Malak's Things

I want to say thank you to the people here who was always here when i needed something, it's so hard for me to post something on social media for an advice or something, because my parents, even though i'm an adult they will check every corner from my phone but not this one because i delete my browser history every time i use it and i delete the emails because i sign in every time i use this site , i live in a place were i think it's one of the worst places in the world to live in for women especially, i mean it's hard for everyone who isn't Muslim ( this is not a hate on the religion but for people, I'm not even a Muslim) , i think it's worse because i live in the countryside where the person who imprisoned his gay son and beat him is loved by everyone for that, you can't do the normalist things like running from something without being called a whore ( because you're a woman, how dare you run away from a dog for minutes , i bet you want to show your things to a man , note: i don't have things and i'm wearing this shit that covers everything) , anyway there's a high chance that i can survive because i'm allowed to study thanks to fiminism, i can spend the whole day at college, now the hardest part of my day is coming back to this town at 5 pm and all men keeps staring at me, while they bark ( they literally bark lol but not all the time)

I wonder if this is because i describe things from my view, but i think that if you look at this from all sides it's still bad , people say that social media did this to me , mom said " why are you so obsessed with the man and woman thing , you were so insecure about it from childhood" , that's because i told her to stop letting my father treat her like this, she says " it's not like he hits me " , but he break things in the house, let me discribe things from a bigger view, my father is a good father from people's view in our society, he works ( mom does too ) , and he goes to the grocery store because women are not allowed to go outside lol , he doesn't hit mom , he's nice most of the time, but he is so obsessed with masculinity, i don't know really how to discribe it but he thinks that he's cool wherever he talks to us in a bad way , yes the older generation loved this kind of men , when i said to mom " if you break things because you're mad while you're a woman, would is be normal" , she said " you're sick , your father is a man , i feel so bad for him that his daughter thinks this way , he did that to show me that i was wrong" ( what she did wrong is that she felt guilty because she heard months ago that her aunt used to be beaten by her husband , my mom thoughts that it's just a rumor and didn't bother herself until her aunt died two months ago ), i don't really understand what is wrong with that, but yeah my mother thinks it's okay for men to do this, she will always stand in my father side , i don't really understand if i should hate them or not , it's so weird when your family loves you but they are.... Like that

What do people usually do in their 18 birthday, i don't know why but it feels important, i want to do a simple thing , nit weird like just nice, i don't usually celebrate my birthday, i don't really have friends or something so i wonder what to do

Hi everyone, I am the same girl who spoke about her forced marriage that will take place in a few years. I am the same girl who spoke about her forced marriage that will take place in a few years, and I would like to thank everyone for their support , i can't really go into details, and i'm not gonna lie, some answers made me really scared, forced marriage is really normalized where i live so people here don't take it seriously, but i have a plan for everything, even though i'm scared that it won't work sometimes , but my country made this plan so much easier, so i might be in a big problem if my family knew that i think this way because they see marriage as a very important thing, even when i talk about it with my friends they say " don't be like that, it's 2026 , it's not like your husband will not allow you to work" , but this is not what i mean, it's not only work, we live in a place that " don't you have a man who control you " It is a phrase used to insult a woman , it's like saying " whore " , sometimes it's better to plan and stay silent instead of standing, believe me

In about four years, my family will marry me off to someone I don't know, and I'll have to live to clean and cook for him. I tried to enroll in the most remote university to avoid this, but they wouldn't let me. I tried to work, but they wouldn't let me. I tried to work online but i'm not allowed to have an account, what do i do , i just want to die, I have no way out; women are not allowed to live alone here, and I have no source of income or any basic knowledge that would enable me to escape.