Real Life Problems

So lately I'm getting a little bit worried about my turn on's. Since a young age I have been into yaoi even before I was interested in sexual stuff like sex,masturbation and I have never masturbated reading yaoi or thinking about it. I'm bisexual and I don't have the problem with woman but when it comes to men I'm interested in stuff that happens in yaoi quite often or in yaoi manga's I have read a lot of. So I like it when someone pushes me against the wall or on the bed like what happens in a lot in yaoi. I also find it a turn on when men are very dominant and pushy but what worries me the most is that I actually like yandere kinda guys.

When they are obsessed with me and very stalk ish. I know this is dangerous because guys in (real life) like that are capable of doing some scary stuff. Right now I'm in a situation where something that happens in yaoi sometimes is happening in real life and a normal person would not get involved but it low-key turns me on being in that situation. I'm pretty sure later in life I'm going to regret this but my curiosity is getting a hold of me.

Does anyone expierences the same or has experienced it? Do you maybe have advice for me?