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Did you ever hurt yourself intentionally? Did you enjoy it?
I'm not depressed and I don't think I'm all that emotional, but when I actively hate myself it somehow feels good and safe. When I tremble with rage, insult myself and hit myself, that's when I like myself the most. I've never cut or anything, I don't want to leave permanent scars, but I like leaving huge bruises, seeing them and pressing on them so it hurts. And if I'm calm and happy with my self for prolonged period of time it somehow feels a bit disgusting and unclean compared to when it hurts. Just a bit tho. How weird is that?
tw self harm: yeah in many different ways, most of it was stuff I just didn't care enough to do cause I didn't care about myself. Like not drinking water or not caring about temperatures enough and catching colds. I still do some of them. Other than that I have cut. I now have 35 scars on my legs, nobody even noticed them when they where bright red...... 1 reply
TW: Self Harm. I don't like pain at all. I absolutely despise it. Sometimes I do hurt myself when I'm having an attack or something. When I feel down in the dumps and depressed. I prick myself with a needle. And my needle is gone. I lost it. Everyone says it gets better and I really hope it does. I usually just scream internally while staring at th...... 1 reply
honestly i love getting cuts when im shaving lol
not on purpose, im just very clumsy and i have shaky hands, so i often cut myself
also when im nervous i like to scratch my thighs or arms reply
Yess me too I don't know why but somehow I want to feel pain sometimes. I'm not sad or anything at that time but I just wanna feel something. I also don't cut because I don't want permanent scars. Is it because it feels make me feels realer? I don't know but I guess I want some feeling other than keep staying as usual?
Also sometimes I feel pleasur...... 1 reply
Yea I did. For a while actually, I felt as if I could do one thing right (hurting myself) that meant I could be worth it. When I looked down at the bruises or the shallow cuts that wouldn’t leave scars, I felt like I achieved something and it helped calm me down and put an ease to my head that I COULD actually do something right and not fuck it u...... 1 reply
Tw, self harm
Also me, I used to do it mostly Bc of my anger issues. Growing up in a house with all boys and just one girl (my mom) who I don’t rlly feel comfortable sharing anything with, I was always wanting to, vent my anger. Ofc I wanted to punch anyone and everyone, but I used to just take it out on myself Bc I didn’t want to get in trou...... reply
tw;; self harm bitches
listen, i’m a pussy, so i can’t tolerate pain AT ALL xhwjbxjwmx, but when i have these huge mental breakdowns or suddenly start to get extremely angry, i used to scratch my wrists. To the point where it would swell and turn bright red, sometimes bleeding. It wasn’t nice, but it was a way for me to cope with the stress ...... reply
Idk why but whenever I have headaches and feel dizzy, I hit myself really hard on the wall. Somehow, it actually makes it feel better lmao. It probably doesn’t in reality and I was just imagining it. reply
