sloppy possessive reunion sex would've been nice but that ending wasn't so bad either so im not complaining
and stunted mental growth. this sort of explains the first time she called mehen 'mommy' and just sort of melts into a childlike state around him.
her last life doesn't just fall under the label of “mommy issues” or “simply just, abusive”, she was dehumanized, treated as an extension of her mother. not to mention, the blatant emotional incest.
when that identity finally collapsed, she fell victim to that destruction—having no longer served a purpose, unable to distinguish herself from what was forced upon her. she was unable to have normal relationships because people felt inferior to her talents, because people had ill-intentions and wanted to mooch off her initial fame. she had no other hobbies or interests aside from what her mother placed upon her. she lacked in self-esteem because it was her mother that dictated how she was allowed to view herself; from her mouth, only came criticism, insult, and force.
she did not long for anything else as she was made to only yearn for what her mother permitted to exist. her mother did not see a daughter at all, only a child that could mimic it's parent perfectly enough to succeed in the same spaces.
she was not given at all the chance to explore and expand in other aspects of life, nor to broaden her experiences through human interactions. and she did not want to either herself, because what mattered most, was her mother.
that basically explains why mc is pretty much: socially inept, low self-esteem, pessimistic, and just extremely avoidant. i'd like to think it's not just because she's tired of her previous life's issues, but due to the fact that she's tethered away from the one person that could validate her being, and being completely rejected of it. this is why her development in the current season is so extremely satisfying! despite having “moved on” from the past, it still continues to live inside her, because such situations are not easy to be rid of, only handled smoother the next time it comes crashing. and those traits i just wrote down above, they aren't immediately glossed over either, but rather taken apart of one and another. we can still see it in her character, but now, she is able to handle it more positively.
in summary, i just really REALLY love this story. hehe (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
As a psych major, i also love her character development. I think the author handled MC's mental health problems well and didn't magically heal her or glossed over her insecurities and hang ups. The pacing is understandable as well
don't worry guys, the artist (and author?) both ship them too. there are posts on twitter and tiktok of them responding to fans/or just intensifying the ship. ITS GOING TO HAPPEN I KNOW IT I KNOOOWWW ITTTT
there's this indonesian (or i think, malaysian? im super unsure!) fan account that posted screenshots of the author (?) replying to questions regarding the pair! and one of the responses basically goes on about how they, the author, enjoy them as a couple, and another of how you'll have to be a warrior to take mehen away from valer.
and the artist has posted art of the two under the caption "mom and dad" !!
I'm not sure about the author endorsing the couple, but from what I'm aware, the novel has been completed. And from the spoilers I've read, they don't explicitly end up together.
Authors liking a queer paring but not explicitly putting it in the text is unfortunately quite common
I will hold on to hope, though, just in case the artist gets to make changes in regards to their relationship
with how popular the ship is getting, im betting all my savings on them becoming canon. and regarding what the author has said, there are texts of an interview (?) in novel updates where the author is asked about the pair! though i can't find the link but they're talked about a lot on the website so i think that would be easy to find.
the uke looks so much like a teenager. honestly had to dropthis because of that, couldn't get past chapter 14 thereafter. is anyone else thinking the same? im honestly kinda weirded out. other than that, the story seems really great (︶︿︶)!!
No i get it i think it's a stylistic choice to emphasise how different they are that mc looks and acts kinda childish but it does throw me off in the sex scenes icl
mc went from going through a homosexual crisis over a gay confession from 10 years ago to becoming spiritually a yandere at heart and a horny bastard by soul
like lowk the coachmage thing was kinda interesting but then they just started fucking every chapter ????? crazy dubcon too but man idrk ???? the way the duke just ripped both their pants off without even a panel to show????
on god the author took some heroin writing this shit because no way
open ur third eyes and just make them switch
genuinely camping out here yo