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Did you ever hurt yourself intentionally? Did you enjoy it?
I'm not depressed and I don't think I'm all that emotional, but when I actively hate myself it somehow feels good and safe. When I tremble with rage, insult myself and hit myself, that's when I like myself the most. I've never cut or anything, I don't want to leave permanent scars, but I like leaving huge bruises, seeing them and pressing on them so it hurts. And if I'm calm and happy with my self for prolonged period of time it somehow feels a bit disgusting and unclean compared to when it hurts. Just a bit tho. How weird is that?
Idk why but whenever I have headaches and feel dizzy, I hit myself really hard on the wall. Somehow, it actually makes it feel better lmao. It probably doesn’t in reality and I was just imagining it. reply
