Tw: su1c1d3/ m3ntal 1llness

Can y'all guys give me a reason to live? Im willing to kms on my birthday, i dont even know why im living rn. "It'll get better" they say, well its been 3 years idk why it gets worst. If ur ever feeling this too please reply, i wanna know what u feel every day.... I know im not ok but i dont wanna self diagnose it just feels so wrong.