how to lock in for summer body shred?

i have my birthday in like 1 month. also, i don't care much about my birthday i know i can't lose 30 kg by that time T_T. but I really need to lock in. do you have some underrated and unhinged tips to lose weight and fat?
i am mostly struggling with starting the fitness journey. i have been struggling with being SO FUCKING FAT since like, FOREVER. i want to be thin gang like it's so bad. i just want to be fitter and leaner. and no, not that ozempic body, thankfully im out of the shackles of the pr0-4na tumblr side. but I still need to be HOT like i genuinely want to be HOT for me. i love being attractive sorry if it sounds shallow but i wanna see my full potential. and I know there's no peak, i'm forever evolving, but I need to start somewhere.
so please, I just need some motivation on starting fitness journey. basically some pep talk and good useful underrated wierd unhinged tips that helps you to get that bawdy TEA!
i already know the calories deficit, 10K steps, hitting protein and fiber intake of the day, sleep etc. i'm just struggling to start like i need to start i know but it's so hard for no fricking reason.
also, some youtubers (with free challenges calender or programs) which are good for beginners, it can be cardio, pilates, bodyweight, HIIT, yoga anything. i lost all core strength T_T need to restart pilates for core strength( pilates is #1 for core strength, i can vouch for it istg). also, can y'all share your workout split that works for you. also, no i dont go to gym, i don't have all-female gyms nearby and the co-ed gyms are NOT it. i have deep fear of indian men (yes yo' girl indian T_T this country is not for the weak, i feel it's not for the strong either. being a woman in india who's FAT and queer and not have skin as white than chalk? literal HELL.) i js do NOT fw indian men, lord save me T_T. also, why gyms so expensive and i don't have spare time to go spend 1hr in gym to pay hefty fee (i don't have dumbbells, only resistance bands :D).
also, i'm lacto-vegetarian btw ;)

any advice is appreciated. you can also share your personal weight loss or fitness journey.

xoxo
mr rover <3