I'm just gonna let this out because I feel like if I don't write it down I'm going to explode, and yes this is in an alt acct, because I'm a #pussy and when I vent I feel like that sad bart meme
Anyways
I can't reach out to my family, and I don't mean literally, it's just that talking to them makes me me feel like I want to choke on glass, expode and kill myself in the process
For context, I'm in another country very very far from my family because I'm studying, my family has a group chat where they all talk constantly about anything, but I've never really texted there, because I feel like if I don't have anything important to say, I just don't want to talk
I've always had a rocky relationships with my parents(specially my mom) and with my sisters too, I've never been affectionate with any of them, and plus, we're asian, so yk...
I stuggle pretty much everyday bc I have depression, and it doesn't help that the few times I've talked to both my parents and sisters, we just end up fighting
This time, my mom was asking me if everything was alright, I answered her 'yes', and she got mad out of nowhere, she started telling me how I don't care about the family, how I never call nor text, how no one in society is going to like me because of the way I am, and that I'm going to end up alone, that when I have my own family, they're going to do the same to me, and she ALWAYS says things like that, that I'm inconsiderate, she compares me to her friend's kids, and how they always call each other every now and then, but I never do anything
Part of it it's true, I don't really reach out to them, and this is gonna sound pretty shitty of me, but I don't miss them
Every time I talk with them, they either think they're always right and I'm in the wrong, so we fight, and dismiss my feelings or belittle them, or they don't even want to hear what I'm saying, and when I say that talking to them makes me want to literally kms, I mean it, I always end up feeling like shit
I go back to my gallery and see some old videos where they took before I was born(I'm the little sister of 3 daughters) and I always wonder if all of them would just be better off without me, they all seemed so happy
Even in the group chat they send photos and videos together, I can't help but wish I wasn't even part of that group chat, just dead honestly, it would make their life easier, since my mother constantly says how always make her suffer because she fights with me all the time
I appreciate everything they've done for me, and I will always be grateful for them, but I can't help distancing myself from them, when I just feel shit everytime I do talk to them, it's a full on mental toll that I take week to recover from
I'm just so tired of everything, the guilt is eating me alive, and every night before going to sleep I wish I didn't wake up the next day
Sprry for the long rant
Anyways
I can't reach out to my family, and I don't mean literally, it's just that talking to them makes me me feel like I want to choke on glass, expode and kill myself in the process
For context, I'm in another country very very far from my family because I'm studying, my family has a group chat where they all talk constantly about anything, but I've never really texted there, because I feel like if I don't have anything important to say, I just don't want to talk
I've always had a rocky relationships with my parents(specially my mom) and with my sisters too, I've never been affectionate with any of them, and plus, we're asian, so yk...
I stuggle pretty much everyday bc I have depression, and it doesn't help that the few times I've talked to both my parents and sisters, we just end up fighting
This time, my mom was asking me if everything was alright, I answered her 'yes', and she got mad out of nowhere, she started telling me how I don't care about the family, how I never call nor text, how no one in society is going to like me because of the way I am, and that I'm going to end up alone, that when I have my own family, they're going to do the same to me, and she ALWAYS says things like that, that I'm inconsiderate, she compares me to her friend's kids, and how they always call each other every now and then, but I never do anything
Part of it it's true, I don't really reach out to them, and this is gonna sound pretty shitty of me, but I don't miss them
Every time I talk with them, they either think they're always right and I'm in the wrong, so we fight, and dismiss my feelings or belittle them, or they don't even want to hear what I'm saying, and when I say that talking to them makes me want to literally kms, I mean it, I always end up feeling like shit
I go back to my gallery and see some old videos where they took before I was born(I'm the little sister of 3 daughters) and I always wonder if all of them would just be better off without me, they all seemed so happy
Even in the group chat they send photos and videos together, I can't help but wish I wasn't even part of that group chat, just dead honestly, it would make their life easier, since my mother constantly says how always make her suffer because she fights with me all the time
I appreciate everything they've done for me, and I will always be grateful for them, but I can't help distancing myself from them, when I just feel shit everytime I do talk to them, it's a full on mental toll that I take week to recover from
I'm just so tired of everything, the guilt is eating me alive, and every night before going to sleep I wish I didn't wake up the next day
Sprry for the long rant
Alright, so i have 2 older siblings and a younger one. My eldest sister is the problem. Shes had a habit of stealing money and shit arount the house, and this is an open secret among our family. My mom told us that when we were kids a 500 note was missing from her bag and she asked my second sibling about it ( this was at night and every one else was asleep, we siblings all share a room btw) second sibling said they hadnt seen it and mother left the room, so they lay down to sleep....around 10 mins later they see eldest sis sit up and pull out the note from the gap above her in the bunk bed, open the note, stare at it, and then she puts it back and goes to sleep.
