It’s painful and refreshing that their separation isn’t bc either is toxic but bc of an external factor. Yujin is concerned about Aaron’s well being and future. Afraid that he might drag him down with him, he left. And Aaron aware of that, is doing everything he can to find him.
I love that both are yearning for each other. Come on, Yujin’s last name??? Watching his movies bc he misses him. And Aaron just grieving bc he can’t find his lover. The lengths he’s going through just to find him.
Marriage! I read this chapter and the only word that came to mind was marriage. That might as well be another way to say “will you marry me?”
On a serious note, I like how LSY is communicating what he wants. He didn’t want to be treated like a child, like him way back when J was still the hunter who felt responsible for everything. He wanted to be seen as the present him. Not the child in the past who he felt responsible for. Love that.
There was progress with their friends with benefits situation for sure. But I get why Jinwoo tries his best to reel himself in. He knows what kind of person TY is. They’re not so close that they’ve made a rule that they’re exclusive. That’s why he felt anxious when he saw TY receiving a call/msg. He knows that there’s a possibility that he’s entertaining others.
TY dropping the “i like you” line so casually feels sus since there isn’t that big of a character development yet. Jinwoo asking that question at the end sounded like he was asking for reassurance. That his life would still be connected with TY in the future. I hope Jinwoo gets to guard his heart. I really want him to achieve his goals and his growing feelings for TY is like a ticking time bomb.
We’ve seen how easily jinwoo caves in when TY asks or wants something. It can be a good and bad thing. Being the one person who can give him solace, with their current relationship, is dangerous. Bc in the case that TY doesn’t realize his feelings or have a character development, taking that solace away might be the breaking point for Jinwoo.
This isn’t really the development I hoped for. I was hoping Mokyeon would be more independent and capable on his own. Learn to love himself and repent on what he did to Nanjo. This isn’t growth. There’s a difference between yearning and coercing. He is doing just about anything, even hurting himself, to make Nanjo meet up with him. That’s not healthy. Aside from that, did he even try and reflect on his actions? Realize that what he did was wrong? I don’t want him to just ignore the whole thing bc he realize he loves Nanjo. I wanted him to address it. To see that what he did was wrong. To repent. I wanted him to fix himself first and then comeback to start over. I feel bad for Nanjo. Mokyeon doesn’t try and understand Nanjo’s pov. And now he’s using Nanjo’s empathy just to make Nanjo do what he wants. That’s selfish.
I loveeee! Yes, start communicating. Ask if he means it and all. Get on it bc the angst is getting closer
I do feel sorry for him. But this is not the way. How is this any different from when he was coercing Nanjo to do sexual activities with him? He’s still being manipulative and coercive, just in a different manner. He’s not repenting over the abuse he inflicted on Nanjo. I don’t even think he’s thought of this in Nanjo’s pov. It’s unfair to hate on Nanjo bc of Mokyeon’s self destruction. Nanjo’s a victim here. Mokyeon might have fallen for him, but that doesn’t excuse his past actions. Even if Mokyeon starts to do all those out of love, Nanjo doesn’t see it that way. For him, it was abuse
Oh Ludville ☹ he’s always tried to look out for Camilla in his own way and he felt that compared to Ravi, he is not as appreciated bc they’re not related. He’s been able to ignore that insecurity until now. Jainer and him are the same yet Camilla chose Janier. He probably felt even worse. FRET NOT, CAMILLA LOVES YOU TOO LUDVILLE
Ngl, he was surprisingly gentle which made me love the smut even moreee
They’re so adorable that it’s scaring tf out of me per chapter. I love the slow but consistent growth in their relationship but ik I JUST KNOW something is bound to get in between that progress.
That play is for sure foreshadowing. Thinking about it though, it might apply more to Taeyong as we go on the story. At first it seemed more obvious that Dale is Jinwoo and Noah is Taeyong but I think it’s the other way around.
Taeyong sees the world as it is, he doesn’t question it, that’s why he’s so careless and reckless. Noah reflects Jinwoo more since he is “rebelling” from his mom by pursuing what he wants instead of going by the system (the career his mother wants him to pursue).
