I stumbled upon tentacle plants smut when I was 11. That was my first yaoi. I had a very hard time figuring what the fuck is going on like why is he being raped by a fucking plant wtf??? After I've cleared my mind for a bit, then I realized; this is a guy banging another guy. Added with some tentacle play at that, I was just utterly ?????? and jus...... reply
i think yaoi is not really the best place to find your sense of self lol. is analysing "why i like squirting kink" important to my life? maybe, maybe not. i get where you're coming from but people can and should be able to enjoy fictions mindlessly. if you have to question every little thing in your life, that means you don't have yet a secure sens...... 4 reply