So anyways the other day second sibling asked me to buy them tickets to a movie and i brought back her money with two 100 notes and told her i couldn't keep the cash with me cuz all my cash has been going missing from my wallet the past year or so. The next night i remember clearly leaving some cash in my wallet (around 5 diff types of notes added upto almost 50 in total, btw i had cash on me that night cuz the cinema only accepts cash fsr, there's some shady shit going on there) next morning i go to work and all my cash is GONE (╬￣皿￣). I was so pissed i ranted in the fam grp chat about it losing my cash in our shared room, and asked for it to be returned if found. Not even a minute later second sibling calls me and tells me that one of the 100 notes i gave them was missing from their pouch, how shocking!! I actually didnt think she would steal money from second sibling cuz thats the sibling shes on best terms with.
Now you may be wondering how i know shes been stealing my shit. So my mom bought me pair of very expensive good quality sunglasses, which i let my family borrow if they're going on a trip or if i dont use it. One day i left it on the table while running some errands (shopping etc...) and when i went to step out again, it was gone. The only ones in the house were me, my dad, and my eldest sis. My dad was deeply sleeping on the sofa (i had tried to wake him for breakfast but he was put cold) so i knew it wasnt him, and eldest sis had stepped out 5 secs ago, i called out the door to her and asked if she'd seen them but she said hadnt.
Fast forward 3 days, im still looking for them, checked the whole house, asked my family, and the only conclusion was that she took it, so when she was home and i had the room to myself i locked the door and went snooping through her bag. What i found was an unopened pregnancy test, cigs and voila, my beloved sunglasses sitting at the bottom of her bag. Glasses that she denied having seen when i has messaged her the day before. I took a photo of it sitting there in her bag and decided to confront her later that night infront of the rest of my siblings....
Unfortunately, that night i saw the glasses sitting in plain sight on her shelf and she told me that my baby cousin must have put it there, thay pos
Anyways, i told my mom and as always she told me i should leave my things around her, which is impossible to do in a 2 bedroom apartment with 6 people living in it.
Thanks for listening to my rant guys ヾ(╹◡╹)ﾉ~
So anyways the other day second sibling asked me to buy them tickets to a movie and i brought back her money with two 100 notes and told her i couldn't keep the cash with me cuz all my cash has been going missing from my wallet the past year or so. The next night i remember clearly leaving some cash in my wallet (around 5 diff types of notes added upto almost 50 in total, btw i had cash on me that night cuz the cinema only accepts cash fsr, there's some shady shit going on there) next morning i go to work and all my cash is GONE (╬￣皿￣). I was so pissed i ranted in the fam grp chat about it losing my cash in our shared room, and asked for it to be returned if found. Not even a minute later second sibling calls me and tells me that one of the 100 notes i gave them was missing from their pouch, how shocking!! I actually didnt think she would steal money from second sibling cuz thats the sibling shes on best terms with.
Now you may be wondering how i know shes been stealing my shit. So my mom bought me pair of very expensive good quality sunglasses, which i let my family borrow if they're going on a trip or if i dont use it. One day i left it on the table while running some errands (shopping etc...) and when i went to step out again, it was gone. The only ones in the house were me, my dad, and my eldest sis. My dad was deeply sleeping on the sofa (i had tried to wake him for breakfast but he was put cold) so i knew it wasnt him, and eldest sis had stepped out 5 secs ago, i called out the door to her and asked if she'd seen them but she said hadnt.
Fast forward 3 days, im still looking for them, checked the whole house, asked my family, and the only conclusion was that she took it, so when she was home and i had the room to myself i locked the door and went snooping through her bag. What i found was an unopened pregnancy test, cigs and voila, my beloved sunglasses sitting at the bottom of her bag. Glasses that she denied having seen when i has messaged her the day before. I took a photo of it sitting there in her bag and decided to confront her later that night infront of the rest of my siblings....
Unfortunately, that night i saw the glasses sitting in plain sight on her shelf and she told me that my baby cousin must have put it there, thay pos
Anyways, i told my mom and as always she told me i should leave my things around her, which is impossible to do in a 2 bedroom apartment with 6 people living in it.
