because he did not see Yuta as valuable or useful to his life before.
Do not forget that Seunghyun accepted Yuta’s offer because of the casino. From the beginning, he only used Yuta as a tool to get the casino he wanted. And since it was Yuta who offered, I am not blaming anyone, but that is the reason Seunghyun does not deserve Yuta’s love. He is too selfish.
He only wanted Yuta when it was convenient, and it made Yuta’s love look cheap.
He does not deserve Yuta’s devotion at all. And Yuta also realized in the last chapter that he can no longer distinguish his feelings, whether they were real or only his own delusion, so he decided to let everything go.
fair enough, I'll still be hoping he redeems himself by saving yuta and getting revenge on people who hurt him. Idk why but I really can't hate his character because I feel like he's just way too stubborn and prideful as a defense to the kind of environment he grew in, it's really difficult to change that
Unpopular opinion but I feel like Yuta dying at the end would be more reasonable and satisfying than him staying alive and ending up with Seunghyun. He has been suffering and abused for years, and even if the wounds heal, the pain will stay with him forever. And honestly, Seunghyun does not deserve Yuta at all. I am not even going to talk about the SA because people will start arguing again about how they both did the same thing. I am talking about love. Seunghyun has done nothing to earn that love from Yuta.
If Yuta’s late husband had not picked him up and taken him out of that brothel, Yuta would not even be alive today. Besides his grandpa, the only person who truly loved him and never left him was actually his husband. I think his name was Kuma. And now he is gone. So after Yuta finishes taking his revenge, I feel like he plans not to get the surgery and just let everything go, which is completely understandable because he does not want to keep suffering with all that trauma.
Seunghyun never went back to check on him for years and chose to stay loyally by Jaeil’s side. I am not blaming him because that was his choice, but that alone is enough reason for him not to end up with Yuta.
It might not happen, but I would love a side story where Yuta is reborn and finds his true love, someone who will never leave him and always stay by his side.
True same same the peace out character will have
I understand you but no I don't want him to die. They deserves a happy ending together.
Why do you think Yuta, being someone who hasn’t been able to enjoy his life in any way, should die before being able to be with Seunghyun, the person he likes, be free, and enjoy life the way he deserves?
Yeah I agree with above and the others..death would only make it more cruel. He deserved a long, healthy, beautiful life with the ones he cares for. Let seunghyun pamper and spoil him for 50 more years at least.
i wholeheartedly agree, you couldn't have said it any better than this! what yuta went through is unfathomably traumatic, a fate which is worth than anything even death. Seunghyun has left him for utter torture and eventual death(if his late husband hadn't saved him) so it's just unfair and utterly cruel to make yuta end up with someone that chose and loved another man in the expense of his life and wellbeing. Death would be far kinder and merciful to yuta than anyone has ever been in his life.
Yes. Yuta deserves peace. This man been through a fucking lot
Once the best chance passes, making things right is 100 times harder. Seunghyun's best time to save Yuta was 10 years ago. Back then, Yuta had only been abused "many" times, but now it's "countless". His psychological and physical trauma is beyond imagination
Yuta once said that Seunghyun was just unlucky to cross paths with him. Clearly, he never blamed Seunghyun for failing to save him. Yuta only used revenge as an excuse to lie to himself in reality, he just wanted to see Seunghyun and have him remember him before he died
How could someone like Yuta, who managed to survive until now, possibly need anyone to save him? For ten years, he had only himself to rely on. That is why he only trusts what he has verified himself and his own plans.
omg your analysis is absolutely correct!! i was thinking the same
I actually saw someone post this on X and thought, damn, she took the words right out of my mouth That's why I had to share it here.
Honestly, it feels like a lot of people don't understand Yuta's perspective at all. They expect him to trust Seunghyun completely and lean on him after only a month together, all because Seunghyun said some sweet things overnight. As if ten years of abandonment and abused can just be erased that easily.
Do you have the link to the tweet? I'd like to read them and I agree with you!