Am I weird or not ?

hey everyone.
When i was 11 years old, i was raped by my step-father. Because of this i had psychological issues for years and never had the possibility to get close to someone. Now everything is fine in my life.
I'm acctually pretty young, i'm 18 and recently a guy that i've known from middle school ask me out. So i accept because he's a nice person and we're get on well together. we're going out from almost 2 month now, i've tell him about my past and he seems to accept it.
But i don't know how i feel, i don't know what love is. Nothing happend during this 2 month just one kiss at the beginning. I'm scared on getting close to him.
And i'm scared that maybe i don't want to get close to him because of the things that happend to me and not because maybe i don't have feelings for him.
So i'm lost... i don't know what to do...
Anyway, i'm not seeking for a miracle anwser, i just wanted to confide to you.. thanks.
(Ps: i'm not english speaker so sorry for eventual mistakes)