Thanks for listening to my rant guys ヾ(╹◡╹)ﾉ~
So I'm just curious to why people are supporting this absolute monster my mother went through postpartum depression while my dad was abusing her how come she didn't kill me I just think it's sick that people are defending her my opinion ┑(￣Д ￣)┍
i don't know i am feeling
i don't know how to say about the things i feeling now days but it's like there is friend of mine we are so good friends but there was a girl is like when we were in school. i don't like that but when we came in 11 class my friend leaves school that girl she like we happens to be in same class in some time we become so good friends she has own group of friends but she told be things about her life she was not able to tell anyone till now it's not like i meant too much in her life but she prioritize me too we became too good with each other she is one of them who tells me about the things i don't know about myself and i think i fell in love with her
But they both now days like each other too they do things like couple do online taking loving prioritizing each other and fights too break each other heart while saying abusing things, words that can shake your whole soul but still came back to each other. i am friends with both of them it's not that i am not happy about them but there is lump in my throat that achs that i am not the who should be there and i know that i would never be able to because my friends love her too much that maybe i am never be able too love her like she do
So the things should i just being friends with them and never tell how i fell
or should i go tell her leaves my both friends and never look back again
i don't know how to say about the things i feeling now days but it's like there is friend of mine we are so good friends but there was a girl is like when we were in school. i don't like that but when we came in 11 class my friend leaves school that girl she like we happens to be in same class in some time we become so good friends she has own group of friends but she told be things about her life she was not able to tell anyone till now it's not like i meant too much in her life but she prioritize me too we became too good with each other she is one of them who tells me about the things i don't know about myself and i think i fell in love with her
But they both now days like each other too they do things like couple do online taking loving prioritizing each other and fights too break each other heart while saying abusing things, words that can shake your whole soul but still came back to each other. i am friends with both of them it's not that i am not happy about them but there is lump in my throat that achs that i am not the who should be there and i know that i would never be able to because my friends love her too much that maybe i am never be able too love her like she do
So the things should i just being friends with them and never tell how i fell
or should i go tell her leaves my both friends and never look back again
times are tuff so I needed to find new ways to make some extra cash. if you were to hop dih for money how much would y'all charge
i have a feeling that my friends have changed since they got a boyfriend. one of my friends got a boyfriend, and she hangs out with her bf's friends alot. i have no problem with that, but one day she came to meet me. and we were just hanging out, and we decided we'll go have some chai(tea) from outside in the evening. her bf and his friends live nearby, and she had to give something to her bf, so i had no problem inviting them for chai as well. we get to the market, and her bf's friends decide that they'll have egg rolls from some shop before. now, i live in a place where there's a curfew time (9:30 pm) so i can't be late. they're all boys (except me and my friend) so they don't have any curfew time (and my friend's curfew time is 10:15 pm). she already knew that my curfew time is earlier, and i even mentioned it half an hour beforehand. ofcourse, i can't mention it in front of her boyfriend and his friends that “hey, we decided on having chai, so why the sudden change of plans, when it was YOU who wanted to meet me in the first place”. (she was the one who was adamant on wanting to come to my room, and hanging out. i suggested going to some fun place, and she refused bc she has already been there THRICE with her boyfriend. so i was like okay, next time. she also had an exam coming up 2 days ahead. so i suggested meeting up after her exam, but she was adamant so i was like "okay no problem from my side").
so ofcourse the order is late, and the shop we went to was predominantly a non-vegetarian food catering shop. they do have veg options (like, 2 or 3). i'm the only one who has veg food choices, i'm not asking them to be veg like me, i have no problem with their eating choices. but it just felt like they didn't consider my eating choices at all. (am i being entitled here? i don't know. i know i shouldn't ask them to go to a veg-only shop but going to a place where veg options are limited when you have someone who's veg is a bit ignorant to me. it's like going to a cafe with limited non-lactose options when one of the person is lactose intolerant. we can just go to a place where either non-lactose options are plentiful so everyone can choose accordingly. i would do that, even if i'm not lactose intolerant, bc i know one of my friends is). now the order is late, so i have to get my portion packed (i didn't even want to order it) and we didn't have chai, and now i have to walk to my place alone at night all bc her boyfriend and co. decided something else. great!
