As someone who has been reading yaoi since they were eight, there are a few tells for when something is a dream. Firstly, it’ll feel abrupt. When a character has a wet dream (which this obviously isn’t), it’ll feel rather out of place considering the flow of the story. This interaction however, makes perfect sense. Secondly, if a character does something uncharacteristic of them in a dream, there’ll be no explanation— as if a switch flipped. The mc’s actions are explained by his intoxication.
There are other tells obviously, but TLDR; this is most likely NOT a dream
There is one thing for which my heart longs for. It’s a thing that feels unattainable, like a drop of water during a drought. It’s a radiant, hopeful thing, like the shine of the sun. It is an imperfect thing, human. And most of all, it has pink hair. WHERE IS LESHAH GWEN WHEN WE NEED HIM OMFG I HATE AMON









This story was a LOT! I read this in like 3 days and I’m so fucking traumatized rn. Honestly, this story kinda reminds me of ALNST. Obviously the fact that our core 6 were all raised in an isolated “orphanage” is a big factor in that, but I also see similarities with how both creators treat relationships.
Though the dynamics in this and ALNST are VERY different, the relationships are treated with such a beautiful complexity in both. Every relationship in this story is toxic in some way. Jin was incredibly dependent on Charin for approval and would do ANYTHING for that man, even if it means erasing himself. In turn, Charin relished in his control over Jin and didn’t realize how much he actually cared about Jin until it was much too late.
Kimoto and Tehir also share some similarites with Charin and Jin’s relationship. Kimoto deeply loves Tehir and will take every insult and every blow from him because he loves him, but unlike Jin, Kimoto tries his absolute hardest to erase his feeling because he sees them as a weakness while Jin tried to erase his feelings because he believes that Charin finds them disgusting. Charin and Tehir also have control over their respective partners, but Tehir takes pride in being able to crack Kimoto’s composure and Charin takes pride in seeing Jin as inferior to him.
Also, Kimoto and Jin’s relationship in the past was VERY interesting from Jin’s perspective. Kimoto hated and was terrified of Jin, not only because he was scary, but because he was the only one who could shake Tehir’s composure. Jin didn’t care about how Kimoto felt because he saw them as one and the same. I don’t think Jin even actually HATED Tehir, but he saw him as a nuisance— an error preventing him and Kimoto from truly becoming one.
Obviously I’m just stating what the story literally told us directly lmao (I actually appreciate how easy the author makes it to understand despite how nuanced the characters are). This is SUCH a good read despite all the… VERY WEIRD BS (I will NOT get over the fact that this dickhead is supposedly heterosexual in a world with no women)
WHY IS BREEDING SUCH A RECURRENT THEME IN THIS STORY STOP FUCKING BREEDING EACH OTHER OMFG! I had to see a doggy dick and an octopus (?) dick IM SO DONE☹
I can’t recommend this peak to ANYONE because mc almost got impregnated within the first FIVE chapters☹