Falling Inlove

Umm… so it’s like a guy likes me since 6 grade ( he said this to my friend ) and then we started talking in 9 grade like casually as friends then in 12 grade we were kinda in a situation ship but I broke it off cuz I got a ick during that time ? Idk why ….. and then later on we part ways ( we were in school together from 6-12 grade and then now I’m in college … it’s been like 3 years since but he doesn’t contact me that much anymore … and now I wanted to marry him but didn’t wanna be in a relationship with him ? ( yah I’m mad insane Ik ) and then recently I was drunk texting him and got mad at him and decided I’m finally leaving this shit but then my friend contact me saying HE calls her saying things like he wanted to marry me and that how he could understand me better and other things so then i called him days later but I don’t feel anything when I talk to him and like when I wasn’t using a phone he posted a story ( like low-key kinda insulting women ) it was “ so u want me to be financially stable inorder to date broke women and also pre fucked “ he posted this when he thinks I wasn’t using my phone … and I haven’t contacted him since cuz his behaviour was so ugh idk I hated it and it was shocking cuz he was the kindest man I knew but like I don’t think I’ll contact him anymore cuz I don’t like guys that don’t respect women! Anways do I seem like I genuinely like him or like his attention or is it just cuz i have issues ? Help I’m so confused