i just felt a bit sad bc i can't say to HER bf that we had different plans before (it would be rude, I'm not friends with her bf right?) but she could've said it and she didn't. didn't even message me to ask if i reached my place or not. then next day, posts in our friend group the pictures of her hanging out with them and it looks like i was the one who joined their hangout impromptu(we had this friend group before she and 2 of my other friends got a bf). crazy.
i just feel like they're losing me, honestly. i won't say it to their faces bc what can i even say? but i can feel the cracks slipping in, and i have started feeling nostalgic, missing the friendship even if we are still friends. i really like spending time with them, but it seems like they've changed, and my space in their life has decreased. we've gone distant, now all we ever talk is about her bf or what she's upto, i feel like i have nothing to contribute to the conversation. i can talk about my research project and career uncertainties but it brings up a sad vibe so we don't talk about it much. i am forgetting what did we even talk about before they got a bf?
i have always felt that girls change after getting a bf, i don't like it honestly. they'll say they haven't changed, but i feel it. is it just means or girls with bfs are just so exhausting to hang out with?
i still love my friends, but it's different now. i love what we used to be before boys came into picture.
they're really losing me. i feel like i'm being left behind. and all because what? i don't have a boyfriend? i don't even want a boyfriend. a girl gets a bf and suddenly wants all her friends to find a bf too like what?
so ofcourse the order is late, and the shop we went to was predominantly a non-vegetarian food catering shop. they do have veg options (like, 2 or 3). i'm the only one who has veg food choices, i'm not asking them to be veg like me, i have no problem with their eating choices. but it just felt like they didn't consider my eating choices at all. (am i being entitled here? i don't know. i know i shouldn't ask them to go to a veg-only shop but going to a place where veg options are limited when you have someone who's veg is a bit ignorant to me. it's like going to a cafe with limited non-lactose options when one of the person is lactose intolerant. we can just go to a place where either non-lactose options are plentiful so everyone can choose accordingly. i would do that, even if i'm not lactose intolerant, bc i know one of my friends is). now the order is late, so i have to get my portion packed (i didn't even want to order it) and we didn't have chai, and now i have to walk to my place alone at night all bc her boyfriend and co. decided something else. great!
i just felt a bit sad bc i can't say to HER bf that we had different plans before (it would be rude, I'm not friends with her bf right?) but she could've said it and she didn't. didn't even message me to ask if i reached my place or not. then next day, posts in our friend group the pictures of her hanging out with them and it looks like i was the one who joined their hangout impromptu(we had this friend group before she and 2 of my other friends got a bf). crazy.
i just feel like they're losing me, honestly. i won't say it to their faces bc what can i even say? but i can feel the cracks slipping in, and i have started feeling nostalgic, missing the friendship even if we are still friends. i really like spending time with them, but it seems like they've changed, and my space in their life has decreased. we've gone distant, now all we ever talk is about her bf or what she's upto, i feel like i have nothing to contribute to the conversation. i can talk about my research project and career uncertainties but it brings up a sad vibe so we don't talk about it much. i am forgetting what did we even talk about before they got a bf?
i have always felt that girls change after getting a bf, i don't like it honestly. they'll say they haven't changed, but i feel it. is it just means or girls with bfs are just so exhausting to hang out with?
i still love my friends, but it's different now. i love what we used to be before boys came into picture.
they're really losing me. i feel like i'm being left behind. and all because what? i don't have a boyfriend? i don't even want a boyfriend. a girl gets a bf and suddenly wants all her friends to find a bf too like what?
My Eldest sister is my current problem. My family and I live in a two bedroom apartment. I share my room with my 3 siblings (one is currently overseas now) and my parents have the other room. My Eldest sister currently has no job and just stays at home these days. I have a job and my other sibling is still a student. This biatch (the Eldest), whenever she want to go 'out' with her friends or whatever, locks the door to our room. Now this wouldn't be such a big deal if she took maybe an hour at most.
