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I Feel like ill be deleting myself soon
I dont know the betrayal i have had has just killed me alive and my health issues doesnt makes it much easier. With that if only i had stable finances that i didnt had too worry about everyday for having a secure life. Like this all just feels meaning less like i dont feel like i have any purpose left in life all i ever wanted was stability with someone who would give his soul and truly understand me but i guess at this age of 30 i have gotten enough reality checks that i cant go any longer if that doesnt exists in this world i always wanted too share past and future but both and my family betrayed me too i dont want too be a burden on anyone anymore its better i end this now before it gets worse cause if this world cant offer me what i need then ill just quit this pathetic game. Also i dont see anything getting better anytime soon i have begged for reason too live like a fucking beggar but i can't why should i even try to find a reason too live if there was any in the first place it would have appeared but yeah i guess i wont fucking find any reason now its enough.
Buy some physical porn and keep it in your childhood bedroom. Then live in fear that your family will find out your weird tastes and strive to live in a nice house where you can house your nasty collection of BL. At least, that’s what’s keeping me alive.
To be completely honest, you should take some time to reflect on what has happened to you....... reply
I hope life treats you better. You've been through a lot. But a permanent solution isn't the way. I believe in you. I believe that you can change your life for the better. You can do this, virtual hug 2 reply
Yeah, I do get that cause I literally overthink everything...T-T. I'm aware that i eventually have to face the reality no matter how bad or how good the day went. I've been super down and depressed recently, my body hurts, my chest feels weird, my hand shaking, Idk why but I'm so scared all the time now... it's kinda hard to explain it.. I've lived...... reply
Thank you all for reaching out and taking your time too shine some light on me. I hope you all also get into better places and situations you guys are striving for.
As for me its very complicated, whatever i try too do or just start it just results in such bad heavy repayment that i just feel if i do anything i will be again burnt alive whenever...... 3 reply
