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What should I do..
I've thought about it so many times, but, I couldn't try it. Death is a big thing for so many people but for me.. it's just.. a small incident. This feels really bad because death can bring changes for worst but.. I haven't done anything till now that will give me a desire to continue, but I also can't try it because I'm scared of what might happen to my family when I'm gone they'll probably survive and Im probably one of the biggest reason for their stress and struggle, but even with that I don't have the motivation to continue, maybe I'm guilty or just afraid of what will happen afterwards, whether it'll be just a peaceful sleep or the beginning of another journey. It's probably not small for me, I've only ever found my peace in stories, most of emotions are not mine but of the characters I've seen. I don't know what's real or fiction anymore. I'm just ranting here, but I don't think I deserve to have my own feelings, I probably can't. I don't have a goal, nor the motivation to find one. I just don't know what to do anymore, am I being a coward or am I really concerned about my loved ones?
A few years ago I had a serious addiction to reading books and novels. It felt like the only thing keeping me going. My family aren’t the best ppl.and friends weren’t rlly there for me cuz u kno i was weird to them. This addiction gradually went away cuz I was banned from reading them from my family. It came to the point when I wanted to die. T...... 3 reply
I'm glad I found your comment because it sounds just like me. I always thought I was the only one to think this way. I could never talk to other people about it because I thought that they would view me in a negatve way or just that they wouldn't understand. In my opinion your not a coward just someone who's stuck in a world where everything just d...... 2 reply
I have been in this situation too. I really think you can come through this by talking to someone more reliable (like a friend, or even a family member who would listen) so that you both can come up with whats best for you. You say you havent done anything wothy, but that's not true. We all have made someone smile, or cry, or compliment, or fight w...... 2 reply
Honestly I don’t give a shit bout my mom being sad she deserves it even tho she’s better she still deserves it. I feel like u actually care bout ur fam u ain’t a coward if ur scared for them when ur gone then that’s a sign that u care bout them. 1 reply
Update: I'm doing great guys!! Was reading the all responses again and I'm filled with gratitude towards each and everyone of you!! Just wanted to say that all of you made me feel so much more better and I was encouraged ╥﹏╥
(basically I did get diagnosed with depression, but I fought hard and really hard so I'm better now)
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death is definitely a sensitive topic. especially, when one think they'd be better off so than with the struggles and obstacles of the real world. nobody can prepare for death, and they never will be able to. i've learned to rather not be afraid of what will happen after my death, but see it as a new opportunity for those i leave behind. everyone e...... 1 reply