BUT NOOOOO
SHE LOCKS DOOR FOR 3-4 HOURS A DAY
BUT NOOOOO
SHE LOCKS DOOR FOR 3-4 HOURS A DAY
Hi guys, since we all know newtokki has been taken down, does anyone have any websites that are still updating raws in real time? Pretty much every website I’ve tried to get into have all stopped the updates since the 26th
Hey y'all, never really shared anything with anyone and it's k!lling me....my parents have always been the dictator of my life... Like whether I should pee or not, whether I could breath or not everything..... they've also been abusive but that's a story of some other day. Recently I finished high school and my parents are forcing me to study nursing which I hate... I don't have it in me to study 24/7 for a degree that I hate from the core of my heart.... I absolutely hate the idea of doing 72 hours shift with thankless labour.... I can't ran away from home either, I don't have anywhere else to go... I don't have friends I could rely on, I've never been outside much since I'm not allowed to so I'm not street smart either...I don't have anyone other than these parents... I've tried my best to make them understand that this is k!lling me and making it hard for me but they won't understand they will make me go into nursing.... At this point I feel like self deleting myself... What do I do? Will I be forever at their clutch??
P.s. I'm dirt poor from a third world country that is also Muslim... I hate this.... Why is my life like this? Why can other people live the way they want and I can't??? I can't breath here... Help me what do I do?? Should I be the good kid and except everything? I really don't have any other options... What do I do?
P.s. I'm dirt poor from a third world country that is also Muslim... I hate this.... Why is my life like this? Why can other people live the way they want and I can't??? I can't breath here... Help me what do I do?? Should I be the good kid and except everything? I really don't have any other options... What do I do?
I feel like such a fucking loser ass hoe bitch, bro I haven't done anything this year
Idk how to drive, I'm not studying, I barely work, and like "Oh you're young you have a whole future ahead of you"
Well yeah, but I can't even see myself alive tomorrow
And I hate having anxiety and depression and pmdd, omfg
I gotta die fr
Idk how to drive, I'm not studying, I barely work, and like "Oh you're young you have a whole future ahead of you"
Well yeah, but I can't even see myself alive tomorrow
And I hate having anxiety and depression and pmdd, omfg
I gotta die fr
I just got henna done on my forearm and I don't really like it, how can I remove it? It's only been an hour
User stefan on this website is a disgusting deranged pervert that needs to be medicated. When i was 13 years old stefan would roleplay sexual omegaverse scenarios with me, and whenever i asked to be the alpha they would spam my address on twitter for "triggering their alphaphobia.." Stefan also faked autism, they would tell me about how no one had found out so far.. They had convinced so many people even though they failed all autism tests.. it was scary. Another thing stefan would do, is he talk to me about how he would peel his skin and put it in his friends food ... he sent me so manh videos of him cooking food with his skin... The numerous other things stefan did to me when i was only 13, I cannot share. Bur please do not interact with this user. Please. Just spreading awareness.
Thank you.
Thank you.
So I'm very inspired by Teamin, and my fantasy runs wild. I imagine as if Taemin has a rich sponsor that backs him up in exchange of hot raw smut. Like all those times when Taemin performs hot dances and costumes on stage this sponsor punish him for showing his skin to others. Also ravishing him before performances and then praising him for handling the dances so well with vibrator inside. And then Taemin being tired of the abuse and wanting to let go but the smut is so good that he just falls in his sponsor embrace again. And then a happy ending where they break up, his career is finished and then meeting up again after some years to start anew but this time normally. Ghosh if anyone knows a similar story just let me know. I've read 2000 yaois since 2019. My brain is rot, maybe my fantasy is actually a real story I've read here. Anyway stan Taemin!!!!
i can't believe i'm resorting to confessing to a pirating website centered around gay sex but. what do you do when you don't see a future for yourself?
i was an art major four years ago. my depression was a factor in my breaking off my relationships with my best friends, dropping out of college, and moving back home. i say to people that it was because of covid, but really i didn't have the confidence to survive in the industry. i didn't have the motivation to get better because i believed i was the best artist in high school. in college i quickly learned i wasn't.
my dad got me a job in data entry. i stayed there for a few years before deciding to quit. before i could the same company offered me a position in the accounting department because they needed some extra hands. the pay was better so i accepted. i've been in this position for another two years, i decided to go back to school for accounting to finally get a degree but to be honest, i fucking hate accounting. math and science were my worst classes in high school, and now i'm sitting on my ass everyday looking at numbers, reports, and equations.
i took up writing again. it was a hobby of mine since high school. i won a national award for one of my memoirs in my senior year. but i no longer have the attention span to read books in order to improve my writing because i'm stuck at a job and in class working and studying for something i don't want to do. i'm wasting money to get a degree that i don't want. i'm thankful for even having a job but this company seems like it's on its last legs and i don't have the confidence of doing well in another accounting position at another company. should i even continue being an accountant? should i commit to becoming a writer despite my lack of skills and experience to become one? my life wasn't supposed to be this way.