Jinwoo’s appearance to Taeyong is just like the sun that appears when Noah shows up, Taeyoung’s attention was focused on him and he lost interest in other people.
I’d also like to think that as their relationship progresses Taeyong will begin to question what he believes in (I see signs of this as he wonders why Jinwoo tries so hard). I think it’d also be a good development to his character if it does progress this way.
But please let the ending be a good one. DON’T LEAVE IT UP TO US TO IMAGINE.
Talk about blue balls, not just for Kihoon, but for all of us! damn cliffhanger
Mokyeon, my guy, you’re not seeing it. You’re already loved but you’re not seeing it. Those friends of yours checked up on you, cleaned up your house and fed you. That is a form of love but you’re not seeing it.
Please don’t hurt yourself. You should be the very first person to love yourself. You should care for yourself the most. I hope you realize that you’re no longer the unloved one. That love comes in different forms, not just romance. I wish the next time I see you, I also see even just a small progress, just one step towards choosing yourself first. Begging is not a requirement to be loved.
In the most twisted way possible, I commend myself for reading it this far lmao
THIS LITTLE SHI! JOSHUA FKN BAILEY JUST SAY OUR KIDDD FOR FKS SAKE.
That was your cue to spill it out.
That was hot asf. The possessiveness he feels over wanting to be the only person who sees that side of him. And the reassurance that he’ll never get tired of him.
IK THE ANGST IS COMING SO LET ME SAVOUR THESE MOMENTS
My favourite and probably most sane part of this whole thing is their families reaction. Like ofc they have to be aware of his obsession over Leila and lmao it’s funny how they think he’s just covering Leila’s affair.
When Leila said “I think I like him” and then later corrected himself saying I know I like him… I was like btch you have to know at this point. Had all crazy sex positions with the guy and 3 children.
THE SIDE STORY… haha. Him saying nah, he loves his brother… Cyrus holding onto the tooth… TO WHAT EXTENT IS THAT LOVE???
I’ve see this coming. They both deserve this break. Sure it’s painful but they started off at the wrong foot. It was out of coercion and manipulation. Mokyeon telling Nanjo that he was being manipulated and fooled by Sunwha, as if he didn’t do exactly that. When you think about it, Mokyeon was worse. For Nanjo, anything sexual with Sunwha was consented. Even that threesome, Sunwha asked Nanjo for permission. For Mokyeon it wasn’t so much of a choice. Remember how nauseating it was for him at first.
So yea. Separation is the best way for them to get it together. Though, idk if Mokyeon will. He seems like a wreck and it hasn’t been long since he and Nanjo stopped talking. I wish he’d stand up and be better for himself. He deserves a love where he doesn’t need to beg.
I don’t know why so many people are hating on Sunwha. Like I get it, he’s bad for not really loving Nanjo but that’s pretty much it? People act like he’s the most unreasonable one out of all of them but not really. His reaction to Nanjo and Mokyeon are valid. Even after that, he still accepted Mokyeon after seeing his injury, in hope that Mokyeon would apologize. Sunwha didn’t do anything that would jeopardize Nanjo’s life. He could out him if he wanted or do so many things, but given that he was an idol before, he knows better. He knows how crappy it is so he wouldn’t do that.
Readers sometimes villainize characters just because they’re between the two characters they ship and I think that’s a shame.
You make dating more complicated than it should, Joshua. Are you deadass rn???
That girl is up smth. I wouldn’t be surprised if Joshua comes in and that chick or chase is mounting the other bc of some drugs or pheromone.
Mokyeon is so wrong in doing that. He seriously suck in the communication department. I feel like he should fix himself first. I think distance and some reflection is necessary. Mokyeon you have to get it together. I get it, he has a sad backstory, but Nanjo also didn’t deserve that. Mokyeon just decided for him. And Nanjo’s probably battling with his feelings as of now. We can tell he feels some attraction to Mokyeon but given how they started… he was blackmailed into having that sort of relationship. So that sort of affection he feels for Mokyeon must feel uncomfortable knowing he should be in love with sunwha. He did all that for Sunwha and now he’s feeling attracted to Mokyeon. That sort of conflict is a battle that needs time. They both need to be apart to fully think and understand their feelings.