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Did you ever hurt yourself intentionally? Did you enjoy it?
I'm not depressed and I don't think I'm all that emotional, but when I actively hate myself it somehow feels good and safe. When I tremble with rage, insult myself and hit myself, that's when I like myself the most. I've never cut or anything, I don't want to leave permanent scars, but I like leaving huge bruises, seeing them and pressing on them so it hurts. And if I'm calm and happy with my self for prolonged period of time it somehow feels a bit disgusting and unclean compared to when it hurts. Just a bit tho. How weird is that?
tw;; self harm bitches
listen, i’m a pussy, so i can’t tolerate pain AT ALL xhwjbxjwmx, but when i have these huge mental breakdowns or suddenly start to get extremely angry, i used to scratch my wrists. To the point where it would swell and turn bright red, sometimes bleeding. It wasn’t nice, but it was a way for me to cope with the stress ...... reply
