Racist Asian parents

I hate that my parents are so racist.
A traditional poor Asian family that loves shit talking about other Asian. May they be Japanese, korean, Chinese, Taiwanese, Indians.... Not to mention when it comes to black people.
I hate family gathering and the big annual family dinner. It's always about gossiping how they think other Asians countries are shit or weird... It's so annoying. Like it's so uncomfortable when they laugh at people misery: example an acquaintance of ours has lost her parents due to covid and my family just joked and laugh about "haha good thing we never invited them at home...". I genuinely hate them when they're like that! They always like to think they are the superior Asian or the normal Asians. Like patriotism is okay but shit talking and not facing reality and facts is not right. I'm not afraid to say it but my country has flaws. Like they kiss ass when they're in front of white people (being friendly) but when they go home they shit-talks about them " Buying a kid a big dollhouse toy? Eating separate meals, going to the parlor to fix their hair... These white face waste many. The things I do with those money". This was my aunt that criticized white people expenses and culture while being a poor earning woman that buys iPhone and brand bags instead of buying food and not getting herself out of debt... My relatives are so obsessed with fair skin! "You've gotten darker. That's not good".
I hate that they often remind me of how dark I am when I was young. "you used to be dark like n***o haha".. Like who cares if I'm tan and like my tan?!
They also go off saying: "I'm not homophobic but you can't believe what happened to the son of that friend. He's gay. Oh my god." not in a positive way. But worried and sad. As if a tragedy befalled them.
They also like to talk about other people wealth and earning. Like: " person1 bought a second house, motorbike, blah blah...." like I don't care if they buy a car. It's their money = their business....


I hate going to family gathering.
Especially when I visit my relatives that never had any contacts with white, black, Chinese people. I hate that my mother talks about Chinese people indescriminately "they have covid", "don't go near that person. He could be a thief"....
They don't listen when you tell they are being rude "it's not like they are here... Haha" is what they say. I hate that in street they speak in our language and say bad stuff about people in the street. Speaking bad in another language right infront of another that don't understand.
Here's a real life problem being born in a poor Philippine family that lives abroad and have stubborn old fashioned and incorrect thinking.
Are all Philippines like this? No.
Unfortunately mine are like these.