Something your friend or someone you are close to found out, rather than saying to them 

I constantly lie, and this is my worst lie. I keep saying to them that this friend they are talking to is a great friend of mine, but in reality, it's me they are talking about. I want them to find out because I couldn't bring myself to say it to them. I have been making hints that me and that friend are the same person (they are talking online), and I can't bring myself to tell them because they are giving information that they would rather die than tell it to me. I see a different version of them in that friend account, and I know I am such a bad person. But it's the only way me and my friend could talk and shape myself into something they'd like.