TMI can y'all help me?

im sorry if it's TMi can any girl tell me how to jerk off im genuinely so scared of doing it but im so frustrated UGH T_T like im scared to put fingers inside my vajayjay also i tried doing it but it doesn't feel good it feels wierd and scary and idk how to do it either. (im sorry if it is too TMI idk who else to ask?) for reference im 22.
i was reading this one yaoi(it was "dawning light" for ref T_T im a certified gooner now i got so turned on like my pants are wet for some reason idk why i am wet most times like not sexually just the discharge is more(?) there's no problem it's been like that since like, FOREVER. there are no down there problems or anything. fuck i hate when my pussy wet for no reason now what to do T_T it looks like i pissed myself.
also yes im gonna delete this once i get any helpful answers this is not a troll post please help a girl out i beg, im sorryy T_T
god im gonna be called a gooner fujo from now im so embarrassed. why is being turned on so embarrassing im not even sexually attracted to no one irl or even in fiction (maybe oh inseop from for your murder lord psychopaths do it for me so good)
thanks in advance