i was an art major four years ago. my depression was a factor in my breaking off my relationships with my best friends, dropping out of college, and moving back home. i say to people that it was because of covid, but really i didn't have the confidence to survive in the industry. i didn't have the motivation to get better because i believed i was the best artist in high school. in college i quickly learned i wasn't.
my dad got me a job in data entry. i stayed there for a few years before deciding to quit. before i could the same company offered me a position in the accounting department because they needed some extra hands. the pay was better so i accepted. i've been in this position for another two years, i decided to go back to school for accounting to finally get a degree but to be honest, i fucking hate accounting. math and science were my worst classes in high school, and now i'm sitting on my ass everyday looking at numbers, reports, and equations.
i took up writing again. it was a hobby of mine since high school. i won a national award for one of my memoirs in my senior year. but i no longer have the attention span to read books in order to improve my writing because i'm stuck at a job and in class working and studying for something i don't want to do. i'm wasting money to get a degree that i don't want. i'm thankful for even having a job but this company seems like it's on its last legs and i don't have the confidence of doing well in another accounting position at another company. should i even continue being an accountant? should i commit to becoming a writer despite my lack of skills and experience to become one? my life wasn't supposed to be this way.
I just managed to figure out the timezone it says mgg updates in, and it's in Africa??? This has been my personal #1 unsolved mystery for the past 6 years.
Our prime minister turned dictator is murdering inoccent students just because we protested for a rightful job system . At least 2000+ students have died in the last 2 weeks. 100+ students died just today! They have murdered kids as young as 4 years old. But we still haven’t given up. We won't let the blood of our brothers and sisters go in vain. We will march towards her residence tomorrow and we only have one demand. For her to step down. Please pray for us. Joy Bangla.
I miss my troll buddy :(
Imy YENI THE PLAVE LOVER
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I miss everyone
YALL SUCK CREATING QUESTION AND RAGE BAIT
Imy YENI THE PLAVE LOVER
imy BURNGAYHOMOPHOBIC MY MASTER
I miss everyone
YALL SUCK CREATING QUESTION AND RAGE BAIT
what are YOUR bl pet peeves. for example mine is miscommunication and a whiny weak bottom that doesn't stand up for himself. or a rushed plot. feel free to give examples i'm bored and want to rant
FOR EXAMPLE. right now i'm really pissed about yours to claim. it's really still ongoing..
FOR EXAMPLE. right now i'm really pissed about yours to claim. it's really still ongoing..
Okay so, im really confused on what I want tbh.. I want to know if anyone else is having the same experience and can share some advice.
So basically, I am really confused on whether I want a romantic relationship or just something similar to the sort?
I dont want a sexual relationship, I hate kissing and the thought of having sex makes me afraid and disgusted. I want someone who I can rely on and in return they can rely on me. I want someone to hold close and to share my thoughts and feelings with. Someone who I can share words of affection with.
However, I haven't come even close to developing feelings for somebody and im afraid I never will. I am young (not disclosing my age for safety reasons ofc.) and im sick of people telling me I will eventually. Because if I’ve gone this long without even feeling attracted to some besides the normal ‘Oh, they’re pretty.’ What will even change in the future? Will i all of a sudden unlock romantic attraction after a certain age? Am i just not normal? I feel so frustrated and confused. I cant even tell my friends this because I feel they wont understand because they like other people have had feelings for other people and have dated before. I dont want to have to lie to someone to get these wants met, I want to feel loved and I want to love somebody.
:(
So basically, I am really confused on whether I want a romantic relationship or just something similar to the sort?
I dont want a sexual relationship, I hate kissing and the thought of having sex makes me afraid and disgusted. I want someone who I can rely on and in return they can rely on me. I want someone to hold close and to share my thoughts and feelings with. Someone who I can share words of affection with.
However, I haven't come even close to developing feelings for somebody and im afraid I never will. I am young (not disclosing my age for safety reasons ofc.) and im sick of people telling me I will eventually. Because if I’ve gone this long without even feeling attracted to some besides the normal ‘Oh, they’re pretty.’ What will even change in the future? Will i all of a sudden unlock romantic attraction after a certain age? Am i just not normal? I feel so frustrated and confused. I cant even tell my friends this because I feel they wont understand because they like other people have had feelings for other people and have dated before. I dont want to have to lie to someone to get these wants met, I want to feel loved and I want to love somebody.
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